Lost in a Dream

[justanothershyguy]

Oh no! This is a tragedy! But, I have to remember that the best of relationships have their bumps and this has to be the case now. Matt, you have such a talent of digging deep into your readers emotions. Whether they are good or bad, the feeling is intense. I don't know if I can wait too long for chapter 19......

Craiger

I've been trying to get this pushed forward a bit! Fortunately, 19 has been completed I had to work hard because I didn't want to wait long!

I suspect my reaction to this last chapter was like so many other readers: shock and awe. Shock at how quickly Matt's perfect union with Brayden fell apart. And awe at how your telling of the events and its effects on Brayden and Matt captured their pain and anguish and how deeply I felt it myself. I really didn't know what to say for a day or so. But my hat is off to you for keeping reality, humanity and sincerity in this unusual and powerful story. Like your characters, I need relief from this pain and can only hope that the chapters ahead show them finding their way back together.

The whole turn of events leaves me wondering if other fans of this story were affected as deeply as I was.

I really wish I had them all done in an instant! But, it takes time

You're toying with my emotions now. That's not nice. I didn't see it coming.

It's not nice :'( I toyed with my own emotions, too. I don't know if you can believe it, but I promise you everything is okay on my end. I got all emotional when I wrote it, but that was the extent of it. I'm sure everyone realizes how much I put myself into Matt's head for this, and if I wanted it to turn out well, I had to go all the way in!

And so, I'm happy to say that I've got 19 here for everyone. I'm not going to spoil anything, so, read and learn about what's going on!

Lost in a Dream, Chapter 19

I would love to say that everything that happened last night was a dream. And that I woke up that morning and Brayden was next to me. But it wasn’t a dream. And he wasn’t next to me. To be honest, I didn’t even sleep last night. Every time I closed my eyes, his face was there to keep me awake. My tears were there. The pain. I was cold. Alone. I hope Brayden did get some sleep. Where ever he was. I’d caused enough pain.

My heart was pounding in my chest as I heard keys jingle and the lock tumble. Click. Light flooded into the room from the hallway and a figure cast a shadow in the light. Could it be...

No. It was Jason making sure I was okay. “Fuck’s sake, Matt. You look like shit,” he said as he turned my lights on.

“What did you expect to see?” I grumbled as I tried to shield my eyes from the light.

“Did you get any sleep?” he asked concerned, ignoring my question. That was probably wise of him.

“Not a wink,” I said staring off into space. “Who’s Brayden staying with? Do I know who he’s staying with?” I asked thinking Jason knew something.

“Why do you ask? You’re not going to try and get him to talk today, are you?”

I shook my head side to side as I sat up in bed. “I just wanna be sure he’s in good hands.”

“Matt, I don’t know who he’s with. But, I’m sure he’s in good hands,” he said trying to cheer me up. “ He’s got friends, just like you do. And you know what? He could be with someone you and I both know.”

“Thanks.” I said gloomily.

“I’m gonna keep checkin’ on ya today. Try to take care of yourself, and get some sleep if you can!” Jason said as he left the room. I think he kept my keys. At least, I didn’t see him put them anywhere. It was probably a good thing he kept them.

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It’s easy to lose track of time when you’re lost in thought. Every time the door opened, I hoped it was Brayden. I hoped he would walk in, sit down, and listen. But, that was a false hope. I knew better.

At one point, it must have been after lunch, Jason came by. He lectured me for not eating lunch, but I wasn’t hungry. He made me promise to go out with him and Kelsey later, so I said yes. I’m glad he was still my friend. He’s a good friend.

I called Evan at one point. I was as nervous as the first time I called Brayden. I don’t know exactly why, but I suspected it had to do with my inner hope that Brayden was with either Evan or Lukas. Or, at the very least, that they knew what had happened to him.

“What the fuck do you want, asshole?” Evan said as he answered. I was so shocked I didn’t say anything right away. Tears welled up again. I had cried countless times lately; I was surprised I hadn’t run dry.

I still hadn’t composed myself so Evan broke the silence.

“Hello?” Evan questioned harshly.

“Is he ... is he okay?” I said softly before I sniffled. What a stupid fucking question.

I had hoped to get a response, but that didn’t happen. Click. Evan hung up on me. It hurt. It felt like my nerves were ripped out, wiggled at me like they were a toy, and thrown back in my face. I had been sitting on Brayden’s futon, so I just fell over onto my side and cried. I tried to call Evan back just to talk, but he didn’t answer. It rang twice and then went straight to voicemail. “Hey, you’ve reached Evan Schmidt. I seem to be busy...” I hung up. Why wouldn’t he listen? Is this how Brayden would react, too?

Much to my surprise, a few minutes later, Evan came down and walked into my room. He walked straight over to the futon, sat down, and said, “I need to hear from you what the fuck happened before I pass my judgement.” he said, expecting me to answer, “So just tell me. What the fuck happened last night?” Tears fell from my face as I stared ahead, still silent.

“I...” I started, but sputtered as I tried to find the right words. “I let Dean kiss me last night.” I finally said.

“Okay ...” Evan paused. Now, he looked like he was trying to remember something. “Wait,” he started like he had found the key to it all, “he kissed you? Did you kiss him back?”

The thought of that kiss still hurt; I decided just to explain to Evan everything I could remember. I took a deep breath, exhaled, and let the story flow out. “Somehow, Dean and I ended up in the kitchen alone. He said something, but I wasn’t really listening to him. I smiled because I felt it would be the polite thing to do, and then he grabbed me by the back of the head and kissed me. I was so shocked I couldn’t even close my eyes. It felt so wrong.”

“Okay.” he said. “Well, you still have to make this right.”

“I know.” I said solemnly. “I just hope he’ll listen when the time comes. I don’t think I’ll sleep until my body forces me to. Every time I close my eyes, I see his face. His tear-filled eyes.” My eyes watered as the image came to mind again.

I looked over at Evan and could see his eyes were tearing up, too. “Sorry.” I said flatly as I looked down in shame. “Can you keep him busy? Can you help him have fun? Can you do that for me? I don’t want him to be as miserable as I am. He didn’t do anything wrong. This suffering is mine to bear. It’s my penance,” I said as looked him back in the eyes.

He got up and said, “I’ll try my best.”

As he made his way towards the door, I said, “Evan? If he ever wants to use the room for anything, let me know. I can be gone for however long it takes. If he wants to sleep here, I can sleep in my car. I don’t want to be hinderance to him anymore.” He nodded, opened the door and walked out. I noticed him go into Jason’s room and close the door behind him, but I didn’t really want to know what they were going to talk about.

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The rest of Sunday was quiet. Of course I was still upset about everything that had happened, but I was also glad that nothing else happened. I had to look on the bright side of something. Dean had texted me a couple of times throughout the day, but I didn’t even look at those messages. I didn’t want anything to do with him.

Jason and Kelsey took me out to dinner like they promised. I didn’t eat much, but at least I’d have leftovers for a couple of days. I half expected Kelsey to lecture me at some point for being a dumbass. But she didn’t. I wouldn’t say she or Jason were supportive of what I’d done, but they still did their best to cheer me up. I just wish it could all work out that easily.

Later that evening, I heard Jason’s door open and close. Rather noisily at that. Curious as I am, I got up and peered through the eye-hole in the door. I wanted to see something. Something that would make this all better. And hear something I did! A laugh from Jason’s room. Brayden’s laugh! I felt that warm, fuzzy feeling inside when I heard it. I wondered what Jason must have said to get Brayden to laugh... Whatever it was, thank you Jase! You’re the best!

Then, my heart started to pound and that warm feeling ... the feeling I’d wanted to feel for the past day ended. Jason’s door was opening. And my Brayden was right there. He walked up to my door -- our door -- and reached up, as if to knock. I thought my heart was going to leap right out of my chest. Brayden was here, less than two feet away.

Suddenly, something caused Brayden to stop. His arm froze in place. He looked to his side. He looked back one last time. I wanted so badly for that door to disappear. I wanted to reach out and touch his face. Wanted to talk to him. For whatever reason. Brayden’s arm fell to his side. He wasn’t going to knock. Why? Why wouldn’t he knock? The nerves I felt, the warmth inside, all gone. Gone with that single motion. He sighed to himself, frowned, and walked away.

I started to cry all over again. I couldn’t catch my breath. I leaned my forehead against the door and sobbed. Brayden’s afraid. Afraid to talk to me now! Why couldn’t I just open that fucking door and hug him? I was so close to him ... yet so far away.

Suddenly, there was a knock at my door. Whoever it was pushed the door open. I fell backwards. I didn’t even want to know who was there. I landed on my ass and slid a foot or so. But all I wanted to do was hide my face. I laid down on my back on the cold floor and covered my eyes in shame with my hands.

“Oh shit, Matt!” I heard Jason say as he towered over me. “I’m so sorry! What were you doing there?”

“Oh, uh...” I mumbled. Jason reached down and helped me up as I tried to collect my thoughts. “As stupid as this sounds, I heard your door open and close. So I went to my door and looked out the eye-hole. I was about to sit back down, but then I heard a laugh. His laugh. I knew it had to be Brayden.”

I looked into Jason’s eyes to see how stupid I must sound. I couldn’t read him. I didn’t know what to say to him. “I just want to say thank you, Jase. Thanks for whatever you did to make him laugh!” I hugged him.

I had said ‘thanks’ to Jason without smiling. I think that was a first for me. It felt weird. I had hugged him with so much uncertainty. I’d never done that before. Nothing felt right.

“Okay,” Jason said, breaking my awkward tension, “then why were you crying just now?”

“I saw him, Jase. He was right at the door. He was gonna knock. And then he didn’t. He just walked away.”

“It will all work out, Matt.” Jason assured.

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Later that night, I watched a movie with Jason, Evan, and Kelsey. Even though Brayden and I had only been with each other about three weeks, it felt weird to not be cuddling during a movie. Or in a dark room.

After I returned to my room for the night, I decided to ask the Internet what I should do. I had been on a forum before and I looked through the advice area on occasion. Sometimes, you never know when you might be able to offer some advice to someone else.

I quickly scanned some of the topics that had been made recently. I stumbled upon one titled, “Trouble in paradise” by MidwestSwimfan2009. I started to read it, because, well, my paradise was in trouble, too.

ok. so, me and my boyfriend have been dating for just over three weeks. we’ve had sex and we have great chemistry. i thought i loved him, and i thought he loved me. we’ve both said it and neither of us were opposed to that. we even live together now.

Interesting. Maybe I could help this guy out.

this is kind of a long story, so i’m just gonna throw that out there. on thursday night, we were fucking and got walked in on. i knew we were being watched from the very first, but it turned me on so much i didn’t want them to leave. the two guys that walked in happened to be friends, so when we were done fucking, they tried to tease us about it, but neither me or my bf would have any of it. at that time, i didn’t think it was a big deal, but it really freaked my bf out.

Oh my God, Brayden!

that night, i slept like shit. my mind was really bothered by the fact that he was freaked out about the walk in and that it turned me on so much. i confessed to it being a turn on the next morning, and after a couple moments he said that he didn’t really care as long as we didn’t let it happen again. but, i think it really did bother him more than he was willing to admit.

I think it did, too.

friday night, my bf and i didn’t fuck, but we 69ed. everything seemed just fine. he made sure to lock the door and we both laughed about that. i thought everything was good. then, saturday morning came around, and he woke up in a weird mood. it wasn’t around long, but he was really gloomy at first. it’s not that he’s not a morning person. he’s always positive and always smiling, no matter the time of day...

Not anymore...

... so, after a few minutes, i asked him why he had never drank before. of course we were still underage, but everyone i had known drank at some point. and he told me that he was afraid of his secrets (like coming out)...

That’s not exactly how I put it, but I guess he got the point.

... and then he told me he probably would, now that the cat was out of the bag (he’s out), as long as he was in control it couldn’t hurt. by the time we got to the party, it was pretty packed. we were both pretty excited, and it turned out we had a friend there who we weren’t expecting to be there. that friend and my bf teamed up for some beer pong, and my bf warned me things could get interesting (remember, he never drank before). while they were playing, a girl noticed the way i was looking at my bf and we started talking. it turned out she was a lesbian and we both just chatted the night away...

As I read about the girl, I remembered getting a little jealous about him talking to her. I’m so stupid! I had nothing to fear with Brayden. I never did.

... every time i’d look over at my bf, he was having a blast. and he was getting really drunk, and the other friend was getting really touchy-feely with him. after they were done playing, they both went to the kitchen. i’d enough of the party, so i went to get him and bring him home. when i went in the kitchen, my bf was kissing the guy. i called my bf’s name to make sure it was him, and it was. i started crying right there and just left. i didn’t look back. i went to our room and packed some clothes and i stayed the night on a friends futon.

so, i need some advice. my bf has said that he gives people a chance, whether that’s to get to know them or anything else. should i follow his advice?

Amazingly, that was just the main post. I started to get curious at what other people said, so I continued. I shouldn’t have. One person wrote, “He’s already out of the honeymoon phase. You should be too. Move on from him for your own good.”

“He’s been playing you since the start. He’s a cheater, and cheater’s cheat. It’ll just happen again if you let him back in.” I started to tear up as I read on. These people were so mean!

Not all posts were like that, though. One said, “Let him back in, call your two friends, and have a hot and steamy four-way!” Of course someone was just thinking about the sex...

Another post made me feel more at ease. It read:

“This is early relationship stuff. A lot of times early stage relationships exhibit scenes out of bad romance novels. At least two things are going on here. The two of you need to learn how to be in a relationship, something, by the way, that needs to be discussed, not assumed. The other thing is that every person who drinks has to take responsibility for their actions while high or drunk. Perhaps your bf learned a lesson. Talk to him.”

Yes, he has! A very awful lesson. Please, Brayden. Please ignore some of the others. Listen to this one!

I kept reading because I saw another post from Brayden.

ok, so today has been interesting. he called my friends bf and they talked for less than a minute before my friends bf hung up. the friend that i’m staying with said i should let him talk to me. everyone close to me says he still cares. so, i went and talked with his best friend. after we talked (he happens to be our RA), i almost knocked on the door to our room. but i couldn’t. i need more time. was that the right thing to do? should i have chickened out?

The next person to post was the same guy from earlier. The one who I hoped Brayden would listen to. That post read, “Don’t talk to friends. Talk to him directly.”

Please, Brayden. Please, please, please listen to this guy.

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I decided that right before bed, I’d make a topic of my own and just go to sleep. It would give me a chance to hear the neutrality, and maybe even Brayden would see it. I clicked on “New Topic”, found the subject line and typed “I messed up”, and started to tell my story.

My goal with the post was simple: to get advice. I wanted to hear what other people had to say, and to do that, I had to explain what had happened. If they noticed the similarity between my story and Brayden’s, then good for them. I would also hope that they would notice that I’m willing to admit that I was wrong and that I still care.

I decided that in order to reach my goal, I had to explain my side of the story from the beginning. I tried to show how quickly our love had blossomed. I tried to explain where I thought the trouble started: the night Lukas and Evan walked in on us. My mind was quite foggy for a couple days because of that.

I think the wild card of the whole sequence was alcohol. I told the forum this, and I said that I lost control once I was at the party. At the time, I didn’t know if I lost control because I was drunk, or because I got jealous after seeing Brayden with that girl. But, I saw his side of the story, so I didn’t write anything about the jealousy.

I had to be really clear in the post that I was extraordinarily torn up by the whole thing, because I really was. I just didn’t know what to do. Heck, I still don’t know what to do! The one thing I had to be clear about was that I didn’t kiss Dean back. It wasn’t even a mutual kiss.

The last thing I wrote about was the incident at the door. I didn’t want to ask if I should have opened the door, because that’s already in the past. I can’t change something I’ve done. If I could go back and change things now, I would have hung out with Brayden the whole night.

I ended the post by asking two related questions. Should I approach Brayden? Or, should I give him some time and space and let him approach me?

I quickly did a once-over of my topic, decided it was good enough, and clicked “Submit”. I went to bed shortly after, with Brayden’s shirt clutched firmly in my grasp.



To be continued...

[sheep]

Aw Matt, when I read this I forgot it's a story. The people and situations are so life-like. This is either an autobiography or you have tremendous insight into the human psyche. It reminds me how fragile relationships tend to be at their beginning, before trust is built.

The twin discussion was very interesting, too. I'd love to see that developed a little more.

[BillyCanCum]

sorry i didnt post sooner but i didnt know what the fuck to think about it all. i know it isnt real but still i konw you war hurting when i read all that hsit that happened and ive been there and done shit worse than happened there and i know it hurts. it like drained all the word out of me to read that shit. you didnt do anything wrong you just got in a bad place and it got all fucked up. i started writing you two days ago b ut just stopped.i liked it sort in a way but it heur and i didnt know what to say to you about it.

now before i cokld even post you have a new chapter and you guys still arent like together. it sucks. i want you to be happy with breydon again like you were and fuck andsuck and all that stuff you like to do together. it really gets me going but you know all about that. tease is fucking rights


i owe you a m i know and ill try to write you soon. and i will. until then know that you can call me billy that's right. ask hr about the rest. you know.

so i wantyou to make make me super boned ovetime till i jizz again with the next part.. you did it before nad i know you love getting me shooting crzy. i bhope your writing hot sex shit for me right now. oh congrats to. i heard. good for you. matts got a ....

ill write toya soon!

[Craiger]

Matt, the concept of finding Braydon's post for advise and then posting one in turn was brilliant. At least there is dialog of sorts going on between the two. Also, the positive post from the wise person is right on. There will always be naysayers but it is like a ray of sunshine when you find someone with a positive attitude. As Sheep says your characters are so life like we tend to forget this is a story, yet so close to reality.

Craiger

[hardreader]

The power of your writing amazes me time and time again. Knowing this is fiction is only an intellectual exercise. Reading your story is so much like having you tell about your real life that it grabs deep into my gut virtually every time. These last two chapters have been literally gut wrenching to read.

