I feel like this all the time and I'm only 21. I had a problem with a group of guys in my last year in high school and after graduating never heard from them til roughly 8 months later when they showed up at the same place I was meeting up with someone and they were insulting me for the way I looked and whatnot. It went on for a full month then it was the odd time, in which case they started calling me a fag right to my face. All of that caused me to be scared about going out, finding a job, and dating guys. I even had to avoid walking past certain spots because I know some of their hangout spots. I feel they completely ruined my life, and now when I see a group of guys, I panic. They haven't bugged me in over a year now, but I can't help but think they'll be right there waiting to say something. I've been seeing a therapist for over a year now, and he totally understands what I'm going through. I'm now taking baby steps to try to get my life back to when I didn't have to worry about them.