Confess something that might surprise others or damage your reputation on JUB - 2012

[Ram]

My results are out on the day the world is suppose to end.

I am happy with it but at the same time I hate it.

[maxpowr9]

After I take a dump, I like to applaud myself for taking a good poo.

[Ram]

What results?

LilBit: His STD test.

Uni results.

Ram's response to Lilbit's post: Bitch you are so dumb you can't even pass an STD test. Wait... no... I think that's a good thing.

[ALBiMale1975]

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In general:

I do not like Humans.

That about cover it, most who know me knew that though.

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[refujiunderground]

deja vu. i feel like i'm back in the year 1999 around christmas time. everybody is upbeat and happy and i to no surprise feel the exact opposite. why? i do NOT know. i could do something fucked up to somebody right now and feel good to myself because someone would feel just as i feel at the moment. why should i be in pain alone while folks around me is all feeling good and belittling me at the same time making me feel worse? fuck them. they deserve that shit. and to anybody that doesn't believe me or wants to test my buttons in here and you know who you are, go on ahead and see what will happen to you.

[refujiunderground]

Yeesh, have a glass of wine or something. You sound like you're having violent thoughts. Take the edge off peacefully.

odd enough. after jerking off to some porn, eating some food, and taking a mini break, i feel . eyes are a bit watery though for some odd reason.

i confess to laughing my ass off to this.

[ravenstar]

Yeesh, have a glass of wine or something. You sound like you're having violent thoughts. Take the edge off peacefully.

I wouldn't necessarily advise drinking if he's feeling like he is, particularly given that alcohol reduces your ability to think coherently. It could be the spark to a flame so to speak.

[refujiunderground]

I wouldn't necessarily advise drinking if he's feeling like he is, particularly given that alcohol reduces your ability to think coherently. It could be the spark to a flame so to speak.

you summed it up. pretty much, it sets a spark to a flame where you can say that it'll lower my restraint where i'll start getting too brave to do something like that. it has happened.

but here's something really embarrassing that happened to me just now. went to the gym ready to workout. for some reason, some people in the gym were looking at me kind of funny and i didn't know why. tell me what's wrong with this photo.

[HolyEggRolly]

I pick my nose, eat cold pizza, and talk to myself really loud a lot.

[wilbur33]

you summed it up. pretty much, it sets a spark to a flame where you can say that it'll lower my restraint where i'll start getting too brave to do something like that. it has happened.

but here's something really embarrassing that happened to me just now. went to the gym ready to workout. for some reason, some people in the gym were looking at me kind of funny and i didn't know why. tell me what's wrong with this photo.

SHOES DON'T MATCH!!!!!

.....plus you're wearing faaaaar too many clothes - when you go to the gym, I like to imagine you work out naked..... *sigh*

[refujiunderground]

^^^^^SHOES DON'T MATCH!!!!!

.....plus you're wearing too many clothes - when you go to the gym, I like to think you work out naked.....

yeah... don't know how it happened. must have been because of the darkness or whatever because there's no light around the front door. thought they were the right shoes. i was working out, looked down to the ground and then bam, wrong shoes. why the fuck does embarrassing things keep happening to me? man, i wanted to leave BUT then decided to try to play it off like there was nothing wrong.

and it's kind of cold in the gym with that huge fan that they have. some guys like to go there wearing shirts showing off or whatever BUT rather go in a hoodie and all.

[borg69unimatrix]

but here's something really embarrassing that happened to me just now. went to the gym ready to workout. for some reason, some people in the gym were looking at me kind of funny and i didn't know why. tell me what's wrong with this photo.

Just keep a cool face, like you intended to do it - who knows, you might start a new fashion.