I feel like the guys you write about are guys I hang out with. I feel like you are my best friend of all and I care deeply as I read. It makes me really happy, really hard, but also really sad at times. When your fresh, new relationship with Brayden, a relationship that just days ago seemed so perfect, fell apart it was devastating to read about. Now that it appears there is hope ahead, I feel hopeful, but still quite sad that the pieces have not fit back together easily. Both Matt and Brayden seem to be taking steps to find their way. I hope you want them together as much as we all do . . . all of us who are reading LIAD. I know you must. So much of Matt seems so much like you. Let them still be in love, please!

I just read this post again and find it hard to believe I wrote it. I've read and written so many stories on JUB and other story sites like it, I can't believe I have let a story get to me the way this one has. I tip my hat to you once again as a new and profoundly talented writer.

[justanothershyguy]

Aw Matt, when I read this I forgot it's a story. The people and situations are so life-like. This is either an autobiography or you have tremendous insight into the human psyche. It reminds me how fragile relationships tend to be at their beginning, before trust is built.

The twin discussion was very interesting, too. I'd love to see that developed a little more.

Just tremendous insight! At least in Matt's head, that's for sure.

sorry i didnt post sooner but i didnt know what the fuck to think about it all. i know it isnt real but still i konw you war hurting when i read all that hsit that happened and ive been there and done shit worse than happened there and i know it hurts. it like drained all the word out of me to read that shit. you didnt do anything wrong you just got in a bad place and it got all fucked up. i started writing you two days ago b ut just stopped.i liked it sort in a way but it heur and i didnt know what to say to you about it.

now before i cokld even post you have a new chapter and you guys still arent like together. it sucks. i want you to be happy with breydon again like you were and fuck andsuck and all that stuff you like to do together. it really gets me going but you know all about that. tease is fucking rights...

so i wantyou to make make me super boned ovetime till i jizz again with the next part.. you did it before nad i know you love getting me shooting crzy...

Don't worry about when you post or if it's too slow! The important thing is that you read it and that you did post

Billy, I really think you'll like this one.

Matt, the concept of finding Braydon's post for advise and then posting one in turn was brilliant. At least there is dialog of sorts going on between the two. Also, the positive post from the wise person is right on. There will always be naysayers but it is like a ray of sunshine when you find someone with a positive attitude. As Sheep says your characters are so life like we tend to forget this is a story, yet so close to reality.

Craiger

I just want to point out, that since you commented on it, that's actually a legitimate comment written by a certain someone on JUB. He's also written a part to the next one, and I'll thank him after the chapter

The power of your writing amazes me time and time again. Knowing this is fiction is only an intellectual exercise. Reading your story is so much like having you tell about your real life that it grabs deep into my gut virtually every time. These last two chapters have been literally gut wrenching to read.

I feel like the guys you write about are guys I hang out with. I feel like you are my best friend of all and I care deeply as I read. It makes me really happy, really hard, but also really sad at times. When your fresh, new relationship with Brayden, a relationship that just days ago seemed so perfect, fell apart it was devastating to read about. Now that it appears there is hope ahead, I feel hopeful, but still quite sad that the pieces have not fit back together easily. Both Matt and Brayden seem to be taking steps to find their way. I hope you want them together as much as we all do . . . all of us who are reading LIAD. I know you must. So much of Matt seems so much like you. Let them still be in love, please!

I just read this post again and find it hard to believe I wrote it. I've read and written so many stories on JUB and other story sites like it, I can't believe I have let a story get to me the way this one has. I tip my hat to you once again as a new and profoundly talented writer.

They were gut and mind-wrenching to write, too. But, I had to make them believable, and I think I got that. There is resolution in this chapter. You won't be left hanging any longer.

SO, that leaves me with one more thing to do. Post chapter 20. I know you guys are waiting! I think I got it written quick enough where you haven't waited too long. So, here we are. Chapter 20.

Lost in a Dream, Chapter 20

Once again, I didn’t sleep well. I woke up when my alarm went off an hour before class and immediately checked my forum post for a response. I felt that I needed to see something good. Well, that’s not true. Nothing I saw was going to be good enough to sooth my mind until I saw Brayden. What I needed to see was something helpful.

There were only a couple posts made overnight, but one was exactly what I had hoped for. It was even from the same person who had posted on Brayden’s topic. The person wrote:

“You definitely should seek him out. You are the one who put yourself in a compromised position. I would have opened the door when you peeked and saw him outside the door. Don't put this off. Call him immediately. Good luck.”

He was right. It was my fault and I needed to be the one to reach out.

I pulled out my phone and called Brayden’s number. He didn’t answer.

I really wasn’t surprised. It was early and I was almost always awake before him. I guess I was just desperate.

I got ready for class and left with Jason. He did all of the talking as usual; I really didn’t have anything to say.

Kevin didn’t say anything to me in Spanish today. I got there before him and he sat by me, but he didn’t talk to me. I don’t know if he knew what was going on, because I never did tell Aiden what had happened.

After class all I could think about was whether or not Brayden would answer if I called him again. When I called him again. As soon I was back in my room and my door was closed, I had my phone in my hand and called Brayden.

No answer. I remembered that he went swimming quite frequently in the mornings, so I shouldn’t have been too surprised. I left him a voicemail asking -- no pleading -- to talk.

As the day went on, I started to feel like I wouldn’t hear from him. Like he didn't want to listen.

I was surprised when my class at one got let out early. That never happened! As I walked back to my room, I wondered if I should call Brayden again. I kind of thought I should. After all he wouldn’t be at class yet.

I was nervously fumbling with my phone as I tried to decide whether or not to make the phone call. When I got to my room, I opened my door and immediately froze in place. I stared ahead. I couldn’t believe what I saw. Brayden! My heart fluttered as I gawked at him. Finally! He was there!

“Hi Matt,” he started, “I’m just dropping my stuff off before class.”

“Oh.” I said, “I... uh... got let out of mine early.” God, I sounded like a fool! “Brayden, I...” I started to say before I was interrupted.

“Sorry, but I gotta go to class, Matt. See ya later,” he said as he left.

What had just happened? I saw him for the first time in days, but it seemed like he had already moved on. Did he even want to talk about it? What if he didn’t? How can I tell him how sorry I am if he isn’t going to listen? My head was full of questions. I really needed to lie down.

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Somehow, I found myself in a place I’d never seen before. I had the feeling that I’d just zoned out, so I shook my head quickly and tried to remember what was going on. But, I had no idea. I couldn’t remember why I was there. Frankly, I couldn’t even remember how I got there.

I looked around and realized I was in a dance hall. Everybody was dressed quite formally, and it seemed like most were a little older. Some were still college-aged, but I didn’t recognize anyone that young. Actually, I didn’t really recognize anyone. I started to wander around because I was confused. Why was I there? The more I ventured, the more I realized I was at a wedding. Well, not the ceremony itself, the party afterwards.

In my time wandering, I found a table that had some vaguely familiar faces at it. I sat down with a drink in hand, and tried to figure out who I was looking at. A man and a woman with two young kids. One was a toddler and the other was a newborn. Then, it struck me. That was Jason and Kelsey! But, they looked so... old...

Jason was in deep conversation with Kelsey when I sat down, but when he looked up from their talk he noticed me and said, “Matt! I’m glad you made it! I really didn’t think you would.”

“What do you mean? Why wouldn’t I come to this?” I asked as I tried to figure out why he thought I wouldn’t come.

“Well, first of all, it looks like you didn’t bring anyone. And second, you’re his ex.” Oh my God. That was a sucker punch.

“Ex? You mean Brayden's ex?” I cringed as I asked that last question. I hoped that wasn’t true.

“Yes, of course. He’s the only one that could be your ex,” he said. “Speaking of,” Jase said as he looked beyond me, “how is everything tonight, Brayden?”

My heart instantly did a somersault as I felt a firm hand grasp my shoulder. “It’s great, Jase!” Brayden said and looked down at me, “And, Matt, I’m glad you could make it.”

I didn’t know what to say. I tried to soak in as many of his features as I could. He was stunning. Fuck, he was sexy. His hair made him seem like a professional, and he had a little scruff on his face that added to the appeal. I smelled that same cologne. I opened my mouth to say something, but nothing came out.

“Well, are you going to say something or what?” he asked as I looked on, completely shocked.

I didn’t know what to say. I tried to form a sentence in my mind, but I couldn’t. What do I tell him? That he looks sexy? That I miss him? If he’s getting married, none of that will help. None of it is right. “I need some air,” I said and walked away to find the bathroom.

I looked in the bathroom mirror and immediately noticed no differences. I looked exactly the same. Would I really look exactly the same in five years? Ten years? However long it had been?

I splashed water over my face to try and wake up. It wasn’t working. I left the bathroom and wandered outside. I found a bench and sat down with my head in my hands. Tears rushed to my eyes as I wondered why I was here. I started to suspect I was seeing my future. Experiencing my future.

I didn’t hear anyone approaching, so I jumped when I felt someone standing just behind me gently rub my back.

“Everything okay, Matt?” Brayden asked, concerned.

I wiped the tears from my eyes, sniffled, and said, “No, Brayden it's not. I shouldn’t be here. It’s just making me sad. And I should be happy for you.”

“Matt, I’m really glad you came. I wouldn’t have invited you if I didn’t want you here. But you have to remember, we broke up. It just didn’t work out. Okay?” he asked as everything sunk in. I nodded and he continued, “Good. Look, we’ve been friends for years. I want it to stay like that! Let’s go inside and have some fun!”

He put his arm around my shoulder and tried to comfort me as we got up. I’d like to say it did comfort me, but it didn’t. I still felt sad. I didn’t want things to end like this! I didn’t want to be just friends! So, why did it end like this?

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I woke up suddenly and my mind was in a fit. I had thought a nap would help calm me down, but it didn’t. Not at all! Had that been a glimpse at what my future would be if I didn’t talk to Brayden? Or if he didn't let me talk? I mean, I had tried! I had called him!

What would happen if he didn't let me talk? Was that a peek into our future? Where we’re just friends? I didn't want that! Did he?

I needed to do something about it. If he was not willing to listen, then fine. But, I had to at least try. Since I had read his topic on that forum, I knew he knew that I still care. But, what if he still couldn't look past the fact that he thought I kissed Dean? That was not what happened!

I needed to show him that I still loved him.

I looked at the clock and noticed Brayden was due back from class soon. What should I do? I was so nervous!

I sat around and waited extremely impatiently. Seconds seemed like minutes. Minutes seemed like hours. Then I heard some people talking in the hall. Right outside the door. I got up so I could hear better who it was. It sounded like Jason for sure, but I couldn’t tell if I heard Brayden or not.

Then, the door opened. In walked Brayden, and my heart pounded hard in my chest. I tried to muster as much courage as I could. I took in a deep breath and walked up to him. I put my hands up to the back of his neck and I kissed him. ‘That’ll show him I love him,’ I thought to myself.

Much to my chagrin, he broke the kiss and gently pushed me away. His eyes were wide open. Emotionless. I looked at him to try to figure out what he was thinking, but I couldn’t tell. I really couldn’t tell. My emotions got the better of me and I started to cry. Brayden doesn’t love me anymore! He really did want to just be friends!

I didn’t know what to do. I looked to Brayden and hoped he’d say something, but he didn’t. I panicked. And I left.

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In my rush to escape that nightmare, I ran face-first into Jase, just outside our rooms.

I tumbled to the ground and, before I could cover my shame, Jase saw my tears. “Matt? What’s wrong?” he asked as I saw Brayden step into the hall. Jase saw, too, and turned to him. “Brayden? What the heck happened?” Brayden didn’t answer. I didn’t think he knew what just happened. It happened so fast!

“Okay guys,” Jason started, “we’ve gotta sort this out. I’m not waiting anymore.” He pulled us into his room and closed the door. He sat us next to each on his futon and pulled up another chair so he could face us.

Once that was all sorted, Jason started by asking, “Now, what just happened?”

I opened my mouth to start, but Brayden beat me to it and said, “I had just got back from class and after I walked in the room, Matt walked up to me and kissed me. I was so shocked by it that I didn’t know what to do, so I pushed him away. I wanted to sit him down, but then he left.”

I had been sniffling and thinking of my own answer when Jason looked to me. “Okay, why didn’t you just talk? Why did you kiss him before any of that?”

I took a deep breath and said, “I... I had to show him that I still loved him. I’ve been freaking out all afternoon and my mind has been racing. And I guess I panicked.”

I felt Brayden’s hand reach around me and start to caress my shoulder. That gentle touch was as tender as anything I’ve ever felt. Suddenly I was overwhelmed by a multitude of emotions.

I was surprised he would welcome me back with open arms. I had been worried that he wouldn’t. But he did! He really did!

I was so grateful that he was willing to let me back into his life. I had feared my mistakes wouldn’t allow that to happen.

I felt relieved that all of my negative emotions had disappeared. I wasn’t feeling afraid anymore. I wasn’t worrying. I wasn’t just hoping it would all get better. It already was!

I had longed for his acceptance. I had longed for him to listen. I had longed for him.

I admired my Brayden because he was a much better man than I. I put him through hell. And he still cared for me!

I was excited for him. For us. Is this my second chance?

All of those emotions left me speechless. I looked over at Brayden. He was already looking at me and he smiled. I tried to absorb all of the emotions I felt, but I couldn’t. It was too much. For the first time since I found myself in this nightmare, I smiled too. The realization that I was smiling caused me to burst into tears. Happy tears that streaked down my cheeks as Brayden leaned forward and hugged me.

All of that emotion put me in sensory overload. I felt the warmth and the tenderness of his embrace -- our embrace. I felt the coolness of my own tears as they fell down my cheeks. A trace of his cologne tickled my nose. I felt safe in his arms. I felt ... complete.

I buried my head in his shoulder and wept. Out poured all of the bad I had felt over the past two days. The fear I felt I had lost him. Gone. The constant worry. Gone. The panic that things would never be the same. The guilt. The shame. All gone. They all poured out with my tears.

I realized then that I was no longer overwhelmed by many emotions; I felt just one.

Happiness. Bliss. Joy. Delight. Euphoria. Whatever it’s called, I felt it. My heart was whole again. My Brayden was back! And that’s how I always wanted to feel with Brayden.

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Jason saw that we were finally ready to talk, so he made us get up and practically shoved us out of his room. Brayden and I had finished hugging, but his arm was still around my shoulder and my arm was around his waist. We walked arm in arm until we reached his futon. We sat in silence for a few moments.

“Brayden, I’m so sorry,” I said, looking into his stunning blue eyes. “Just about everything I’ve done the past few days made things worse.”

“I shouldn’t have told you about liking being watched," he said. "I think we both know that’s where this started."

“No, babe. Sure, finding out you knew we were being watched as we made love and that it turned you on was a little freaky to me, but I’m glad you told me. I wasn’t totally upfront with my feelings with you on that either,” I said, taking in a deep breath. “I didn’t realize it right away, but the more I thought about it, the more it made me worry I wasn’t enough for you. And I knew that wasn’t true. I really did. I should have just told you so your beautiful smile could have calmed me down!” I said, smiling.

“I’ve thought about this a lot,” I continued, “and there are a lot of things I could have said to you to that could have made things better. But,” I said, taking a breath, “I can’t change the past. I let Dean kiss me. It was the worst. Even before I heard you call my name. I really don’t know if I can even tell you just how much I regret drinking with a storm clouding my mind. Everything just snowballed out of control. I was never in control that night. Seeing you with the girl. Drinking way past my limit.”

“And Lukas and Evan fucking...” Brayden added to my complicated list.

I looked at him, shocked, and he nodded and giggled as he said, “Yeah. Evan explained everything to Lukas and me. That could be why it was so hard to resist Dean. He is a fine looking guy!” He smirked at his admission, and it made me smile.

“Well, that makes things easier.” I said, still smiling. Suddenly, I realized what he had said. I mean, of course I heard him. It just took a second to absorb. “Wait, if Lukas and Evan fucked ... that means ...” I said, connecting the dots, “Brayden, how would you like to get some payback?” I asked with a smirk.

Upon hearing my question, Brayden’s face lit up. “More than anything!” he answered. He got up off the futon, grabbed my hands, and pulled me to my feet. “I want to kiss you.”

I freed one of my hands and put a finger up to his mouth as if to silence him. “Just one more thing. I don’t know if you are, but I’m done assuming that I know what’s going on. Do you forgive me?” I asked.

He stared into my eyes. Into my soul. “Yes,” he said.

I looked down to find his empty hand. I brought my own hand back down to hold his. I looked back up to him. We both smiled as we shared a moment of happiness. I had longed for this.

My smile continued until I closed my eyes and puckered my lips. He said he wanted to kiss me, so I wanted to let him. I felt his hot breath on my face as he leaned forward in preparation of the next step.

When I felt the warmth of his lips touch my mouth, I felt a tingling in my groin. A very welcomed and warm tingling. I loved that Brayden could do that to me! How he could send a sensory surge from my lips to my cock so smoothly. So pleasantly. The way his soft, gentle, moist lips pressed against my own. I don’t know whether that connection lasted a few seconds or a few minutes. I was lost, but this time in pleasure. Bliss.

I freed my hands and brought them up to the back of his neck. I used them as leverage, pulling myself tighter to him. I tilted my head slightly to the side, closed my eyes, and forced my open lips onto his. His mouth opened willingly. My tongue darted into his mouth and felt its way around. I loved how hot, wet, and soft his tongue felt. I felt along his teeth and their firm edges. I felt his tongue finally explore parts of my mouth, so I sucked at it in pleasure.

Finally, we mutually broke the kiss. He still held me close by the waist, and I let my hands fall to the base of his neck by his shoulders. I rested my ear against his chest and listened. I could hear his heart as it gently beat in his chest. I felt it.

I moved my ear away from his chest and looked up into his eyes. We slowly rocked back and forth, just moving with the flow of what felt right. Our happy bodies pressing against each other. Both of us smiled. Neither of us wanted to do anything else. We were comfortable just like this.

“Don’t ever let me do anything stupid again, okay?” I pleaded.

“Okay.”

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It took Brayden and me a while to move from our embrace. Once we did, we stayed close together. All was right in my world. All was right in our world.

We went out to dinner that night. We talked and talked. Asked questions. Laughed. Smiled. If people couldn’t figure out we were in love, they were just being ignorant.

After we had gotten back from our dinner-date, we watched hours of How I Met Your Mother. With the lights off. Cuddled together.

We were in the middle of an episode when I finally noticed how fucking awesome Brayden smelled. It wasn’t even the cologne this time, although I could smell that, too. We had both showered and gussied up before our date, so I could smell the soap he used. Fuck, it smelled awesome.

“Think they’re fucking right now?” Brayden said, breaking the silence.

“What?” I asked out of surprise.

“You just, like, smelled me,” he said.

I laughed, realizing he had connected the dots between Evan and me. “Who cares what they’re doing,” I said. “You smell great! You look great! You are great!” He smiled from ear to ear at my compliments. He deserved them! They were very true, of course, but he should hear it, too!

“You know what else?” I asked, but continued before he could answer, “I think we could both use a shower.” I wiggled my eyebrows, trying to help him follow my hint. There was a dream I wanted to re-live tonight.

I about jizzed on the spot when he leaned forward and whispered, “I’m gonna make your dreams come true!” Holy fuck!

As soon as he finished that sentence, he stood up and pulled me to my feet. We both practically jumped out of our clothes as we prepared for our shower. We stood there naked and hard, admiring each others’ body.

With a towel around our respective waists to hide our arousal as best we could, and a shower kit in hand, we walked together towards the bathroom. I saw Jason’s door was open, but that was about it. It would be safe to say I had tunnel vision on something else.

I felt a huge sense of relief when we made it to the shower area and no one was there. I pulled Brayden into the handicapped shower and turned the water on hot. My cock was already throbbing; it had been almost three full days since I last felt the pleasure of an orgasm.

Brayden’s juicy cock poked my left ass cheek as he stepped into the shower behind me. The steam was building around us as I felt Brayden’s hot breath against the side of my neck. I softly moaned to let him know how good that felt. I felt his wet tongue tickle my neck as he kissed gently.

I realized I was quickly approaching a hands-free orgasm, so I turned around and kissed Brayden. I pushed my tongue into his mouth and explored and sucked. His soft tongue wrestled around my tongue and into my mouth. It snaked its way in and out and up and down. I fucking loved how hot his tongue was in my mouth. I fucking loved how he smelled. I fucking loved him.

I moaned one more time in his mouth and felt an intense euphoria. It caused me to moan in his mouth again. It caused me to tense up. It caused me to cum. I leaned my head back and opened my mouth as it all happened. I saw only stars.

This iwas what my Brayden did to me. Neither of use even had to touch my cock. Being with him, touching him, cumming with him was all so ... beyond description.

Brayden had his hands around my waist the second he saw me lean back a little. After what seemed like an eternity, I looked down and saw my thick cum sliding down both of our bodies.

Before either of us could say a word, I knelt and gobbled up as much of his cock as I could. I felt his hands rest on the back of my head. He didn’t force anything. I swirled my tongue around his cockhead and saw a glob of my cum clinging to his pubes. I licked my way down his shaft to get closer. I sucked some of it out of his pubes and then licked my way back up his shaft.

I swirled my cum around his hard cockhead, hoping he’d sense the different consistency. I sucked a few times and went all the way down his cock. I surprised myself by going all the way down so fast; but, I guess you could say I wanted it! Once my nose was tickled by his pubes, I felt his hands put pressure on my head. And then I felt him tense up. He let out one grunt from deep within, and that was the only vocal warning I got.

Glob after glob of searing hot, thick cum coated the back of my throat. I swallowed as much as I could right away, but quickly realized I wouldn’t be able to keep up. I pulled halfway off his cock and let him fill me up. I greedily swallowed as much as I could, but some still leaked out of the corner of my mouth. I suckled on his softening cock to gather as much of his sweet essence as I could. When I released his cock, Brayden leaned over and pulled me up to my feet. He licked the cum off of the corner of my mouth and shoved his tongue into my mouth, as if he was searching for more.

Once he released me, he hugged me. After that release, we both decided to finish up the shower. Squeaky clean and satisfied, Brayden and I walked hand in hand back to our room.

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That is, we were walking until we nearly ran into Lukas and Evan just outside the shower area in the bathroom.

“Damnit Evan! I should have known you would do this again!” I exclaimed as we rushed to our room. “How did you know we were in the shower, and how long were you there?”

Evan laughed to himself and said, “Yeah, well, I started to get horny again. I had to see if it was your fault or not!”

“You got horny again?” I asked. I turned to Brayden and said, “You were right!” I turned back to Evan, remembering he hadn’t answered my questions. “Seriously though, Evan. How did you know we were in the shower and how long were you there?” I asked again.

“Geez, found the touchy subject of the night!” Evan said, giggling, “Since you weren’t in your room, we saw Jason and he mentioned you were probably in the shower. He had no clue you weren’t really showering though.”

“How long were you there?” I asked again, a little more sternly than I intended.

“Oh, the whole time,” he said. My heart pounded as I tried to take in what had happened. He had caught us again! “Why does it matter? It doesn’t seem like you care too much!” Evan exclaimed, pointing towards my bulge.

Holy fuck! I was hard again! Maybe knowing they were watching was a turn-on for me too. I guess maybe I didn’t really care after all...

“It was really fucking hot, Evan. You should try it some time!” I said as a sly grin crept across my face and I gave my solid cock an obvious tug.

“Whatever,” he said, “we just wanted to come make sure you guys were good. I hope we had an influence on that!”

“We came, don’t worry,” Brayden said. “We’ve had our heart to heart and have been with each other since I got back from class.”

“And we’re about to go to bed, too. I am fucking exhausted.” I added.

Lukas and Evan shared their congratulations and good nights and left.

“I hope you don’t mind if we just cuddle to sleep tonight, babe,” I said, “because I really am exhausted. Mentally, emotionally, and physically exhausted.”

“I can’t wait! I am too, so we’re on the same page,” he said as he climbed into bed. “What’s this doing up here?” he asked, gaining my attention. He was holding on to the shirt he wore to the party.

“That’s the only reason I’ve slept at all the past two days. The only thing I had to remember you and what I did.” I said solemnly.

He smiled and said, “Nice. Now, get the fuck up here so we can cuddle!”

I obeyed and found myself pulled into a loving embrace. Neither of us said a word. We didn’t have to. I relaxed against him, calmed by his presence. I felt the heat off his body. I smelled the soap he used in the shower just minutes ago. I felt safe.

My heart was whole again. My Brayden was back, and I felt loved.



To be continued...

There you have it, boys! I know I don't normally post a comment here, but I just wanted to take this time to thank JUB's own Seasoned for his wise advice. He certainly might have had an influence on the way they got back together!

[Seasoned]

You're a talented writer and I'm glad I agreed to "help." I didn't need recognition but since you gave it I might as well state my basic philosophy about problematic relationships. I think they ought to be repaired and therefore strengthened if possible. The exception I make is in the case of physical or emotional abuse.

Wishing you continued success in your writing.

[Craiger]

Matt, that was such a beautiful chapter. My heart was pounding at the beginning in fear that the dream was pointing to the future. And when Brayden, being shocked by the kiss, pushed Matt away, my heart dropped. Down deep I felt that the two would repair the relationship, but my emotions were not letting me think properly. Thank goodness for Jason setting them down and demanding they talk brought me out of my depressed mood. Then the shower and romance gave me a warm feeling that I know will help me sleep tonight....... Thank you for an awesome chapter. And thanks to Seasoned for being the positive influence for you.

Craiger

[hardreader]

For more than two chapters you have put me and all your other readers through an emotional wringer, but when you were though you had the perfect payoff. From the moment Matt's tears of joy started to flow I knew I was going to get my money's worth out of Chapter 20. You make these guys so real and so likable I think sometimes you don't fully realize just how much pain we share in reading it.

But on the flip side of that, we get so much pleasure when things are going right. When I read these paragraphs ...:

"“You know what else?” I asked, but continued before he could answer, “I think we could both use a shower.” I wiggled my eyebrows, trying to help him follow my hint. There was a dream I wanted to re-live tonight.

I about jizzed on the spot when he leaned forward and whispered, “I’m gonna make your dreams come true!” Holy fuck!

As soon as he finished that sentence, he stood up and pulled me to my feet. We both practically jumped out of our clothes as we prepared for our shower. We stood there naked and hard, admiring each others’ body."

... I was totally boned until I came. The emotional stress, followed by the relief of Matt and Brayden being reunited was the perfect setting for what followed. You always write beautifully and realisticall,y but when your build-up has me as totally horny as that one did, there's no escaping the ending I'm going to have reading it. It was so good getting off with them, I just want us to be like that forever.

Please keep this story going. I'm totally addicted to it. Thanks

[justanothershyguy]

Hello everyone! I just wanted to get back to everyone, but for those who are carefully following the story, I'm sorry! This isn't a new chapter post. You'll understand!

You're a talented writer and I'm glad I agreed to "help." I didn't need recognition but since you gave it I might as well state my basic philosophy about problematic relationships. I think they ought to be repaired and therefore strengthened if possible. The exception I make is in the case of physical or emotional abuse.

Wishing you continued success in your writing.

Thanks again for everything! I have the same philosophy and I thought it would be a good to see a viewpoint from someone else!

Matt, that was such a beautiful chapter. My heart was pounding at the beginning in fear that the dream was pointing to the future. And when Brayden, being shocked by the kiss, pushed Matt away, my heart dropped. Down deep I felt that the two would repair the relationship, but my emotions were not letting me think properly. Thank goodness for Jason setting them down and demanding they talk brought me out of my depressed mood. Then the shower and romance gave me a warm feeling that I know will help me sleep tonight....... Thank you for an awesome chapter. And thanks to Seasoned for being the positive influence for you.

Craiger

Thanks, Craiger. There have been so many 'moments' in this story and the little 'slow dance' after the talk might be my favorite of the whole story (so far). And, I will say, the kiss wasn't my idea at first, but I loved it! It really showed how far Matt wanted to go to prove his love, but that he didn't exactly think things clearly enough.

For more than two chapters you have put me and all your other readers through an emotional wringer, but when you were though you had the perfect payoff. From the moment Matt's tears of joy started to flow I knew I was going to get my money's worth out of Chapter 20. You make these guys so real and so likable I think sometimes you don't fully realize just how much pain we share in reading it.
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... I was totally boned until I came. The emotional stress, followed by the relief of Matt and Brayden being reunited was the perfect setting for what followed. You always write beautifully and realisticall,y but when your build-up has me as totally horny as that one did, there's no escaping the ending I'm going to have reading it. It was so good getting off with them, I just want us to be like that forever.

Please keep this story going. I'm totally addicted to it. Thanks

I have been waiting for this chapter as long as you guys have!

I will say this: I almost put a "To be continued?" at the end of the last chapter. I thought about it while it was being edited, and I have to say, that there won't be an "end" to the story any time soon. The story will finally be speeding up a little bit, so there will be more than one day in a chapter .

I have started on chapter 21, but I have been super busy this weekend. I'm not sure when I'll get it finished, but it could be a little while yet. This is your holdover until then, though: There will be more!!

I love this story as much as you do, and as excited as I am to have an ending to it, I don't want it to be done yet!

So, again, PLEASE comment, PM, read it to a friend. Whatever you want! If you have ideas/criticisms/plot suggestions, send them my way! Those of you who comment or PM know how much I love it!

That's all for now,
Matt

[Craiger]

Although there will be pain and anguish I know you will have another great chapter for us soon. I will be waiting on pins and needles. Hmmm, that might be a great Halloween stunt... Take you time Matt and if we don't hear from you before Wednesday, have a Happy Halloween.

Craiger

[Dannycutie]

Best story on here ! I love this story so much! Can't wait till the next chapter ! Please don't make the story end anytime soon!!

[BillyCanCum]

sorry im late but no lights here forever. i just jizzed me jeans reading this and fucking glad i did. i know you liked when J and i jizzed in jeans. this story is so fucking hot and all. it was like sad when the guys were apart and like fighting but i knew youd have em fucking anf sucking and jizzing and you did a great job. you got them jizzed and me jizzed too. ha and i think you should have em fuck for a while beforeethe other parts of the story cum back. keep writing. i really do like it and i read the whole thing. ha

[justanothershyguy]

Although there will be pain and anguish I know you will have another great chapter for us soon. I will be waiting on pins and needles. Hmmm, that might be a great Halloween stunt... Take you time Matt and if we don't hear from you before Wednesday, have a Happy Halloween.

Craiger

Halloween was just a normal day around here.. no parties for me and no trick or treaters. Strange, too! Weather was nice and all.. Oh well, their loss.. More Twix and Snickers for me!

Best story on here ! I love this story so much! Can't wait till the next chapter ! Please don't make the story end anytime soon!!

Glad to have you back Danny! I don't plan on that. I'd miss it too much!

sorry im late but no lights here forever. i just jizzed me jeans reading this and fucking glad i did. i know you liked when J and i jizzed in jeans. this story is so fucking hot and all. it was like sad when the guys were apart and like fighting but i knew youd have em fucking anf sucking and jizzing and you did a great job. you got them jizzed and me jizzed too. ha and i think you should have em fuck for a while beforeethe other parts of the story cum back. keep writing. i really do like it and i read the whole thing. ha

I was worried about you for a while but glad to hear you're OK. And yes, that was a really hot part of your story... awesome that you kept that tradition alive! If you would have come around before I was already done, I wouldn't have minded doing a "bonus" chapter at all! Maybe that will still come... We'll see!

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I really appreciate everything from everyone. I just wanted to say thanks to all of you who are posting and not posting! We hit 5,000 views yesterday in about two and a half months. Thanks for making me want to continue writing!

Luckily for you... there's another chapter (finally, hooray!)! I apologize for the delay, but like I said, I got really busy and writing was slow before that. I knew there was more, so I didn't figure you all would mind too much!

SO, without further delay and rambling, I have brought you what I think is a Friday surprise. After 2 weeks of delay, Lost in a Dream is back!

Lost in a Dream, Chapter 21

I woke up Tuesday morning to the best feeling in the world. Brayden was back in my life. There was no way I was going to do anything to mess that up again.

I really figured that once we were back together, we’d make up in the sexiest ways imaginable. I thought we might fuck all night long. But, we didn’t! And, it didn’t really matter. To either of us.

We weren’t even all that tired. Before we fell asleep, we talked for a long time. When we were done talking we had decided that our relationship wasn’t going to revolve around sex. Sure, it would still happen. Neither of us wanted to feel obligated to have sex. The other thing we decided was that we wanted to become more social. To prove to other people and ourselves that being gay doesn’t make us who we are.

I looked over and saw Brayden was awake. “Hey there, beautiful!” I said.

He smiled and it warmed my heart. “Mornin’, sunshine! So, do you really think we’ll be able to keep our hands to ourselves and away from each other?”

“Yeah, Brayden, I do. We just have to leave the door open more. Maybe people will come in and say ‘Hi’ every once and a while!”

“That kind of kills two birds with one stone. We become more social and take it slower!”

A half-hour later, Brayden left for class. I went over to Jason’s room and watched while he played Madden. A couple of guys came in and Jase started to talk to them.

“Hey Sam, hey Nate,” he said. I hadn’t met these guys yet, so I introduced myself and we chatted as Jase played. I learned that they were freshmen and shared a room a couple doors down the hall.

“What do you guys think of our football team this year?” Nate asked.

“They’re making progress. We’ve finally got a solid running game, but we could still use a good quarterback.” I commented.

“Yeah,” Sam agreed, “and the D is pretty solid too.”

“Speaking of football, Matt,” Jason started, “what has Kevin been up to?”

I turned my attention to him and replied, “I’m not sure, to be honest. I saw him yesterday in class but he was about as quiet as I was. I’ll see him tomorrow, if not later today.”

“What does Kevin have to do with football?” Sam asked.

“He plays for the school team. He’s a pretty cool guy if you ask me!” I said. I quickly recalled how Kevin didn't start off being cool at all, but he has turned out for the better.

Before long, Nate and Jason had to go to class. Sam and I went over to my room and I turned on my Netflix to have something on in the background.

“Man, you’ve got a nice set up,” Sam commented. “You and your roommate must be pretty close if you’re willing to have the beds together.”

“Yeah, you could say that,” I said. “He’s one of my best friends.”

“That’s cool!” Sam exclaimed. “Nate and I have been friends since middle school. He’s got my back and I got his.”

“That’s friendship at it’s finest,” I said as I smiled. “I’ve got two hours of class coming up, wanna grab a bite to eat?”

“Sure, why not! Let’s go see if a couple other guys are around,” he said as we left my room. As we walked by a couple doors, Sam convinced a few guys to join us. I had seen a couple of them around, but had never met any of them.

I really enjoyed eating lunch with the guys. That is, I enjoyed it until one of the guys said, “God, Davy, quit bein’ such a fag!” My smile quickly faded and I couldn’t believe I had found myself in this group.

“Everything alright, Matt?” Sam asked while the other three chatted away.

I don’t know if he knew why I was upset, but clearly he noticed I was. “Yeah, I guess. I gotta run to class here in a few minutes,” I said as I got up to leave. “It was nice to meet all of you. I live right across from the RA if you ever wanna stop by.”

“I definitely will,” Sam said, “you’re a cool guy. You’re a little on the shy side, though. Believe it or not, I used to be like that. Nate fixed that up in a hurry!”