[refujiunderground]

Nothing wrong with the way you look, though when I work out I wear a tank top and shorts. Don't you get hot with all that on?

well, the reason why i have the hoodie and sweatpants is that i'm skinny and i'm very insecure about the way i look. i don't want other people in the gym to look or treat me like i don't belong there. the other guys in the gym are looking like thor, arnold and wwe wrestlers where they walk like they're about to go super siyan on somebody. you know the gym guy walk where they basically have their arms 2 inches away from their body, all still like they're 100 pounds and etc . i don't want anybody to go like "do you even lift? you're one of the regulars in the gym and you look like you don't even workout. you need to take a protein shake and eat heavy." so with the extra clothes, i can basically not generate that type of attention.

and yeah, it goes get hot sometimes. today was a good day. didn't really sweat but then again, didn't really do any serious exercise. i was tired as hell.

[refujiunderground]

Just keep a cool face, like you intended to do it - who knows, you might start a new fashion.

naw... my friend said something about how that was a fashion frend back in 1975 or 80 something. he proceeded to laugh his ass off at me after that. my brother did too. i can't win.

[borg69unimatrix]

naw... my friend said something about how that was a fashion frend back in 1975 or 80 something. he proceeded to laugh his ass off at me after that. my brother did too. i can't win.

Huh. If it was I must have missed that one. I don't remember it at all.

You could always put itching powder in their jocks as payback for laughing at you though.

[refujiunderground]

You shouldn't care what people think of your appearance when you are living a healthy lifestyle. I'm sure no one would think anything negative about the way you look, but even if they did they can just fuck off.

that's very true. some of these guys don't get it though. you can't even go to the gym to simply exercise without folks trying to push their goals onto you basically trying to discourage you from working out if you're not doing the same thing that they're doing. that's one reason why i'm not a fan of the gym. if a guy isn't looking like this





then they think that you're not doing it right. last year, there was a fitness trainer manager at one of the other branches that basically belittled me and discouraged me to go to the gym just to have me sign up to get one of the fitness trainers ( the fitness trainer that i was working with was cool, have no prob with him). he asked me how long i been to the gym and when i said 2 years, he said "damn, you been here that long and you're not looking super muscular. you're wasting your time." dude was dissing me.

[refujiunderground]

^ that's why I like going at around 5-6 am, no one is there except a few olds.

damn, that's too early. is your gym one of those 24 hour ones?

and another thing too. the new year is coming. you know what happens around that time. can't even go to the gym in the evening anymore. one reason why new years resolutions aren't shit.

[refujiunderground]

Yeah, 24 Hour Fitness, it's early but that's why you end up getting most of the stuff to yourself.

you lucky ass. where you at anyway? it would be nice to have a 24/7 fitness around here BUT this being new jersey, it's ass backwards like that.

[Axxess]

There was a poster that really irked me, so I put him on my ignore list. He stopped posting for a little bit, and I was glad. But now he's resurfaced, and even though he's on my ignore list I still have to see him when he bumps threads or is quoted.

I'm not dominant by nature, and I always view myself as the submissive partner in ANY sexual activity--BUT there is one member on this site that makes me want to shove my cock in his mouth and violently facefuck him. With love, of course.

I don't know why...I just want to.

#creepostatus LOL

Now you've got me curious. Who is it?

[refujiunderground]

i KILLED my headphones last night by accident. just put my knee on the wire while getting up out of bed while i was listening to some music and R.I.P.

[refujiunderground]

call be a scrooge, but I hate the JUB x-mas changes... do we really need loud crashing sounds every time I load JUB to get me into the holiday spirit?

actually, when you move your mouse arrow over the lights, they break.

it scares the shit out of me. heard something shattering in my headphones and i thought it was one of those random pop up ads. didn't know wtf that was?

[refujiunderground]

i hate the f-word but this post had me rolling.

http://www.justusboys.com/forum/thre...=1#post8577258

the second page of the thread is . penayforray is a funny dude when he handles his thread backfiring.

[Lefty]

The song below is one I learned in like the Second grade.





This the exception to my not liking seasonal tunes.

[refujiunderground]

The song below is one I learned in like the Second grade.





This the exception to my not liking seasonal tunes.

careful, man. you might give somebody ideas on how to sample this song and turn it into a new record.

and santa is looking evil on that surfboard.

[Axxess]

^ The same with you, who is it ?