I wasn’t looking forward to the day I had to tell him I was gay. I suppose that’ll really show me if he wants to be a true friend or not.

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After two hours of boring lectures, I returned to the dorm and started to tell Brayden about my day.

“I wish I’d have done this sooner,” I said in reference to meeting new people. “Sam’s a really cool guy. He really seems like he could get along with anyone. The only thing is, I didn’t tell him or anyone else that I’m gay. Or that you are my boyfriend. Sam’s the only one that knows about us sleeping with the beds together, though.”

“The way you make him out to be, he won’t care,” Brayden said. “But, I do think you’re right. We probably shouldn’t come off so strong if we have any intention of ever making straight friends. There’s no way we can keep it from them forever, though.”

“No, not at all. I bet we don’t even last a week without letting something slip,” I said with a laugh.

Brayden laughed, too, and said, “That’s for sure. We’ll just remember we have Jase on our side.”

“I suppose he is a good ally to have, isn’t he?”

We chatted some more about our respective days and then I got up and opened our door. I hadn’t even sat down by the time Sam knocked.

“Jesus man!” I said and I turned back around to invite him in, “Come on in! You must have been watching like a hawk!”

Sam laughed and said, “Yeah man. I followed you down the hall but you shut your door right away. I was actually kinda disappointed!”

“Sorry man! I had to run some things by Brayden,” I said with a laugh. “Which reminds me. Sam, this is Brayden,” I said as I pointed towards a waving Brayden, “and Brayden, this is Sam.”

“Nice to meet you, Brayden!” Sam said as we walked over towards the futon. They shook hands and he continued, “I don’t know how you two can sleep in the same bed every night, but oh well, I guess!”

Brayden smiled and said, “Yeah, it doesn’t matter too much, I guess. I know he won’t do anything that bothers me!”

I had to keep a laugh to myself at that point, mostly because I knew that what wouldn’t bother either of us was exactly why straight guys wouldn’t share a bed with another guy!

It was really nice to see those two get along. I wished I could have stayed longer, but I still had a lab to go to. I told them both I had to grab a quick bite to eat on the way out and that I’d be back later in the evening.

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Unfortunately, that physics lab lasted the entire three hours. Ugh! I returned to the dorm and was surprised to find Sam and Brayden still chatting away.

“You’re still here?” I asked Sam and laughed.

“Yes!” he exclaimed. “I’m so upset that I didn’t meet you two sooner!” I looked over at Brayden to see him smiling from ear to ear. I’m happy we decided to make new friends! I sat down and talked with the two of them for a bit and Brayden handed me my phone. I must have forgot it when I went to class!

Nate stopped by after a little while, and the four of us chatted while I worked on some of my homework. It was normally something I could get done in ten minutes, but took closer to forty with all of the ‘assistance’ I was getting. It’s not like I’m complaining, though! I loved having new people around!

It just made me worry what they would do when they found out.

Tuesday came to a close with my body tightly conformed around my lover’s. “Matt,” he started before either of us could fall asleep. “I think we should both come out to these guys. Sam especially. I’m pretty sure he’s going to be okay with it.”

“Brayden, I agree with you, but I don’t think it will help any if the time is not right. We shouldn’t wait too long though. Okay?”

“Deal,” he agreed. “You know how you left your phone here when you went to class?” I nodded and he continued, “Well, um... Dean called you.”

My heart sank. “Oh,” I said, “what did he want?”

“Well, after I told him it was me, he apologized for what he did. But,” he paused, “he still wants to talk to you, Matt.”

“I know he does. He has texted me a couple of times the last couple days,” I said. “But, I don’t know what to say to him. Or what to do with him.”

“What do you mean?” Brayden asked.

“Well, two things. First, I don’t ever want you to have to worry about me being with him. If that’s an issue, then Dean and I shouldn’t be friends anymore,” I said, taking a breath. “Second, I don’t even know if I can look at him without having a constant reminder of what happened.”

“Because of the kiss?” he asked softly.

“Not the kiss. The result of the kiss. I really want you to know that isn’t ever going to happen again, babe. If you don’t think I should be friends with him, then I’ll talk to him and tell him so.”

“Matt, I saw how you were tormented by everything. I don’t think I have anything to fear about you being friends with him,” he said as he caressed my cheek. “What I’m trying to say is that if you can handle being friends with him, then I say do it.”

“Okay,” I said, smiling. “One more thing, Brayden,” I said, looking my lover in his eyes.

“Yeah?”

“You’re the best. I love you so much!” I said as I kissed him on the lips.

He returned my kiss and smiled, saying, “I love you, too, Matt. Thank God we kissed and made up!”

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Brayden and I awoke at the same time Wednesday morning. The blaring of an alarm clock will do that! I got up right away to shower when Brayden told me to wait for him. I did, of course!

On the way into the bathroom, we passed Nate as he shaved. We exchanged hello’s, but that was it.

Brayden and I didn’t even get into the same shower stall this time. Part of that was because it was the morning and several people could have come into the area. The other part was that it didn’t seem like a big deal one way or the other. We both finished about the same time and dried off as we talked. Nate walked into the room to shower and gave us a weird look, but I shrugged it off. Maybe he’s just not a morning person.

Once I got to Spanish, I noticed Kevin was still being quiet. He got up to leave almost right after our professor dismissed us, so I had to run to catch up to him.

“Kevin,” I asked, “is everything okay?”

“Yeah, fine,” he said without emotion.

“I don’t believe you, but I’m not gonna push it,” I said, but changed the subject. “So, I don’t know how much you knew before hand, but Brayden and I are back together.”

Kevin seemed relieved when he heard me say that. “Thank God. That’s actually what had me worried. Aiden told me that the night didn’t end well for you two.”

“No, it most certainly didn’t,” I said. “But, I apologized for everything and he forgave me for it. We’re really looking to move past it!” I smiled and changed the subject again. “So, what’s with you and Aiden?” I asked, nudging his shoulder playfully.

I looked at his face and saw he smiling, but he didn’t say anything. “Fine! Be that way!” I pouted. “I’ll get Aiden to tell me. You know you don’t have to be shy about it. If you’re happy, then I’m happy!”

We continued to chat on our walk back from class. I told him that Brayden and I were trying to make more friends on our floor since we had neglected to do so before.

After Kevin and I split up once we got to the dorm, I wandered down the hall towards my room. I noticed Sam’s and Nate’s door was slightly ajar, so I stopped for a moment to knock. Before I could, I heard them talking about something.

“Dude, I’m telling you. He’s a fag!” I heard Nate say to someone.

That sent a shiver through my body. A cold chill. It really made me mad. To be honest, I didn’t care if he was talking about me or anyone else. Who the fuck was he to judge someone by one word?

I didn’t want to stick around anymore, so I left in a hurry to go to my room. To clear my thoughts. To calm down.

I sent Dean a text at one point and asked if he wanted to meet up and talk later. I really hoped I could get over my problem with him. I waited to see if I would get a response, but he didn’t reply. He probably had class.

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Around lunch time, I was still pretty upset with what I heard from Nate. But it was no worse than what had happened with Kevin earlier in the year. I figured I could still try to be friends with them. I decided it wouldn’t kill me to invite them to come to lunch with me.

Since their door was still cracked open, I knocked and poked my head in. Sam turned his head to face me, so I asked if they wanted to grab some lunch.

Sam looked to Nate for his answer, almost as if he needed Nate’s permission. I told them I was going to get Kevin and that I’d ask again in a couple minutes.

As I walked away, I couldn’t help but wonder... Was Nate seriously talking about me earlier?

After I asked Kevin, he said he’d gladly come and eat since he usually ate alone. Once we got back down to Sam and Nate’s room, I introduced the three of them to each other and asked again if they wanted to join Kevin and me.

Nate spoke first. “Nah man, I’m not hungry yet.” He didn’t even look my way when he said that. I don’t remember him being like this yesterday.

I looked toward Sam and asked, “Sam? What about you?” Again, he looked to Nate. What was the deal with them?

He stood up and said, “Yeah, sure.” Then he looked back to Nate and asked, “Are you sure you don’t wanna just go now?”

“Quite. Just go. I’ll see you later,” he said without turning to face us.

“All right, then. Your loss!” Sam exclaimed as we left.

As we walked to the commons, I couldn’t help but ask Sam what the deal was with Nate. “He seemed cool yesterday,” I said, “but, it’s like he’s a completely different person today. Is everything okay with him?” I asked.

“Yeah, I think so. If not, I don’t know what the deal is,” Sam said.

Once we made it to the commons, the three of us enjoyed our meal. I think Sam was a little star-struck with Kevin’s presence, but I could tell he just loved meeting a new person. I was surprised that Sam didn’t continually ask Kevin about football, but maybe he wasn’t as interested in the sport as he seemed earlier. I didn’t get the impression that he knew I was gay. Or, at least, if he did, it really didn’t bother him.

I sure hope so. I really didn't believe someone like Sam could really be bothered by a simple word.

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I was working on homework in my room after class when I got a call from Dean. I didn’t really know what to say to him, but I had to at least say something. I couldn’t leave him in the dark forever. It’s not right.

We agreed that we needed to meet face-to-face to talk. He told me where he lived, so I left my dorm and walked the short distance. My mind raced through thoughts of what I would say. I still didn’t know. It was like a traffic jam of jumbled thoughts up in my mind. I know I had millions of thoughts going through my head when I wanted Brayden back, but this was different. I knew what I wanted to happen with Brayden. I didn’t know what I wanted with Dean. Could we still be friends?

Once I was at Dean’s door, my palms were sweaty and my heart was pounding. ‘What was I afraid of? Losing a friend?’ I asked myself in thought.

In that moment, standing at Dean’s door, I knew my answer. I was afraid of losing Dean as a friend. That thought scared the living daylights out of me. I just stood there, frozen. I was about to turn away when I realized that I was in the exact same position Brayden was in two days ago. ‘I’m not ready to talk to Dean yet,’ I thought. ‘But, I can’t just walk away now. I’d be a coward if I just called and said I couldn’t do it.’

So I knocked.

I heard movement from the room, and then the door whirled open.

“Matt! Thanks for coming by,” Dean said.

“Look, Dean,” I started as he motioned for me to come in, “I thought I knew what I was going to say to you today. But, I really don’t know what to say. All I know right now is that I’m not going to ignore you. I just need more time to think.”

“I understand, Matt.”

“I don’t think you do, though,” I started. “Dean, I went through hell and back trying to think of how I could possibly get Brayden to love me again. From the moment I heard his voice ... saw his pain ... that night, all I kept thinking was that I had lost him for good.”

“I don’t mean to interrupt you, Matt,” Dean said, “but, I think I do know how you feel,” he said and took a deep breath. “That night, after I kissed you and you pushed me away, I knew I had just made one of the biggest mistakes of my life. I couldn’t sleep. I didn’t know if you’d ever speak to me again. I thought I had lost out on a chance to get to know one of the nicest people I’ve ever met.”

“Dean, I’m spoken for and you should know that now,” I said, interrupting him.

“That’s not what I mean, Matt. I know I have no chance with you. I saw and see that your heart belongs to Brayden,” he said.

“It’s that obvious, huh?” I asked with a smile.

“Yeah. What I meant was that I thought I had lost a chance at a real friendship with you. That first day you visited me in the hospital...” he said, trailing off, “... I knew you were special. No one but my sister was ever like that to me. All I want is to be friends.”

‘That’s what I want too,’ I thought to myself. I hugged him and said, “I’ll be honest, Dean, I didn’t know if that could happen. I kept thinking that you would just remind me of what I went through. But, now, I don’t think that’s going to happen. I think we can be friends.”

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The rest of Wednesday was incredibly quiet. After I got back from Dean’s place, I did homework in my room with the door open. Jason stopped and talked for a little while, but I didn’t see anyone else until Brayden came back from class.

But, he was a wonderful sight to see. I smiled when he walked in. He didn’t smile, but he did let out a loud sigh. I assumed he was relieved to be home!

“How was your day?” I asked as he set his backpack down by his desk. I got up to greet him. I thought he could use some lovin’!

He groaned and said, “Long as hell. That three-hour class time in the late afternoon was a terrible idea!” He cracked a smile and walked over to me. He held his arms out, inviting me in for his love. I was more than welcome to give and receive!

I embraced Brayden around the waist and felt his arms rest on my shoulders. I looked up into his eyes and smiled again, leaned up, closed my eyes, puckered my lips, and waited for him to kiss me. Thankfully, he didn’t make me wait long. I felt his soft, wet lips press against my own wet waiting ones.

Before I could really enjoy the passion between us, a voice interrupted all the thoughts in my mind.

“I fucking knew it!” the voice shouted.

My eyes shot open and I saw Nate standing in the doorway. I could have swore the door was closed. Before I could react, Nate stormed out of the room. I looked at Brayden for help, but he was just as surprised as I was.

I knew I had to handle this situation before it snowballed out of control. There was no way I was going to let him bully me this semester.

I separated from Brayden and started to walk toward the door with one goal on my mind. I was mad.

Just before I left the room, I looked back to see Brayden as he stared at me in awe. He must still be shocked.

“Brayden, call Kevin.”

To be continued...

[Craiger]

Ah......Nate's in for it now.....No one treats my Matt like that and gets away with it....... Welcome home, Matt!!!! It's good to have an update on our guys. Your personal life is much more important than trying to please us. Don't worry about our loosing interest as that will never happen. Your stuck with us.........

Craiger

[sheep]

Methinks Nate is in for the biggest attitude adjustment of his life. Sadly there are lots of "Nate's" out there in the real world. Perhaps he doth protest too much!

[hardreader]

I guess I shouldn't be surprised to see Matt showing such an impressive, if impulsive, set of balls. But then he has already rushed to the rescue once before. He ended up a bit battered in that scene. I hope he fares better this time around. But the two guys really just need a brief respite from all this turmoil. After all, they're in love and they have needs and urges and desires that keep getting sidetracked by assholes and jerks and common misunderstandings. I do hope the posse arrives in time and that this unpleasant episode is more easily resolved than it now seems. But Holy Fuck, Matt, your story never fails to keep me coming back for more. As Craiger said: "Your stuck with us........." and to that I add

[Autolycus]

Thanks for another fine chapter!

[BillyCanCum]

matt should of let that guy go and stayed there with his brayden and gotten it on. that shithed isnt worth fucking with when you got you bud to fuck with and i really want the two of them like to fuck and jizz all night long like they been wanten to do for a long fucking time. matt cao fuck up that other guy any time he wants and get kevin an brayden to help him. i wud of stayed andlet braden fuck me good with his big l dick. ha more

[justanothershyguy]

This is incredible!! I just started reading this story a 1/2 hour ago and couldn't believe I'd reached the end so far! I'm gutted! I'm dying here waiting for more! I love this!!

I just really wanna know if Brayden & Matt stay together! Arghh

First of all, Sorry for taking so long to comment on this one! I know I saw it but I just noticed I missed commenting on it! My bad Brodz!

Anyway, I hope you're still with us. Brayden & Matt are certainly still together

Ah......Nate's in for it now.....No one treats my Matt like that and gets away with it....... Welcome home, Matt!!!! It's good to have an update on our guys. Your personal life is much more important than trying to please us. Don't worry about our loosing interest as that will never happen. Your stuck with us.........

Craiger

Thanks Craiger, it's great to be back! I was never really gone per say... but I was glad to get the writing done in a reasonable amount of time!

Methinks Nate is in for the biggest attitude adjustment of his life. Sadly there are lots of "Nate's" out there in the real world. Perhaps he doth protest too much!

There are too many... I hope Nate has a good mind about it!! Who knows what's in store... (Oh wait, I DO!!!)

I guess I shouldn't be surprised to see Matt showing such an impressive, if impulsive, set of balls. But then he has already rushed to the rescue once before. He ended up a bit battered in that scene. I hope he fares better this time around. But the two guys really just need a brief respite from all this turmoil. After all, they're in love and they have needs and urges and desires that keep getting sidetracked by assholes and jerks and common misunderstandings. I do hope the posse arrives in time and that this unpleasant episode is more easily resolved than it now seems. But Holy Fuck, Matt, your story never fails to keep me coming back for more. As Craiger said: "Your stuck with us........." and to that I add

Matt just can't stand some things about people... Plus, we all know Matt could have beat up that other guy, he let him win!! (Okay, maybe I would have made him win as the author...)

Thanks for another fine chapter!

Thanks Auto!!

matt should of let that guy go and stayed there with his brayden and gotten it on. that shithed isnt worth fucking with when you got you bud to fuck with and i really want the two of them like to fuck and jizz all night long like they been wanten to do for a long fucking time. matt cao fuck up that other guy any time he wants and get kevin an brayden to help him. i wud of stayed andlet braden fuck me good with his big l dick. ha more

You know, there is a saying out there "Make love not war..." I think... Well, we're about to find out what Matt decided.

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I gotta say, guys, you're in for a change of the main Point of View. It's Brayden's turn to tell the tale! Please let me know how this works! So, Chapter 22 is here... Of course, tell me what you think! I love all kinds of feedback!

Lost in a Dream, Chapter 22

... As seen through Brayden’s eyes ...

My classes were dragging. Really fucking long. The only thing I had been waiting for since the first ten minutes of my first class? The end of my last class of the day. And, of course, that just made the professors seem to drone on and on about this and that. I couldn’t even fucking remember.

Since I was bored shitless in class, I started daydreaming. And with what was going on in my life recently, there was only one thing on my mind: Matt. Oh, fuck, that boy was so hot and had me so hot! He didn't even realize how much he drove me wild, and had since the first moment I met him. I still remember that first time like it was yesterday...

Move-in day. I’m not sure he even realized he helped me and my parents, but he did. Even though he wasn’t much help with the heavy stuff, he was an extra set of hands to carry some of the shit I brought from home.

After my parents left, I gawked over him in my room. The way his brown hair bounced with each step. The way his brown eyes shined in the light. He had such a small stature, but it seemed like he didn’t care. Like he was okay with it. Like he was proud of it. I knew I had a crush on him after the first time he smiled around me. He had this dimple on the right side of his face... That was how I knew just how genuine he was. I remember how he made my heart pound and my stomach tumble.

And then there was the first day I really met him. The same day I saw him shirtless for the first time. Holy fuck! He and his jock friends were playing Frisbee, and thank God he was on the skins team. There were some other hot guys on his team, but he stuck out the most. He smiled and he laughed. He had fun as he played what seemed like the best game there ever was. At least, that’s how the game seemed from his perspective ... and mine too.

And the rest, as some say, is history! My heart still pounded whenever I saw him.

In fact, as I walked home that day, I was so glad to be done with class that all I wanted to do was kick back and relax with Matt. Who knows... maybe there would be some fun, too! To be honest, I still wasn’t sure why he thought we didn’t have to have sex every night.

Regular sex with Matt. That was another thing I'd been thinking about more and more throughout the past couple days. I never really felt obligated -- that was his word -- to fuck. When we had fucked -- when he was ready -- it was really about love. I really didn’t think I’d ever get tired of sex while I was still with him. Frankly, the main thing I wanted was just to be with him. So I was okay that he wanted to slow things down. I thought -- and still agreed -- that wasn’t a bad thing to do.

Once I made it to our room, I tried my best to clear my head of all that boredom. With my boring day banished from thought, I guess that just left me thinking about Matt, who finally was right there with me! He asked me about my day, so I told him just how boring the last three hours of my life were. I left out what I had thought about instead.

As we talked, I couldn't help but think that Matt looked fucking great. Not just great, or hot, or anything else. Fucking great. Like, I wanted him to fuck me.

I invited him into a hug and he willingly obliged. I definitely enjoyed that! Just as I looked down, his angelic face was looking up at me. He’d told me that I made him feel safe, but, he wouldn’t have had to say anything right then with the look he gave me. I wanted him to be happy, and if that wasn’t happiness, I didn’t know what was.

He puckered his lips for me and closed his eyes. He was just waiting for me to kiss him! Fuck, I couldn’t resist that. Not after thinking of nothing but him all l those hours. Not then, not any day. So I kissed him!

My back was to the door when I heard Nate’s voice.

“I fucking knew it!” Nate said.

I opened my eyes to see Matt’s beautiful brown eyes looking up at me in concern. I didn’t even know what to say, and neither of us said anything before Nate walked out of the room. I remembered back to the time Evan and Lukas walked in on us, and tried to rationalize that this was just something like that.

As I stared into Matt’s eyes, I could see something in him changed. It was just a quick glimpse of something, but it was something different none-the-less. The look of concern was gone. The shock was gone. There was something I could see that I had never seen in him before.

He looked mad.

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We broke our embrace and Matt started to walk out of the room. I had no clue what I should say to him. Maybe he ... no ... I didn’t know what he was thinking!

Just before he left the room, he turned to me and told me to call Kevin. Why the hell would I do that? What did he think was going to happen? Maybe ...

No.

“What? Wait, why?” I asked impatiently as I followed him out of the room.

He stopped and turned around. I looked deep into his eyes. Something had snapped all right. It was like he flipped a switch. “Brayden, please. Just do it. I’m not gonna sit here and take this.”

I guess I should. Matt ... please don’t do anything stupid.

I quickly rapped on Jason’s door as I waited for Kevin to answer his phone. Jason opened the door right as Kevin answered, so I looked Jason in the eyes, pointed down the hall and said, “Kevin, Matt needs you down here. Now!” I was concerned as hell for Matt. Jason needed to be there, too. Whatever Matt had in mind, he needed all of us there.

I watched Jason’s concern grow as I heard pounding on a door down the hall. “Nate!” Matt yelled. “Nate! Open the fucking door!” I couldn’t believe what I was hearing from him!

Jason and I rushed down the hall to catch up to him.

Matt’s pounding continued as Jason and I reached him and the door. I grabbed his arms as carefully I could under the circumstances and tried to pull him away. “Matt, come on. It doesn’t have to be like this,” I said.

His balled fist was up against the door ready to pound again. He stopped, turned to Jason and me, and said, “Yes, it does, Brayden. He’s the one who made it like this. We did nothing wrong.” There was a look of determination in his eyes. He was right. We didn’t do anything wrong. We were kissing in our own room and... Oh, man... I am so fucking horny for him.

Kevin opened the door to the hall just as the door to Nate’s door finally opened.

“What the fuck do you want, faggot?” Nate asked with a sneer.

Matt was still turned looking back at Jason and me. “See, Brayden?” Matt asked. Then he turned his head to Nate and added, “That’s why I’m down here. Because this homophobe can’t see past the fact we’re gay. And I’m sick of people like that.”

Sam had made his way to the door by the time Matt finished. Sam looked ... confused, I guess. I didn’t see any of the anger on Sam’s face that was written all over Matt’s and Nate’s.

Kevin walked up to us and asked, “What’s going on here?”

“Kevin, what’s wrong with me being gay?” Matt asked with Nate still standing silent at the doorway.

“Not a fucking thing,” Kevin answered.

“Jason, what’s wrong with me being gay?” Matt asked again, this time turning to face Jason.

“I haven’t once had a reason to say there’s something wrong with anyone being gay,” Jason said.

Matt turned his head back to Nate and asked, “So then, Nate,” he started, “what the fuck is wrong with someone who’s gay?”

Nate snarled and said, “It’s fucking disgusting!”

Then, Matt surprised me. He turned to me, looked up as I looked down, and pulled my head down for a kiss. There was no tongue involved. Just his soft, luscious lips on my own. Oh, God. I wished he knew what he was doing to me right then. That probably seemed like an innocent kiss to him. It was so much more to me. When he pulled away, he looked back to Nate and asked, “Is that what’s disgusting to you?”

“Yes!” Nate exclaimed. I looked to Matt for his answer, but it never came. It looked like he wanted to stare a hole through Nate’s forehead.

At this point, I wasn’t sure what to expect out of the rest of the confrontation. Since Matt had wanted Kevin down here, I thought for a minute that Matt might want to throw some punches. It’s completely out of character, but I’d never seen him that angry before.

Matt finally continued, but he had a different look on his face. I thought he must have just formed a plan.

“Do you get disgusted when two girls kiss?” Matt asked Nate.

Silence. I looked around. I sensed that everybody knew what Nate’s answer would be. I was grinning on the inside. Stone-faced on the outside. Fuck yeah, Matt!

Since Nate didn’t answer and didn’t look like he planned to answer, Matt continued. “Do you think I get disgusted when straight people kiss?”

I wanted to laugh. It took every ounce of my will to not laugh right then. It seemed like Matt was toying with him. He was so right. Maybe I’m a little biased, but ...

Nate opened his mouth, but no sound came out. Seconds later, he closed it and frowned.

Victory. My boyfriend, the fuckin’ man.

“Look, Nate,” Matt said after it was clear there was going to be no response, “I think I speak for Brayden when I say that all we want is to be treated like normal.” Then Matt looked to me. I nodded in agreement.

Matt continued. “I’m not going to stand here all night and preach to you. You’re an adult and can make your own decisions in life. If you can honestly look me in the eyes some time and tell me you don’t want to be friends because I’m gay, then fine. You just won’t be someone I’ll call a friend either.”

More silence. I really wanted to know what Nate was thinking... Was he actually recanting his sentiments towards gays? Or, was he just ignoring Matt and waiting for us to leave... I had a feeling we’d find out soon.

“Well, I can see you’ve had enough of this. Just remember,” Matt said, “you walked into our room without knocking.”

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I can’t even begin to describe how Matt made me feel about the whole situation we were just in. Okay, I lied. I can. I was already horny as fuck, but, man, seeing him win that argument... Nothing beats it. Okay, I lied again. Sex with him beats that. Whatever, that’s not the point. It was just so awesome seeing him in control of the situation!

That night it was so hard to keep my hands to myself. Kevin and Aiden ate and watched a movie with us. We invited Lukas and Evan, but they were both busy. Probably doing what I wanted to be doing … fucking.

After the movie, Kevin and Aiden left and I was finally alone with Matt. The second the door clicked shut, I hopped all over my opportunity. Fucking finally! As he approached the futon after our guests left, I pulled him down on top of me.

With his face just inches away from mine, I said, “You know, ever since I’ve been home today, all I’ve wanted to do is fuck. Being bored in class, I daydreamed. About you. How hot you are. And then seeing you verbally fuck Nate’s shit up...” I said, leaning forward for a peck on his lips. “You don’t even know how awesome that made me feel. And I want you to know how that felt.”

There was silence from Matt, but he had a huge smile across his face. Fuck, his smile was so amazing, so strong, so assertive. So fucking sexy! I was just wearing shorts, and I was hard as a rock.

And then there was a soft knock at the door. “Damn!” I said, “Go ahead and answer that" I said, my exasperation with this latest interruption clear in my voice. "I can wait a little bit longer. I hope.”

I smiled and Matt laughed to himself as he got up to answer the door. I turned around on the futon to see the door open and Sam standing at the door.

“Hey Sam, wanna come in?” Matt asked. I smiled and waved as Matt ushered him in to sit down.

“Guys, I just wanted to apologize for Nate. He can be really thick-headed sometimes. But, we talked after you left. I know for a fact you’ve made an impression on him. But, that’s for him to tell you. The only other thing I wanna say before I leave is this: were you ever going to tell us?” Sam asked.

Matt answered before I could open my mouth. “Yes, definitely. We really just wanted to avoid that reaction all together, but we also kinda figured it was inevitable. We basically just wanted to soften the blow when the time came.”

“Thanks for hearing me out guys. And Nate will come around. Just give him some time,” Sam said as he got up from the futon. “Still friends?” he asked, sticking out his hand.

Matt shook it first and said, “Of course.”

“Oh, and Brayden,” he said as he reached out for my hand, “fuck him good tonight.” I laughed and grinned from ear to ear as I shook his hand. Matt playfully punched me on the arm as Sam started to leave.

When he opened the door, I stopped him. “Sam,” I said, “you’ve got it wrong,” I said with as straight of a face as I could muster. “He’s gonna fuck me tonight.”

Sam laughed some more and told us to have fun. Oh, we will Sam! We will.

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Matt followed Sam out the door and locked it after he left. “Now, where were we...” he started to say as he grabbed for the base of his shirt.

“Wait!” I shouted as I leapt up from the futon. “Let me,” I said, grabbing his shirt and feeling his slender body as I pulled it off.

“You know,” Matt said, “if you go a little faster, we can get right to the fucking!” I blushed, because I hadn’t realized I had slowed that far down. I guess I was lost in feeling him up! The way my hands wandered across his sexy body... Feeling his chest ... his nipples... Carefully fondling and tickling him as I slowly removed his shirt. Oh, the sensations!

“God, Matt! You drive me fucking wild.” I said as I finally pulled his shirt off. I kissed him hard on the lips and could feel the blood rush to my boner. That’s right, it was back! Sam hadn’t distracted me from my priorities that night!

Matt returned my rough kiss. One of my new favorite sounds was the gasping and snorting for air as we both sucked on each other’s lips and tongue. This wasn’t going to be just a tender love-making session. Oh, no. I wasn’t lying to Sam.

“Matt,” I said in-between gasps and kisses, “I hope you know ... that I was serious ... when I said that ... you were going to fuck me.”

Just as I was about to move my kisses elsewhere, Matt beat me to the punch. Ooh, how I loved the feeling of his tender lips on my neck. His warm breath. “It was so fucking hot seeing you take charge of Nate, Matt.”

Telling him that was like pouring fuel onto his sex flame. It seemed to make his sex drive flare to scorching hot. I’ll have to keep that in mind. Everywhere he kissed, he left a wet, sloppy trail to cool on my over-heated body. It was like a road to where he was going. A long, winding road.

I really was lost in the pleasure he was giving me. All day I had been dreaming of him. The longer I was around him, the worse it got. But, in such a good way. I would gladly do this every day if we had the time!

And then Matt engulfed my leaking, throbbing cock. His hot, wet, soft fucking mouth went immediately to work and I couldn’t help but softly moan aloud. “Fuck, Matt!” I said as I tried to get his attention, “If you don’t slow down, I’m gonna fuckin’ cum all over your face. I’ve been so hot for you all day!”

That only seemed to encourage him. I bet if he could smile, he would have. But, his lips were stretched around my cock and he had no plans of slowing down. I figured I might as well enjoy this! He bobbed on a couple inches of my throbbing boner just a handful of times before he went all the way down. Ho-ly fuck!

“Oh my --” I started to say, but the only thing that came out of my mouth after that was a moan of passion. I was fucking loving this.

I really was planning on warning him when I came. I think I did make a sound to warn him. I just don’t know what the fuck that sound was and if I could ever make it again.

I looked down at Matt and could see his eyes clenched shut and his cheeks puffed out. My jizz was leaking out of the corners of his mouth. I started to pull out so that I wouldn’t choke him, but he grabbed me by the ass and held me in place. Well, I could have still pulled loose, but he clearly wanted it! I could see him force one big gulp down. And then another. I don’t know how the hell he kept it all in there!

When he finally released me, he was gasping for air just like I was. I smiled; both of us were out of breath, each for a different reason. The reasons were totally related, but still. He just gave me a mind-blowing orgasm.

And then I realized he still had his shorts on! He had gone and stripped me of my shirt and shorts after I took his shirt off... but then he never let me take his shorts off! The horror! Okay, maybe not.

I pulled him up for a kiss for two reasons. First, to let him know just how fucking awesome that was. And, second, so that I could slurp up some of the cum that had leaked out.

After we were both finally fully naked, I told him I wanted him to fuck me. He started off by loving me tenderly. Kissing some of the spots he had kissed earlier. Kissing new spots. Tracing my sensitive nipples.

I shuddered and knew there was no fucking way I was just going to cum once tonight.

He gently kissed his way down to my crotch. He took my semi-hard cock into his mouth for a couple of seconds as I relished the feeling of his hot mouth around my cold, wet cock. That almost felt better! Fuck!

And then he found his way to my tight asshole. I gasped once again as he kissed it. Then, he pushed his tongue in. Oh my God. I never, ever would have imagined just how blissful this would have felt. Ever.

Soon, Matt had replaced his tongue with a lubed-up finger. I missed the warmth of his breath and his tongue, but the coolness of his finger was just as fucking awesome.

Two fingers eventually replaced just one. Then three. He was fucking me with three fingers. And I fucking loved it. When he stopped, I was a little sad. So I turned around. When I saw him putting a condom on ... Fuck yeah!

“Fuck me with that awesome dick, Matt!” I said as he lubed and lined up. I was so fucking ready!

Finally, I could feel his hot cockhead touching -- teasing -- my asshole. I pushed back a little bit, but that didn’t work.

I was sure he could tell how bad I wanted it. It was like I was in heat for him. So I wasn't surprised when he slowly, gently pushed his beautiful, hard cock in.

It was a good feeling, without a doubt, but I wanted more. “Harder!” I said. He stopped, probably surprised by my run-away enthusiasm. “Please, Matt. I told you how hot you got me earlier. Fuck the shit out of me until I cum all over myself again! Then fucking shoot all over me! Cover me in it!” I said, and moaned at the combined thought and his sudden push. Fuck yes!

I could tell he was still concerned for me as he shoved in his cock. Sure, it hit the spot, but I really wanted him to just go all out. Just fuck me! “Faster!” I said.

And he obliged. He thrust in and pulled out. Harder and faster. I was so overwhelmed by those feelings that at first I didn’t even realize I was as hard as steel again. “Okay, Matt, hold still,” I said as I began to reposition myself. I wanted his jizz on me so I could see it. And I wanted to see him fuck me. To see just how into it he was. I tried to twist myself around with him still in me, but it didn’t go as I thought. Instead of fumbling around with it, he just pulled out and let me flip. I felt so empty.

And then he shoved it back inside. Oh yes, full again! I threw my head back in sheer pleasure as I could feel his pubes on my ass. In and out he went. Harder and faster. Grunting. Snorting. Like a bull. Or a wild stallion. Chills went up and down my body as pure uninhibited pleasure surged through my body. It was something about the way his thighs were slapping against my ass. Something about the way his balls did the same thing. Slap, slap, slap.

I just couldn’t hold in my pleasure any longer. There was no more resisting. I closed my eyes and clenched hard on his cock. I felt my orgasm surge through my body. But he didn’t stop. Thank fucking God. It felt like a continuous orgasm, over and over for I don’t even know how long. I hadn’t even looked at the mess I had made.

And then he stopped. I finally opened my eyes and saw his condom-less cock pointing straight at me. It looked so powerful. It made Matt seem powerful. The way it jutted out from in front of him with a glob of pre-cum dripping off... Oh, baby! Give it to me now! He grunted one last time and his cock exploded on me. All over me. Shot after shot. Some on my chest, some on my cock. One even hit my chin. It was all fucking over me.

He reached out and tried to pull me up to him, but I was too fucking tired. He fucked that out of me. So I pulled him down. There was a splat as he landed, but he giggled as we both felt the cooling cum between us.

“Thank you so much, Matt. I fucking loved it and I fucking love you.” I said as I kissed him.

“It was intense, Brayden,” he said, “but I loved it too. And I love you. That’s why I did it!”

That was fan-fucking-tastic.



To be continued...

[sheep]

Matt! All I can say is OHHH MY GAWD ! You made it hurt so good. See that you don't stay away too long My shortz are saturated with precum. I was as rock hard as a café while reading that. (You had to be at the St. Louis JUB meet a few years ago to understand that)

[Craiger]

Awesome, Matt. If it hadn't been for Nate's ignorant head-trip Brayden may not have witnessed as intense a fucking as he did. I guess straight guys sometimes have a purpose in life...... Seriously, that was so awesome. Not only did Matt and Brayden have a fantastic session, but your readers felt the pleasure as well... I can attest to that........................