It's not that hard to figure out. I mean, how many rude, unscrupulous, narcissistic, attention whores can one forum have?

My Mom asked if we could get rid of the cat so we could have a real Christmas tree. Now, I know she wasn't being serious, but it made me feel guilty for having a cat. She used to really be into the whole Christmas season, but over the past few years she's become rather jaded about it; Not to the point of Scrooge or Grinch mind you, but she's not as festive as she used to be. My Mom isn't getting any younger; She only has a handful of Christmases left. I want her to be able to enjoy something she used to enjoy, and not having a real tree is one of the things depriving her of that.

Also, when I first posted in this thread it had only 31 pages; Now it has 101. My how time flies, and how little I've accomplished in that span.

[Ram]

It's not that hard to figure out. I mean, how many rude, unscrupulous, narcissistic, attention whores can one forum have?

Somehow I think this is me.

[refujiunderground]

i dunno. sometimes, i want attention and to be noticed by someone or some people because i feel lonely or sad BUT when it actually happens, i turn into a total pussy where i can scared and want to and even proceed to avoid people. hell, no lie, i even get nervous and anxious being on this site interacting with other members and NOT knowing who the hell is on here or is reading my shit. whenever someone says something that i've said in a thread or reply in passing and didn't think anybody ever bothered to read, it makes me scared and nervous because it's like i feel like i'm being watched. one of the things that irks me is when i feel that someone is watching me or even looking at me studying me. it's like some inmate, prison type shit. if it's a guy that i like or am interested in dating, it makes me feel even worse. a sort of conflict of interest.

i remember back when i used to get irked and annoyed whenever i would be out on the streets with my brother and my homeboy and then i would see someone who i thought was looking at me when i didn't even know for sure and would go like "why are they looking at me? why is he staring at me? why are they staring at me?" they would slap some sense into my head and tell me to stop being paranoid and that nobody was paying any mind. it was just ME thinking like that. they're right. however, there's times when i think someone is looking at me or staring me down and they REALLY are looking at me and staring me down. then when i find out, i'm like "holy shit". there was one time i was on the bus with my homeboy coming from college about 7 years ago. i was wearing all blue which obviously being a black guy on a bus with some people that live in bad areas could be interpretted as gang colors or crip wear. anyways, we were on the back of the bus and there was another guy there too who kept looking at me. he was staring me down hard as hell. when he got off the bus, he straight up told me "you gotta be careful, homie. you're wearing gang colors and people might misinterpret you as a gang member so make you don't come outthere dressed like that". that just made me feel uneasy.

as i was talking to some other members before about it like quasar, i tend to procrastinate and avoid things when i feel a great deal of stress and anxiety. i'll just hesitant and it'll take me sometime to say something back like if it's an email from someone or a private message.

[refujiunderground]

I think the thing that I hate most about being gay is feeling like I have to live in a/the city. I mean, if I can't find a guy in NYC, what are the odds I'd find one in Bumblefuck, Wyoming?

but I get crazy jealous of my friends who live out in the sticks... I could live like a king off my salary if I lived in any other region of the country and I didn't have to worry about moving to areas where there are no gay people.

exactly. you know how it is. it's crazy how it wouldn't be a problem to find a guy in somewhere like nyc BUT it's a completely different story if you live on the other side of the river.

[refujiunderground]

taking the advice of ixthrock, sorry for not pm'ing you yet but i will later on today or tomorrow. i was coming close to crying watching this and some of the other videos that this guy has.



i want to seriously give this man a hug. wow.

he's trying.

[refujiunderground]

^I don't get it, RJ. Why would you feel sorry for him?

All exercise regimens induce pain.

that's not the reason why i feel sorry for him. i feel sorry for him because he has bad social anxiety where he's alone and has nobody to talk to. it's sad seeing how he's trying to make his life better going to the gym, getting therapy and taking meds but he still not able to make friends.