I have a sneaky suspicion that Sam may have some hidden thoughts about Nate. And, as far as Nate goes, Sheep said it best, "Perhaps he doth protest too much!" Could we be seeing the budding of a new relationship in the dorm????? Love this story.

Craiger

[hardreader]

I'm surprised no one has yet commented on the changing viewpoint of your latest chapter. For me, reading that was a wonderful experience, allowing me to get a much better feel for Brayden, plus being able to see Matt from a fresh and appealing perspective. I thought Brayden's description of Matt early on in the chapter was a great bit of writing. Also, understanding that the the two of them don't see things exactly the same made the story come to life in a more believable way.

I know that between the confrontation with Nate and the incredible sex at the end (and it was a really hot scene) probably most people completely forgot that they were seeing it all from a new perspective. But I, for one, appreciated it and know it can be tricky to do well. Kudos. Seeing Matt stand up for himself and Brayden the way he did showed Matt in a way that I hadn't expected of him, even though he hasn't been afraid to confront such issues in the past.

But then came the sex afterwards. When Matt was fucking Brayden ... well, I think you know ... I was so into it that ... well, I think you really do know. I guess like everyone else, including Matt and Brayden, it took my mind off everything else and brought complete relief of all the tensions of the day. Ahhhhhh!

But your story, as wickedly sexy as it has become, isn't just sex. It's interesting and appealing guys leading very real lives. It has a very real feel to it. Guys facing issues that really do confront so many of us often ... too often. Choices that are hard to make, but we have to make. Clashes in personalities and goals and style and ... pretty much all the shit that happens everyday. Only you make it all fascinating and exciting and . . . yes . . . erotic as hell.

Thanks, as always. One of your best chapters so far, or, perhaps, your very best!

[BillyCanCum]

I know a guy like Nate hes an asshole. needs the shits kicked out of his brains. you did great putting him down and fucking with him. maybe im not suposed to say this but the end of this was so fucking hot i couldnt believe it. you got my jizz just like hrs. ha you know what i did and all and i hope you do a lot more like this. your doing real good.

[accord98]

Love the story! I read it all today lol I can't wait for the next chapter

[justanothershyguy]

Matt! All I can say is OHHH MY GAWD ! You made it hurt so good. See that you don't stay away too long My shortz are saturated with precum. I was as rock hard as a café while reading that. (You had to be at the St. Louis JUB meet a few years ago to understand that)

I'm sorry it's been so long sheep You said not to stay away and that's almost exactly what I did! I'm back on track, though!!

Awesome, Matt. If it hadn't been for Nate's ignorant head-trip Brayden may not have witnessed as intense a fucking as he did. I guess straight guys sometimes have a purpose in life...... Seriously, that was so awesome. Not only did Matt and Brayden have a fantastic session, but your readers felt the pleasure as well... I can attest to that........................

I have a sneaky suspicion that Sam may have some hidden thoughts about Nate. And, as far as Nate goes, Sheep said it best, "Perhaps he doth protest too much!" Could we be seeing the budding of a new relationship in the dorm????? Love this story.

Craiger

A sneaky suspicion, huh? I never give away my secrets! There's one single theme for the next few chapters, though... It should be 'fun'.

I'm surprised no one has yet commented on the changing viewpoint of your latest chapter. For me, reading that was a wonderful experience, allowing me to get a much better feel for Brayden, plus being able to see Matt from a fresh and appealing perspective. I thought Brayden's description of Matt early on in the chapter was a great bit of writing. Also, understanding that the the two of them don't see things exactly the same made the story come to life in a more believable way.

...

But your story, as wickedly sexy as it has become, isn't just sex. It's interesting and appealing guys leading very real lives. It has a very real feel to it. Guys facing issues that really do confront so many of us often ... too often. Choices that are hard to make, but we have to make. Clashes in personalities and goals and style and ... pretty much all the shit that happens everyday. Only you make it all fascinating and exciting and . . . yes . . . erotic as hell.

Thanks, as always. One of your best chapters so far, or, perhaps, your very best!

Glad you enjoyed it through Brayden's eyes!! I know he did. I didn't think I'd get to use it so quickly, but, I think it worked. At least, no one's told me it didn't!!

I know a guy like Nate hes an asshole. needs the shits kicked out of his brains. you did great putting him down and fucking with him. maybe im not suposed to say this but the end of this was so fucking hot i couldnt believe it. you got my jizz just like hrs. ha you know what i did and all and i hope you do a lot more like this. your doing real good.

Thanks Billy, glad to have you along for the ride!! And you're right, Nate really is an asshole. Let's see if I can get him to piss off Kevin and then we'll see what he thinks about Matt!!! It's fun to be the puppet master sometimes!!

Love the story! I read it all today lol I can't wait for the next chapter

Welcome aboard, accord!! (See what I did there? Ha!) I'm glad you've enjoyed it and I wish I could have got the last chapter rolling a little bit faster!

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Today is a day which is cause for celebration!! Matt has finally finished chapter 23!!! I'm so sorry it took so long (considering where the last one ended, that was probably a painful wait), but I couldn't exactly get things to flow the right way. That all changed, though. I've got it and a plan in place. I don't expect the next one will take so long, but then again, there isn't a holiday smashed in the middle!

So, without further ado, I've got Chapter 23 here for ya. We're back in Matt's perspective, even though that isn't explicitly explained right off the bat. I think you guys are smart enough to figure it out, though. ENJOY!

Lost in a Dream, Chapter 23

“I feel like I’m a broken record when I say that I love waking up next to Brayden. But it’s true. I have feelings for him that I have never had for anyone else. He’s not just some hunk of meat that happens to like me. There’s ... something else between us. A real connection. It's something I haven’t ever been able to explain to myself.

“There have been other guys I’ve had crushes on. And there have been guys interested in me. But, when it came down to it... I always chickened out.

“Until I met Brayden. I remember being nervous about that initial phone call I made to him more than anything. I had never felt so compelled to call anyone before. It was like my brain was finally telling me not to chicken out. Thank fucking God,” I said to Sam as he and I sat on the futon in my room.

“This connection ... is it fate?” Sam asked me. I heard some movement in the bed above us.

I thought for a few moments. Was that what it was? Fate?

“I think it is, Sam.” Brayden leaned over the side of the bed enough so we could see his shoulders. His hair was completely affected by gravity and with the grin he had on his face, he looked incredibly goofy. I stood up as much as I could and kissed my upside-down Brayden on the lips. I don’t know what Brayden thought of it, but my guess was that it was a good way to start off a Thursday!

I had almost forgotten Sam was in the room with us as I enjoyed the feeling of Brayden's soft lips on my own.

“Does that make you feel like Spider-Man, Brayden?” Sam asked, interrupting our kissing.

Brayden giggled and got down out of the bed. He was just wearing boxer briefs, and... well, he was in a normal guy’s morning predicament. Sam and I were both smiling as we both stared at the tent Brayden's boner was making, but I could tell Brayden didn’t care. He laughed, grabbed his shower stuff and wandered off to the bathroom to take care of business.

“And you guys have only been together a month?” Sam asked.

“Not even. Officially,” I said, using my fingers to signify quotation marks, “we’ll hit the three-week mark on Monday.”

“Okay,” Sam said with a pause and a nod, “how did you know you were gay? Sorry if that’s too forward.”

“It’s not, don’t worry! It’s quite a common question, to be honest!” I said with a smile. “The serious answer is that I’ve always felt an attraction toward guys. Even when I thought I was straight and didn’t have a girlfriend, I figured I was just waiting for the right one.”

Sam smiled and said, “And now you have. What’s the non-serious answer?” he said with a sly grin stretching.

“Vaginas scare the fuck outta me!” Sam and I both laughed as Brayden walked into the room with his hair dripping and a towel wrapped around his waist. He took the towel off his waist and dried his hair, showing Sam and me his ass.

We both started laughing again and he turned around and said, “What?”

He was still drying his hair off, so Sam laughed again and said, “You haven’t got an ounce of modesty in your body, do you?”

“I do, but, we’re all guys here,” Brayden said as he got dressed. “So, what are you guys talkin’ about that was so funny when I got in?”

“I was asking Matt how he knew he was gay, and he told me what he thought of vaginas.”

“What did he say? That they scare the fuck out of him?” Brayden asked while holding a straight face.

“Why did you even ask if you already knew the answer?” Sam asked in return as he shook his head and grinned.

“I didn’t know!” Brayden said in protest. “I just had a good idea. I added the ‘fuck’ in there for effect, though.”

“So did he,” Sam said with another laugh. “You guys must know each other pretty well for only having been together two and a half weeks.”

I looked at Brayden and smiled. He had sat on the futon so I was between him and Sam, so he was already looking at me. I was just about to agree with Sam when Brayden beat me to the punch.

“Yeah. You want to know why I knew he was scared of vaginas?” Brayden asked. I looked at him curiously, unsure of where he was taking this.

Before Sam could answer, Brayden’s sly grin grew across his face. “You’d know too if you saw the way he goes for my di--” he said, before I jumped on him and quickly covered his mouth with my hand. My face was suddenly flushed with embarrassment, and that only seemed to fuel those two. I looked at Sam and he was laughing. I shook my head side to side, and then felt Brayden’s hot, wet tongue slobbering across the palm of my hand.

I pulled my hand away and pouted. “... my dick, Brayden continued right where I'd stopped him before. "He’s a magician! His grand finale is a vanishing act!” Brayden told Sam, who continued to laugh.

“I’m not saying he’s lying, Sam,” I started, “but, who do you think taught me that trick?” I asked as my pout faded and a smirk replaced it.

Sam’s smile quickly faded. Suddenly, there was no emotion on his face. Just minutes ago he was laughing ... seconds ago he was smiling. What did I do?

He got up and started walking toward the door. My own smile had faded and I looked at Brayden, confusion printed all over my face.

“Sam? I’m sorry, that was over the line.” I said, thinking I might have gone too far with the joking.

He froze in his tracks and his head bowed forward.

Then he started laughing. He turned around and was all smiles. Was he just messing with me? I could hear Brayden cracking up next to me. “Sorry, Matt!” Sam said, still standing by the door, “I remembered I had a meeting with a professor to go to while you were talking. I thought it might make a good joke, too!”

“And it worked like a charm,” I said, shaking my head and grinning.

“Thanks for the talk, too. You guys are great. You really are. If Nate doesn’t see that, then that’s his own damn problem!” Sam said as he walked out.

The questions Sam asked me today ... well, they made me wonder. Was he just being curious? Or, was there some other reason he was asking them? No reason to jump to a conclusion. Time would tell.

The rest of Thursday was calm. I liked calm, though. I got a little irritated at one point after dinner when Nate and some of the guys walked by and he gave me a weird look, but I got over it. Brayden and I both got some homework done and welcomed in friends for some company before bed.

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Friday was a different story. It started off amazing, since I woke up next to Brayden per usual. But the longer the day went on, the worse the day got.

The clouds first moved in early that day as I was leaving the shower. Guess who I saw? Yeah. Nate. I smiled to be polite, but he just rolled his eyes. What an asshole!

My ‘cloudy day’ continued until I got to psychology. Unfortunately, that’s when the rain came on my day. We had a pop quiz. I recognized some things, but I felt like a toddler who suddenly forgot to walk after I finished.

I thought about going home and just taking a nap to pass time, but ran into Lukas on the way home from class. Finally, a light shined through! He invited Brayden and me to join Evan and him for a run, so of course I accepted! I told him Brayden was at class, but I couldn’t wait!

Once we made it to the Wellness Center, I started feeling better and better. I stopped worrying about Nate. I stopped worrying about psychology.

I got to vent about my day as we started running, and Evan saw fit to point out all the hot guys he could see. “Fifteen feet ahead. Tall, blonde, and tan,” he said.

“Dude. He’s a giant,” I said, “and you would just make him look smaller. He makes Lukas seem small like us!” Lukas laughed, but didn’t have anything to say.

“Fine! Is that Nate on the treadmill over there?” Evan asked, pointing briefly.

“Don’t think so,” I said. “He’s big and muscular like Nate is, but his hair’s too long and dark. Nate’s is just a buzz cut.”

“Wow, study him much?” Evan asked. He and Lukas laughed at his joke. I didn’t find it funny, but it did get me to smile.

“Nah, just saw him this morning coming out of the shower. And he continued his asshole-ish antics,” I ranted.

Evan laughed and asked, “Did he look nice?”

“I said I was coming out of the shower. He was just walking down the hall.” I looked over at Lukas and could tell he looked a little annoyed. Maybe he was just having a rough day, too. Though, nothing seemed to be bothering him earlier.

We continued to run for a while, Evan continued to point out guys and give them a ‘hotness rating’. I played along, but only to keep a decent conversation going.

After our workout, we all decided to just shower at the gym rather than walk back to the dorm all sweaty. Evan took a really fast shower and headed to the lockers to change when he finished. It took Lukas and I a little longer, but he asked me what was up with Nate, so I told him.

Once we were done, we walked to the lockers and couldn’t find Evan. I shrugged my shoulders, but Lukas seemed irritated that he didn’t wait.

After we were changed, we walked out to the lobby area and found Evan chatting with the guy at the front desk.

“Alright, Evan. We’re going,” Lukas said, sounding rather annoyed as we walked up. “You coming with?” he asked as we walked past. Why would he even ask that? I was starting to think Lukas wasn’t just annoyed, but pissed.

As we started to walk home, tension between the two of them filled the air. Evan took a deep breath and then exhaled. “That was fun, guys!” he said. “We’ve gotta do that again some time soon.”

“Go right ahead,” Lukas said flatly, “but I will just stick to swimming with Brayden for my exercise from now on.”

“Oh, come on,” Evan said playfully, “it wasn’t that bad. Sure it’s different from swimming, but --” he started to say, but then was interrupted by Lukas.

“But what? There aren’t enough guys to put to your ‘hotness rating’ when you swim?”

“Actually, if you would have let me finish,” Evan said, sounding annoyed, “I was going to say running works out different muscles than swimming does. Are you mad I was checking guys out? Is that what your attitude is about?”

That was the trigger Lukas needed to go off on Evan. It seemed like he set him up to me. “No, I’m not mad you were checking guys out,” Lukas said, his voice raising in volume. “I’m mad that you kept talking about it. Almost every single fucking guy there, Evan.” Lukas did have a point. It was pretty obvious that Evan was checking every guy out.

Before I could really even mentally process what had happened, Evan snapped back at Lukas. “I really don’t see how it’s a big deal!” Evan exclaimed, throwing his hands in the air. “It’s no different than window shopping, I just have no intention of buying anything!”

Somehow, no matter what Evan would say, it would set Lukas off more. When we made it outside the dorm, they were practically yelling at each other. Lukas ended up walking away from the dorm all together, whereas Evan went inside with me to go to his room. I had tried to calm them down, but it never helped. After they split off, I went to my room, still trying to process what had happened.

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So, just like that, after the clouds had started to clear and I was having a decent day again, the real storm hit. Nothing I did could stop them or cheer them up, so I was feeling upset too. When Brayden made it back from class, he could tell I was in a different mood.

“Can you believe that?” I asked after I had explained what had happened between Evan and Lukas. “I mean, I do see where they were both coming from... Lukas was mad because Evan kept ogling and going on about every guy he saw with a tight ass or a nice package or whatever... Evan was mad because he thought Lukas overreacted... but for that kind of argument to turn into yelling and screaming at each other... that was just ridiculous to me.”

“It sounds like it got pretty crazy,” Brayden said. “That’s what happens sometimes I guess. But I kinda wanna hear what Lukas has to say about it.”

“It just sucks!” I said as we walked into the room and closed the door, “I hate seeing friends fight. It’s always for something stupid, too.”

“It doesn’t really sound like it was a stupid reason, but they really needed to talk about it and not fight about it,” Brayden said, shrugging his shoulders.

“It was kinda stupid though. It spiraled way out of control. And neither of them seemed to want to apologize.”

“Do you really think Lukas should have had to apologize? I mean, it sounds like even you agree it’s Evan’s fault.”

“Oh, I do agree it’s his fault,” I said, “but, Lukas didn’t seem any more willing to compromise than Evan did.”

“Okay. It’s not that I don’t believe you, but I kinda want to hear from Lukas before I think too much about it.”

“And Evan,” I added. “There are two sides to the story. Besides, they’ll both probably come around at some point asking for advice.”

“I suppose you’re right. I’ll call Lukas and see if he’s okay.”



To be continued...

[BillyCanCum]

This sounds like me a my hubby sometimes. I'm always theone who cant kep eyes off hot guys and dicks showing a bulge and shit ha i love seeing guys showing there stuff and all and i got to say nothing wrong with it. so watch yourselv or you might cross me. evan can look at what he wants and lucas better let him or there be trouble soon. i was hoping for hot sex and more jizz but know you wont stop getting guys jizzing with your story. so ill be back for when you do. good job!

[sheep]

Those 2 need to grow up. Just because a dog chases a car doesn't mean he can drive it!

[Craiger]

Very interesting chapter, Matt. I can understand the dynamics between Evan and Lucas, however I somehow fall more to Lucas' side. This is a new relationship for the two of them even though they have known each other for some time. Seems to me that a little bit of ogling is acceptable, but Evan went overboard in his "hotness rating." Lucas had an insecurity from the beginning by not expressing his feelings toward Evan. In accepting the partnership with Lucas, I would think Evan would be a little more sensitive and keep some of his lustful feelings to himself. Jealousy can harm a newly formed relationship as we saw with Matt and Brayden. But these are my observations and there may be much more to the story then meets the eye. I will wait and see...........

Craiger

[hardreader]

I love the way you really dig into these guys' lives. Not just the sex, although you know how I love it when you get into the sexual scenes, but just the push and pull of figuring out relationships and other people and how to share your life with someone. It all seems so very real the way you present it. I feel I've had a chance to really get to know your characters and so I find myself caring quite a lot about how they figure all their problems out. I hope I don't have to wait so long for the next installment. You're doing a great job!

[justanothershyguy]

This sounds like me a my hubby sometimes. I'm always theone who cant kep eyes off hot guys and dicks showing a bulge and shit ha i love seeing guys showing there stuff and all and i got to say nothing wrong with it. so watch yourselv or you might cross me. evan can look at what he wants and lucas better let him or there be trouble soon. i was hoping for hot sex and more jizz but know you wont stop getting guys jizzing with your story. so ill be back for when you do. good job!

We'll see what will happen in the next chapter for sure! I thought it was a topic that was fairly common among guys and possibly couples, so I thought it might touch home to some.

Those 2 need to grow up. Just because a dog chases a car doesn't mean he can drive it!

Exactly! Shame on those two...

Very interesting chapter, Matt. I can understand the dynamics between Evan and Lucas, however I somehow fall more to Lucas' side. This is a new relationship for the two of them even though they have known each other for some time. Seems to me that a little bit of ogling is acceptable, but Evan went overboard in his "hotness rating." Lucas had an insecurity from the beginning by not expressing his feelings toward Evan. In accepting the partnership with Lucas, I would think Evan would be a little more sensitive and keep some of his lustful feelings to himself. Jealousy can harm a newly formed relationship as we saw with Matt and Brayden. But these are my observations and there may be much more to the story then meets the eye. I will wait and see...........

Craiger

Hopefully the boys are just as insightful as you, Craiger!

I love the way you really dig into these guys' lives. Not just the sex, although you know how I love it when you get into the sexual scenes, but just the push and pull of figuring out relationships and other people and how to share your life with someone. It all seems so very real the way you present it. I feel I've had a chance to really get to know your characters and so I find myself caring quite a lot about how they figure all their problems out. I hope I don't have to wait so long for the next installment. You're doing a great job!

Hopefully they can figure out the problems without messing anything else up!

First of all, I want to say sorry for taking so long to write. I could have definitely worked a little harder than I have the last few weeks! I thought I'd let you guys know that I am making some good progress and that I like where the chapter is going. I can't promise any times when it will be out but I have written a lot more today than any other day.

So, know that I am still working! I hope I don't disappoint too many of you by not having a chapter with this post, but it's still several days away I think. Keep watching and I hope I haven't lost any of ya!

Thanks for sticking with me!
Matt

[Craiger]

Your time is our time, Matt. You certainly haven't lost me. Masterpieces take time to make so don't rush. We'll be here.

Craiger

[justinjeans]

I should say that Billy got me started reading this story. However, now I keep reading and rereading my favorite parts. I guess that means it's good, at least for me it is very good. We've even enjoyed it together.

[justanothershyguy]

Your time is our time, Matt. You certainly haven't lost me. Masterpieces take time to make so don't rush. We'll be here.

Craiger

Thank you Craiger! That is incredibly flattering to hear!

I should say that Billy got me started reading this story. However, now I keep reading and rereading my favorite parts. I guess that means it's good, at least for me it is very good. We've even enjoyed it together.

Great to see you have read it too, Justin. It's wonderful to hear you like it!

I had not been on JUB in a very long time, but decided to stop by. I read your first chapter, and was hooked. I read it all in one sitting. Great story, cant wait to read more.

Great to see a new reader and welcome back to JUB!

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Again, guys, I have to apologize for the delay. This is seriously the only chapter I've got done in December. Pathetic! I can do better than that! I have been so close for about two weeks now, but I just couldn't get it finished. Case of writer's block? Not sure. But it's done now So, I hope everyone enjoys Chapter 24! It is done similarly to 22: in Brayden's POV.

One last note before I post. To you-know-who: Let me know when you catch up and tell me what you think! You know I'd love to hear!

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Lost in a Dream, Chapter 24

... As seen through Brayden’s eyes ...

I couldn’t fuckin’ believe what I just heard. I didn’t even know what to say! I spaced out as I held my phone to my ear. Matt looked on intently as Lukas and I talked.

“What?” I said into my phone as I stared at Matt. He looked so concerned, which I assumed was due to the far-off look I had on my face.

I could hear Lukas’ voice, but the words were just going in one ear and out the other. What the fuck was he saying? It was something about him and Evan.

“I’m really sorry Lukas, but I missed that again,” I said, trying to regain my focus.

“Good lord, Brayden. But that does kind of prove my point. This isn’t working like I’d hoped,” Lukas said. If there was any blood left in my face, it had just left. I got the fucking chills, too. It’s not working? Him and Evan?

“Don’t you think it’s a little hasty to say it’s not working after one fight?” I asked. Matt’s hands jumped up to his face as he gasped.

“What? Ugh, Brayden. That’s not what I said at all. This conversation isn’t working. I’ll be in your room in, like, 15 minutes,” he said. I let out a sigh of relief as I said bye and put my phone back in my pocket.

“I didn’t listen well enough. He said that our conversation wasn’t working and nothing about Evan. He’s on his way to talk more,” I told Matt as he continued to clutch his chest.

“Thank God. You scared the shit out of me!” he said.

While we waited for Lukas to show up, Matt decided that it might be better for me to talk to Lukas alone on this one. He said that I was closer to Lukas than he was, and he thought it would be good to hear Lukas’ side.

I was fucking nervous for him. For them. If Matt was right about their argument, it was probably true that Evan was way over the line. That being said, I wonder if Lukas would admit he was overreacting like Matt thought. Time would tell.

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Before long, Lukas showed up at the door. He didn’t seem overly upset, but even if Matt hadn’t told me what had happened, I would have been able to tell something was wrong.

After he plopped down on the futon with a sigh, I sat next to him and said, “Alright, so tell me what happened.”

“Okay,” Lukas said with another sigh. “So, as you probably know, Ev, Matt, and I went running at the Wellness Center. It started off just fine, but Ev started to make comments about all of the hot guys he could see. It was just annoying to me at first and something I would have asked him to stop in the future ...” he said, trailing off. I looked at him and nodded and he continued. “But he just kept going on and on about how hot ‘this guy’ was. Or how strong ‘that guy’ looked. It just got ridiculous.”

“It sounds sort of ridiculous. I probably would have been irritated if I were in your shoes. So then what happened? I know there was an argument,” I said.

“Well, after we were done running, I was already pretty mad at him. We all went and showered, but Ev didn’t stick around and talk with us. I didn’t think it was a big deal, but then once Matt and I finished, he wasn’t anywhere to be found. So, I told Matt that we should just look for him on our way out. As it turned out, he was at the front desk talking to this smoking hot guy. I’m sure he was straight as hell, but that’s when I knew I was going to be upset with him for a while.

“I pretty much dragged him out of there, trying to make it seem like we were in some sort of hurry. But as we started walking home, it was like Ev couldn’t even tell I was upset. It’s like every sign I could have possibly given him went right over his head. And then he says, ‘That was fun!’ like he couldn’t even tell I wasn’t having fun. I finally called him out for checking out everyone and then he finally figured out I had an attitude.

“But it was like that wasn’t a problem to him!” Lukas said, raising his voice. Matt must have really toned down the story when he told me, but I figured he was trying to stay as neutral as possible. “At this point, I’d had enough, so I just told him what was on my mind. And then we started arguing big time,” Lukas said. “So, what do you think about it? Who’s right?”

“Do you want the truth?” I asked, fearing I might just make him even more angry.

“Please. I’ve cooled down enough to handle another opinion.”

“Okay. Then, as someone who’s friends with both of you guys, I think you’re both wrong,” I said, earning a confused look from Lukas. “Evan was wrong for what he was doing and the way he handled it, but you were wrong to make an argument out of it. I know you both well enough to know neither of you wants argument and I bet that it isn't how you guys deal with other situations. It really does sound like the whole thing spiraled out of control,” I said. He nodded his head, but didn’t respond, so I continued. “When you look back at it, what do you think?”

“Well, I’m still mad at him for practically flirting with guys with me right in front of him, but I am getting the feeling I overreacted. Is that how Matt felt about it, too?” Lukas asked.

“Almost exactly. Matt was really upset you guys were fighting,” I said. As I said those words, I started to wonder if there was something more to Matt's reaction to their fight.

“Why couldn’t Evan have been like that?” Lukas asked.

“Because he was defending himself,” I said with a shrug. “Like I said, neither of you were in the right on this one. If I were in your shoes, I would go up to him with a truce flag in hand and talk to him again. I’d probably also apologize and ask to talk about it again so there won't be any fuck-ups like that in the future,” I said.

“What if he doesn’t want to talk about it now?” Lukas asked, suddenly looking concerned.

Then, it was like everything lined up in my head. That’s why Matt wanted me to talk to Lukas... I would bet just about anything that he was talking to Evan. He did say there were two sides to every story...

“He will. I’d be willing to bet to be your slave for a month that Matt was up there while we were talking,” I said with a laugh. For the first time since Lukas was here, he laughed too.

“Damn,” he said with a smile, “that’s a hefty bet. If I didn’t agree with you, I’d take it!” Lukas got up from the futon, so I did too. “Brayden, thanks. Whenever you need me to talk about a fight with Matt, talk to me. I’ll make sure you two are back together before you know it!”

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“Son of a bitch!” Matt exclaimed as he paced back and forth in our room. From what I had gathered since he had returned, I was right. He went and talked to Evan while I talked to Lukas. Unfortunately, he wasn’t as successful as I was.

“He wouldn’t listen to anything I said. All he kept saying was, ‘Lukas made too big of a deal about it,’ and, ‘I didn’t say that much.’ ”

“From what I heard from Lukas, he sure as hell did,” I said.

“Oh hell yeah he did. He went over the line and is too stupid to admit that. As I left, I told him he obviously hadn’t sat in the corner long enough to be ready to act like an adult about it,” Matt said. I laughed, but he continued to pace. “I saw Lukas on the way back down and he asked if it was smart to go talk to him. I told him that it was up to him, but it might not do any good just yet.”

“That’s probably true. Lukas was calmed down and even admitted he probably went a little overboard. But, if Evan can’t admit that he was over the line too, then it could be a frustrating night for those two. Just don’t beat yourself up, Matt. I know you want to cheer them up, but they have to want to be cheered up first,” I said to him, hoping he would realize it wasn’t his fault.

“I know, and I really do wish things would just be better. Can I have a magic wand, please? That would make things easier,” he said as he came and sat next to me on the futon. He rested his head on my shoulder, and I could feel him practically melt into me.

“Matt, I know fights suck, but is there another reason why they affect you so much?” I asked while I pulled him closer and rubbed my hand across his chest. I wanted to comfort him. Ease his nerves.

“It’s nothing,” he said.

“You know you can talk to me. You can talk to me about anything. If it’s a concern of yours, it’s a concern of mine because I care.”

He stayed silent for several long moments. Finally, he pushed himself away from me and looked at me. His eyes were just the introduction to what I could only assume was going to be a sad story. There weren’t any tears, but his eyes had a forlorn look to them. They stared off into the distance to somewhere far beyond behind me. He was staring past me like I was just a figment of his imagination.

“You’re right. There is another reason,” he finally started. “Back in high school, I was a completely different person. I had different friends and didn’t even believe the obvious clues that I was gay. I knew I didn’t like girls, but I just figured I’d stay single forever and make everyone else happy. I had what I thought was a really good bunch of friends. At the center of that group was Michael. He was my childhood best friend and someone I couldn’t help but secretly crush on. The only problem was he was as straight as they come. Once we were in high school, there was always some girl hangin’ on his shoulder.

“Anyway, fast-forward to our senior year. We were at a small gathering of friends on New Year’s Eve, and Michael had snuck some of his parents’ beer out of the fridge. I thought it tasted gross, but, since everyone else was drinking, I figured I wouldn’t be the only one to get in trouble if we did. Long after midnight had come and gone and we were into the new year, Michael and I were alone in his room. This wasn’t all that uncommon and, if I remember right, it was something we had planned before hand.

“So, with a little bit of alcohol in me and the best friend I had ever had at my side, I let out what I thought was my deepest, darkest secret. I told him I was gay,” Matt said, voice wavering. Tears filled his eyes and his voice quivered as he continued, “And he didn’t take it well. He kept telling me that I couldn’t be like that because homosexuality is a sin.”

He paused to regain his composure, and then continued, “I didn’t agree for obvious reasons, and then we started arguing. And yelling. I ended up just leaving since he wouldn’t listen. I think I walked the mile or so from his house to mine, but I don’t remember. I just know I woke up in my own bed.

“That last semester in school was terrible. Michael wouldn’t even look at me, let alone talk to me. I pretty much went into a recluse state until I met Jase in college. But not even he knows about Michael. I've never been able to tell anyone. Not until now. Not until you,” Matt said.

Finally, he snapped back to attention and I saw him looking at me instead of through me. “That’s why I hate fighting. It’s already ruined one friendship and I don’t want that happening again. Especially between two people I care about.”

“Oh, Matt,” I said as I urged him back to me. His head melted into my chest again, so I rested my cheek on the top of his head. “I hope that makes you feel at least a little bit better. I know we can’t go back and change the past for you, but we can try our best to keep Evan and Lukas together. Ultimately, though, it’s up to them.”

He nodded his head, but didn’t have anything more to say. We sat there for quite some time. I was trying my best to comfort him. That’s what he would do for me.

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The both of us had dozed off for a little while. I didn’t have my phone on me, but I could tell that it was still well before midnight. Even though the way were sitting was a little uncomfortable, it felt perfectly natural and acceptable to be holding my main man Matt. He needed it.

“Matt?” I asked softly. “Are you awake?”

“Yeah,” he said, equally as soft.

“I’ve been thinking,” I said. “Why don’t we turn Lukas’ and Evan’s fight into something we can learn from. So that we don't end up doing what they're doing sometime in the future.”

“Let’s just promise to never fight.”

“Come on, Matt. Let’s be reasonable. If that’s something I could promise, I would. But every couple fights at one point or another. The couples that last are the ones who can get over that.”

“Okay,” he said. “What can we do about it now that will prevent a fight later?”

“I’m not talking about preventing a fight. I’m talking about what we can do to control the damage,” I said.

“For example?”

“Well, there are a few things we could do. We could have some sort of safe word--”

“No,” Matt interrupted. Then, he giggled, “Sorry, that sounded blunt. I’m just not sure a safe word would be enough.”

“Okay, what if we just walk away from each other for some amount of time, but promise to come back?” I suggested.

“That’s a little better. What if instead of walking away from each other, we just go for a walk together. With no destination in mind, we could just walk until all of our issues were aired out.”

“You know what? I like that,” I said, running my hand through Matt’s hair. His hair was so soft! Damn! “I thought of another thing, too. Something we can promise each other right now.”

“Go on,” he said.

“Let’s promise, right now, that if we’re having any problems with each other, that we’re not going to let it fester. Let’s promise to talk about it like a civilized couple,” I said.

“I promise. No festering from me,” he said.

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The rest of our evening was quiet. Part of me was glad that there was no fighting, but part of me wished I’d hear good news. For a while, I didn’t really know why Matt had made that fight such a big deal. But now, I understand completely. It even makes me love him even more to know just how much he cares about everyone else!

“Matt, I know we talked about not letting sex become the object of our relationship. Whether you realize it or not, you’ve shown me so much more than love tonight. You put the ultimate amount of trust in me by letting me in on one of your biggest secrets. I care about you so much.”

“I know you do, Brayden. And I really do trust you with my all of my heart. The thing is,” he said as he looked me in the eyes, “I don’t wanna fuck you tonight.”

“Oh, Matt!” I exclaimed quickly, “I wasn’t going to ask anything like that--” I started, trying to explain the point of my speech before I was interrupted.

“Wait. Don’t get ahead of yourself. That wasn’t what I meant at all,” Matt said. I looked at him confused until he explained, “I want you to fuck me.”

I wasn’t even that horny before hand. But, when he told me that... Let’s just say I was elated. Fuck yeah, I was! I was more than ready to fuck him! “Oh, hell yes!” I said, scrambling to get up off the futon. Before I could get all the way off the futon, Matt grabbed my arm and stopped me.

I looked down and saw one of the fucking most love-inspiring looks ever. Matt was straight-faced, looking up to match my gaze. His forehead scrunched up as he did that; his eyes begged me to do things his way.

With my movement halted, I felt Matt tug at my arm, pulling me back down to the futon. As soon as I was seated, he crawled on top of my lap, grabbed my shirt, and shoved his tongue into my mouth. He explored inside me with vigor, which surprised me due to the nature of the evening. All of this emotion was being exchanged through one fucking intense kiss.

He broke the kiss by pulling my shirt up to my chin. Since it was his night, I decided it wouldn’t be so bad to let him have his way with me. Fuck, the thought of that made me leak!

As soon as Matt had my shirt pulled off, his soft lips gently tickled my neck. Seconds after, his soft, wet tongue traced its way down my neck and to my chest and around my pectorals. Finally, it stopped, as it had found its apparent destination: my right nipple. I basked in the pleasure of the warmth of his mouth suckling on its target. He nipped at it a few times with his teeth, which was surprisingly pleasurable. While all of this was going on at my chest, Matt was grinding his ass into my hard-as-a-rock cock.

After what must have been minutes of Matt kissing his way down my chest, he got up off my lap. He pulled his shirt off, exposing his chest to me. Shortly after, he pulled off his shorts and left me staring at a jockstrap. A white, now partially translucent jockstrap with his dick sticking out of the strap. I didn’t even know he had one of those!

He then pulled off my cargo shorts, and discovered that I had gone commando today. Surprise! “Ooh,” he said, “what’s this? No underwear?”

“It feels fucking great. So free. You should try it! You’re practically halfway there anyway...” I said, trailing off.

He didn’t say anything. He just turned around to get the lube and a condom from the dresser, showing me his jockstrap-outlined ass. Fuck, he looked amazing! I’ll have to make sure that’s not the last pair he owns.