[sixthson]

I give up on defending certain people here. Not because I don't like them anymore, but it's just too hard. The people who gang up on them are too stubborn, relentless, irrational, and stupid to reason with. I've tried so hard to keep the peace, but to no avail. They're like terminators; they can't be bargained with, they can't be reasoned with, they don't feel pity, or remorse, or fear, and they absolutely will not stop...EVER...until you are (figuratively) dead. So it's a waste of time to even bother.

I'll keep supporting the guys in question through comments/PM's, but I can't take the heat anymore, so I'm getting out of the kitchen.

Well, is it Wanker you like or just Wanker's ass?

[Lefty]

Loki,

Have you ever heard of Transportation? You use it to get from one place to another.
Okay, that may have sounded a bit harsh, didn't mean for it to. Buddy, if you have
the wherewithall to live someplace you would be happier in. JUST DO IT.

Small towns and rural areas have ALL kind of people. Nice part is you can go into the
'big city' and if you hook up, its his place or get a room. If things don't work...bam,
you're out of there and your nest is safe.

You have friends out there already, thats a start...surely they have friends or even
just acquaintances they could introduce you to. I vote you and 'B' go for it. So much
easier on your mind, body and soul when you are living how and where you want...

okay I'll butt out ... happy holidays

[refujiunderground]

When I started seeing people online from New York City complaining about the difficulty of 'dating/finding someone,etc'...I knew that no matter where you live, it's going to take some thorough searching and sometimes a luck of the draw to meet someone you can truly make something work with. There are a lot of factors that come into play when it comes to people being compatible for dating, relationships, and the like.

as for my confession: sometimes I MISS dating, meeting new guys and discovering their likes, dislikes, quirks, and whatnot. Miserable singles don't realize what a playground they are working with. Then again...sometimes you just want to leave the playground and go home.

are they serious? when they mention dating, they have to keep in mind that in some places such as new jersey, there are NO gay neighborhoods at all where gays can congregate or meetup. there's gay bars BUT they all are spread out and have their certain nights where you can meet people. there's an lgbt center or two. you have the college campuses for the students. nyc has everything there. if you get yourself involved in enough activities involving gay guys in nyc, you WILL meet somebody or have a date. there's NOBODY in nyc that can say that they haven't been able to find a date.

[refujiunderground]

there's something weird about crossing the Hudson.

guys will travel an hour to go from Manhattan to outer Queens or Brooklyn, but suggest a 15-20 minute subway trip into Jersey City or Hoboken and it's like you're proposing a long-distance relationship.

i know right. it's not like they're going over to new brunswick or somerset or morristown. they can take the path train over and the craziest thing about that is the path is WAY quicker than the subways in nyc. they can get over to jersey city and hoboken in like 10 minutes compared to taking an e train or an a train from manhattan all the way to queens.

do you think that new yorkers acting extra reluctant to mess with north jersey guys has to do with the misconception of new jersey folks being assholes? sometimes, i think the stereotypes such as the ones on the jersey shore, which consists out of state people from elsewhere, hurts the residents of new jersey.

[Lefty]

Posted this elsewhere today in a thread that doesn't see much traffic.

Not really a Hallmarky kind of guy, but this, for some reason, spoke

to me. Subtle and in good taste, I share it and its message with you.

[mikey3000]

I give up on defending certain people here. Not because I don't like them anymore, but it's just too hard. The people who gang up on them are too stubborn, relentless, irrational, and stupid to reason with. I've tried so hard to keep the peace, but to no avail. They're like terminators; they can't be bargained with, they can't be reasoned with, they don't feel pity, or remorse, or fear, and they absolutely will not stop...EVER...until you are (figuratively) dead. So it's a waste of time to even bother.

I'll keep supporting the guys in question through comments/PM's, but I can't take the heat anymore, so I'm getting out of the kitchen.

I know exactly what you mean. I see it on here all the time and have been exposed to it too. Most opinions I respect and when I don't I try to look for middle ground, but for some here there is no middle ground. I have been ridiculed and insulted to no end on some things, so now I choose to not loose my energy.