My semi-hard cock was already leaking in the excitement and anticipation of what was to come. I imagined all of the things Matt could have planned for tonight, and each one of them made me horny as fuck.

I snapped back to reality when Matt took my rapidly expanding cock into his mouth. His hot, wet mouth. He had gotten so fucking good at this. His tongue licked up and down and all around my cock. It swirled around the head all the while he slobbered and sucked away.

I could feel my orgasm approaching rapidly. Since I didn’t know exactly what Matt had in store, I warned him and he stopped his amazing blowjob. I wanted to kiss him again, but he pushed me back and rolled the condom on me. I finally figured out what he wanted. He wanted to ride me.

He squirted a copious amount of lube into his hand and almost immediately wrapped that hand firmly around my cock. I gasped in shock at the sudden temperature change, but I knew it was about to feel a whole lot more amazing.

When he stood up to lube his tight hole, his meaty cock was sticking out right in my face. I didn’t know if I’d get a chance to suck it or not, so I decided I’d just go for it. I grabbed him by the waist while his hands were occupied and I pulled myself onto his glorious cock.

I didn’t get to suck long, but the suck I did get in was satisfying for me. He wagged his finger, pushed me back, grinned, and shook his head when he finally had the hands to do so. I just hoped he would let me continue that blowjob when we were finished... If not, well, then I will just have to surprise him soon.

There Matt was, one arm stiff, guarding me from leaning forward and interrupting him; the other guiding my lubed cock to his tight hole. I gasped when my cock made contact with his hole. Matt was squatting in front of me and I wasn’t doing anything but staying hard for him. Like that was difficult to do!

Waves of pleasure washed over me as Matt fucked himself on my steel rod. It was weird not being in control while I wasn’t the one being fucked. But, at the same time, that made it all the more pleasurable.

My favorite part, amazingly, wasn’t that I was inside a hot ass. It was that I could see Matt enjoy the fuck and do whatever he wanted at his own pace. And his cock bounced up and down with him! Seeing his cock drool and then whip the drool around as he bounced was hot. That, combined with the hot, tight ass wrapped around my cock, was turning me on like crazy. I was trying so hard to make this last, but I had to warn Matt that there wasn’t much more I could do to stop the impending orgasm.

“Matt, I can’t take it anymore! If you don’t want me to cum yet, you better stop bouncing like that!” I said.

He grinned at me and continued fucking himself on my cock. “That was the plan! Do you really care how long this takes? Besides, I need to do more squats if I want to last that long either. My thighs are burning!” he said.

With his permission and constant pleasure, I decided I’d just let my orgasm hit me whenever it came. Not seconds later, my balls tightened up, my body tensed, I threw my head back and gasped in sheer pleasure. While my eyes were closed, I felt a couple globs of hot cum splat against my chest and stomach. Once I looked up, I could see Matt was in a post-orgasmic state and his cock was dripping cum. As Matt tried to catch his breath, he leaned forward and we shared and extraordinarily passionate kiss. Just before our mouths connected, I felt the cool air touching my softening cock.

“How was that for ya?” I asked.

“You have to try it some time!” he said excitedly.

“I think I do have to, now!” I said. “Let’s go get cleaned up.”

“Together?” he asked, pleading with his eyes.

“Together.”



To be continued...

[sa11]

Excellent story, Matt! I've been reading from the beginning and can't wait for the next chapter!

[sheep]

Glad to have another chapter!

[Craiger]

God, another hot chapter, Matt. If that is writers block, then I think they have to change the entire meaning of those words. As HR stated once before, I think it is really interesting to hear the story through Brayden's point of view. I also believe the rift between Evan and Lukas will not last too long. Particularly since there is some form of sensitivity between Evan and Matt. If I remember correctly, Matt seemed to sense some intensity when Evan and Lukas had one of their heavy sexual encounters, so maybe the reverse will happen for Evan after this mind blowing evening between Matt and Brayden. I think being twin brothers would intensify those feelings. I will be looking forward to the next chapter.

In the mean time, Matt, have a Happy New Year!

Craiger

[hardreader]

You took your sweet time posting, but in the end you delivered. Getting the look inside of Matt and why he hates fighting was quite insightful. Pains like Michael caused him can reshape a guy for the rest of his life. And then the sex scene. Oh my fucking god! When you wrote, “Wait. Don’t get ahead of yourself. That wasn’t what I meant at all,” Matt said. I looked at him confused until he explained, “I want you to fuck me.” I went completely hard. And I stayed hard and on the edge as I read their love scene. When Brayden finally said, “Let’s go get cleaned up.” it was time for me to do the same. You make your characters so real and so likable. I just can't help but feel so close to them. You know you can get me hard just by saying "Good morning! "

[BillyCanCum]

i should have written this when i read the new part, but like it left me jizz covered and all and i felt kind tired to write after i got off so fucking good. i know your story is about more than sex but it left me with about nothing fucking else cuz i was all out over it. i liked the part where you told braydon about how you hate fighting and what that michael guy did. you make it feel so fucking real and so i jizz even more hard. I know ha but it is.

[DonQuixote]

Matt:
Chapter 1 -
You've got a great, easy to read and get into style to your writing.

And, how can you not get deeply involved with the morning j/o session with Mr. Imagination.

Then, the Frisbee match and game winning goal - with the not-so-imaginary gorgeous, cum-inspiring guy as *Matt* opens his eyes!

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Chapter 2 -
A great build up - Jason and Kelsey checking on Matt to see how he's doing, and letting him know about the mysterious Brayden, who had the hots for Matt.

The get together for dinner going on til late, the TV fest when Brayden's attempts to get to know his roommate better went bust.

And, the overwhelming sensation of Brayden in Matt's mind, driving his libido and his cumtastic orgasm!

You are doing a bang up job, Matt.
On to Chapter 3!

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Chapter 3 -
Quite an emotional roller coaster - start out with another strange dream, followed by the Big Brother bantering to church and back.

Then Brayden's bung hole of a roommate - close minded bigot, or maybe hyper closeted gay boy who's afraid to show a sensitive side.
Followed by Brayden coming back from his extended walk and swim to help clear his mind, and stay the fuck away from the ass hole.

With an interesting progression to supportive friendship budding on romance.

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Chapter 4 -
A nice, slow bit of encouragement from Jason and Kelsey, lol. Followed by Pizza and TV together and a hot j/o session pre-nighty night time.

I wonder if Kevin is still freaking out, or has Brayden caught up with Kevin?

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Next stop, post# 18 - Chapter 5
But, Mr. Sandman is shutting my eyes down on me. Work comes too early in the AM.

[justanothershyguy]

Excellent story, Matt! I've been reading from the beginning and can't wait for the next chapter!

Glad to have a new poster Thanks!!!

Glad to have another chapter!

Great to hear from ya sheep!

God, another hot chapter, Matt. If that is writers block, then I think they have to change the entire meaning of those words. As HR stated once before, I think it is really interesting to hear the story through Brayden's point of view. I also believe the rift between Evan and Lukas will not last too long. Particularly since there is some form of sensitivity between Evan and Matt. If I remember correctly, Matt seemed to sense some intensity when Evan and Lukas had one of their heavy sexual encounters, so maybe the reverse will happen for Evan after this mind blowing evening between Matt and Brayden. I think being twin brothers would intensify those feelings. I will be looking forward to the next chapter.

In the mean time, Matt, have a Happy New Year!

Craiger

Well, I didn't have writer's block when I was actually writing! It's just easy to tell which days are gonna work well and which days aren't!

You took your sweet time posting, but in the end you delivered. Getting the look inside of Matt and why he hates fighting was quite insightful. Pains like Michael caused him can reshape a guy for the rest of his life. And then the sex scene. Oh my fucking god! ... You make your characters so real and so likable. I just can't help but feel so close to them. You know you can get me hard just by saying "Good morning! "

I didn't mean to take my time... it's just passing way too fast for me to realize I'm not writing! Ah!

i should have written this when i read the new part, but like it left me jizz covered and all and i felt kind tired to write after i got off so fucking good. i know your story is about more than sex but it left me with about nothing fucking else cuz i was all out over it. i liked the part where you told braydon about how you hate fighting and what that michael guy did. you make it feel so fucking real and so i jizz even more hard. I know ha but it is.

Thanks, Billy. Always a pleasure to hear from ya!

Matt:

You've got a great, easy to read and get into style to your writing....

Great to have another new reader! I didn't wanna completely quote this, so I'm glad you enjoyed the first parts you've read. Stay with me, criticize, suggest, comment, do as you please if you want the story to continue!

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I really wish I could be posting a new chapter, but I'm not. I just realized it had been weeks since I even posted, and for that I'm embarrassed. I left y'all hangin'! I have a feeling the inspiration may be coming back, so I hope that I can start writing again soon. Like I mentioned earlier in the post, the days are just flying by and it just hit me that I hadn't written to you guys. So, stay with me, subscribe and be prepared. I'ven't (wait, is that even possible... whatever, I just made it possible!) left you and I will be writing soon. Chapter 25 awaits! What will happen?

So, for all you new and old readers, just be patient and it will come. Just you wait and see!

Take care!
Matt

[Craiger]

Many famous authors coined new words, Matt, and it appears you did the same. I'll contact the dictionary publishers so they can print "I'ven't" in their next publications.......

Craiger

[DonQuixote]

Chapter 5

This gets more and more interesting.
Is he a psychic sleeper, entering the minds of other guys while he sleeps, experiencing their thoughts and actions, feelings?

Chapter 6 - HOLY SHIT! What a fucking nightmare that opening is!

His Doppleganger Evan got beat up across campus?!

Braden and Jason and Gina all seem like really great people.

Chapter 7 - How to freak Lukas out in a hurry. The coach times two, too.

(Once more) Into the breach - gutsy guy!

And, talk about your sweet rewards!

Chapter 8 - A good morning, indeed.
Waking up stuck to your man, refreshing shower, very nice view, breakfast with appreciative people.

A great story in the background, waiting to grow like a fish tale, although this one is already a huge Marlin of a tale.

Twin brothers, separated at birth?!

Chapter 9 - Aiden, football scholar extraordinaire, with a homophobic asshole of a father.

These dreams are definitely taking us in strange directions.

Musical Rooms - one change complete, one primed, two to go.

Chapter 10 - Back to Aiden, now with thte Football Coach - and, Moving day, with a bit of unthinking Kevin rearing its ugly head - around Aiden.

Sockittohim, Matt. Set his dumb jock ass straight, lol.

Chapter 11 - Waking up to shit music, as your boyfriend puts on the shit-eatin' grin. You should have turned around, bent over, and told him to eat shit and die - or at least pleasure the shit out of you as penance, lol.

Ultimate Frisbee, the collegiate "intramural/pick-up" game of choice for the non uber jock community on campus.

Team Offense playing "let the opposition kill the queer quarterback", are they? That's what I'm reading between the lines, here.

Methinks Kevin did Just what Matt told him to do during the 1/2 time break in the locker rooms, with Coach right there to back him up - and reward him!

Sneaky little bastard, aren't you, Yentle? "Matchmaker, Matchmaker, make me a match, find me a man, catch me a catch . . . ."


And, now that I'm at the bottom of Page 1, AND it's almost 2:30 EST, and I have church in the morning, I'm going to bid you sweet adieu, my young padawan friend and spectacular author.

[DonQuixote]

Chapter 12 - Sunday morning Sunshine and assorted happenings!

Oh happy morning - and "why was Kevin in Lukas' room, instead of his own?"!

Evan has a bit o' the devil in him - time to start sorting out who is adopted - or, are both?

What cruel trick does he have up his sleeve to pull on his parents? - As if we don't have an idea! Time to find out which/or if both, are adopted, and maybe why?

Brayden get shamed into a proper might out date, eh? A little romantic competition from the sib can be a good thing. Of course, to be fair, they've only been together for a week, and a pretty hellacious one at that.

Man, his folks hit by a drunk driver?! Critical condition. His brother calling him - not good news - and that will likely cancel the plans for tomorrow, not that they're immensely important at this point. But they may well be, later. He and Bryan may need some surrogate parents the comfort them.

Chapter 13 - The tragedies of September.

Getting to the hospital, and being able to talk to his mom. A curious quandary - telling his mom about Brayden, and coming out to her, while she's so badly hurt - I guess knowing your mom is key - would the strain of finding out your son is gay shock her system, or be a blessing as it turned out to be?

Lunch with Evan and his folks as a distraction.

Wow. A bit of a shock. Being given to their best friends to take care of, because of early financial difficulties of the time. Truly sad that they drifted apart, given the special bond between the families. Then, again, the unspoken pressures, conflicts, perhaps even the guilt of the birth parents.

Good News! His parents have been upgraded, are both awake and alert and doing well! His dad is quite a character - and turn about fair play, with Matt's surprise visitors coming.

And poor Bryan - talk about blindsided! Of course, I think I missed a transition in there- when did Evan walk in? When his dad asked Matt how he knew about Dan and Mary - I expected Evan to walk in with the second "surprise", bit either I missed it, or it wasn't there, lol.

Rating Matt's cusses - Bryan sounds like Jason noting Matt's infrequent cussing. Save 'em for when they really count and make an impact, I've always said.

Dean has some definite issues - is Matt saying he's deep in the closet, and he can tell, having been there?

Meanwhile, back at the dorm, with studies not going so well - heads in different locations, and Brayden freshly back from the showers, it sounds like a little physical distraction and emotional release is on the agenda!

The intensity of their lovemaking was great - wish I was there, and part of it!

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Your note between 13 & 14 was a window into your soul, of sorts. Thank you for sharing it with us, and your continued efforts and talents in writing the story - and your presence elsewhere! You're a great guy, Matt.
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Chapter 14 - The slow waking up, thoughtful, reflective. The love welling up inside, suffusing your
entire body - it's an incredible feeling to experience.

Dean and his sister were twins - and she was 1.5 times the legal limit. That's a lot of alcohol. The twin connection will be telling, methinks.

Lukas - an extremely powerful stripping away of one's facade/veneer, getting to the raw emotion underneath.

And the talk with Dean. Peeling an onion, layer by layer can take some time, but it still gets to the heart of the root after awhile.

And Lukas and Evan - and by eventual extension, Aiden. Extremely powerful Q & "no A" session.

[DonQuixote]

Chapter 15 - That's a helluva start to the chapter. Evan doesn't want to be an adult, so he pulls childish bullshit, which will doubtless bit his cute butt in the long run.

An interesting step into Evan's mind's eye on how he sees Aiden and Lukas, methinks. And another restless night for Matt.

Another "grammatatist" I see. "Can" instead of "May", lol. My Dad in-law used to pull that on his kids all the time - and I picked it up, to my wife and kids' neverending dissatisfaction.

Kevin, scrunched head, text w/smile. Hmmmm?

And back in the room w/ Brayden and their intimate cumfest! And cumfest it was, too - or is that Times TWO for TWO!

You are doing a great job, Matt. I'd stay up and read even more, but I need to be up way early in the morning.
I should have gone up an hour ago.

Take care, sir.

[justanothershyguy]

<snip>
You are doing a great job, Matt. I'd stay up and read even more, but I need to be up way early in the morning.
I should have gone up an hour ago.

Take care, sir.

Thanks, DQ. Sorry for keeping you up last night, but we both know it was for a good cause. Catch up on your sleep and get back to the story when you can. It ain't goin' anywhere, that's for sure!

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Hey guys, update time. I had part of 25 written, but it was collecting dust while I was stuck on a part. I am now 'un-stuck' and working again. Again, I won't promise a posting day, but I'm hoping that it will be sooner rather than later. I have to agree with what I am quite sure you are all thinking, it has been too long.

I know this was a short update and it was more in response to DQ's posts than anything, but I figured I could update the rest of you patient boys while I was at it. Also, thanks for no hate mail while you wait. I would have grabbed a pitchfork, joined an angry mob, and yelled things if I had to wait this long! Seriously though, you guys are awesome and that's why I keep writing.

Thanks

[Craiger]

Matt, a good story is like fine wine, very much worth the wait. Looking forward to the new update.

Craiger

[DonQuixote]

Chapter 16 - Every man's wet dream - waking up to being serviced with an awesome head job!

And a wet DREAM, it was, lol.

Cumpleat with some good natured ball busting. What are friends for, anyway?!

A good visit to the Hospital and Dean - since the folks seem to have been preoccupied with other things and forgot to tell Matt they were sprung from the joint!

Gramps - an older generation gent who needed to be called up short - maybe he's retuning his neurons a bit after the push back.

And, the wonderful, loving, HOT, Erotic love making.

And who was their voyeur? Brother Evan, maybe?

Chapter 17 - Hail, Hail, the gang's almost all here! Free Show! lol.

What a great morning shower - Dream!

And, better yet, the real intimacy of the locked bedroom.

[DonQuixote]

Chapter 18 -

“Hey Matt!” he said once I reached him. “Good to see you, too. Who got you to come?”

‘What?’ I thought to myself at first and then realized he was talking about who I came here with. “Brayden, of course!” Well, I suppose my answer would have been the same either way.

Great line, Matt!

Oh, Shit. That fucking cunt, Dean.
You were drunk, and should have known better, too, though.

You DO know how to rip our hearts out.

[DonQuixote]

Chapter 19 -
The beginnings of rebuilding.

Friday night was a clusterfuck.

Hakuna Matata - it's in de past.

Here's hoping!

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Chapter 20 -
The angst of trying to set things right - and the battles - making the first step - trying to figure out how frequently to try again if you don't get an immediate reply.

Flash Forward to Brayden's wedding - to whom?

And the Agony is replaced by the reconciliation and knowing all is well in their little part of the world.

And, Payback?! When, where, PIcTURES!
(I typed the above before I got to your paragraph, lol.)

And on to the Shower Scene!

And, there's that brotherly connection, again. One of these days . . .