Anyway, now that my better 1/3 lives just an hour away (instead of 10), my wife finds it too convenient to shoo me out the door when she wants her private time. I flit between the two countries so much that sometimes I forget where I am. It's kinda nice.

[refujiunderground]

I give up on defending certain people here. Not because I don't like them anymore, but it's just too hard. The people who gang up on them are too stubborn, relentless, irrational, and stupid to reason with. I've tried so hard to keep the peace, but to no avail. They're like terminators; they can't be bargained with, they can't be reasoned with, they don't feel pity, or remorse, or fear, and they absolutely will not stop...EVER...until you are (figuratively) dead. So it's a waste of time to even bother.

I'll keep supporting the guys in question through comments/PM's, but I can't take the heat anymore, so I'm getting out of the kitchen.

i don't think that should discourage you from defending somebody at all.

despite what some people say about how some people on this site act, it's nowhere near as bad as how it is on other forums. you might have a fallout with people on here but almost everybody here will not hold a grudge and let bygones be bygones. elsewhere, you have people that really take this internet shit to another level where they really go overboard with it. if they don't like you, they'll go about trying to get your personal information, finding ways to embarrass you and try to ruin your life offline. it's ridiculous. it just scary how some people really hold that much hate and anger towards people they never even met a day in their life.

i think that many people do not give jub and jub members enough credit. this site is the best. you guys are kick ass. the mods are cool. the members are cool. we can curse on here without our words being censored. we can say whatever as long as it doesn't violate the rules and it's all good.

[Ram]

I give up on defending certain people here. Not because I don't like them anymore, but it's just too hard. The people who gang up on them are too stubborn, relentless, irrational, and stupid to reason with. I've tried so hard to keep the peace, but to no avail. They're like terminators; they can't be bargained with, they can't be reasoned with, they don't feel pity, or remorse, or fear, and they absolutely will not stop...EVER...until you are (figuratively) dead. So it's a waste of time to even bother.

I'll keep supporting the guys in question through comments/PM's, but I can't take the heat anymore, so I'm getting out of the kitchen.

Hero complex.

[Axxess]

Axxess, maybe you could have the kitty stay with a trusted friend for the duration of the holidays. Failing that, perhaps you could board her at one of those kitty hotels.

That unfortunately isn't an option. He doesn't respond well to unfamiliarity (both places and people). If we did drop him off with someone, he'd spend the entire time curled up and cowering in a corner somewhere, terrified of anyone who would try to take care of him.

[justsimon]

Next weekend, I'm spending a day and a night with my ex. I know it's an absolutely terrible idea, but I'm tired of always doing the right thing and would really like to hook up.

[RonR18]

I don't understand what is going on here lately. :/

Last night I poured a full glass of water on a spider forgetting that spiders do not drown in water. I then had water all over my floor and part of my bed and a very alive spider crawling through my covers.

Yay.

You should have just bitten it like it's going to do you, and thus given it a dose of stacy karma.

[RonR18]

call be a scrooge, but I hate the JUB x-mas changes... do we really need loud crashing sounds every time I load JUB to get me into the holiday spirit?

Be careful, Scotland Yard's secret weapon has been sent here to root out Christmas Grinch's...

[refujiunderground]

Well, I beg to differ. I think you're giving JUB a little too much credit. A lot of people here (including you) go way overboard too, and do a lot of the same shit you mentioned on other sites (maybe to a lesser degree, but still beyond ridiculous). Besides, it's all subjective. I don't care about your comparisons. That doesn't excuse the bullshit that goes on here, or make it any less annoying, so I stand by what I said.

You have your opinion. I have mine.

i agree but still, at least posters in here will give someone the raw uncut truth as harsh as it may seem in a respectful way in order to HELP somebody.

i'll tell you straight up that i too have said the same things that i said in here where i tried to do the whole "i need your help" on other online sites and it didn't go well at all. some people did the same thing that other posters say on here BUT for the most part, i got clowned and treated like a total loser. more people said a lot of horrible things such as i should kill myself, insulted my parents, and made assumptions about me that weren't true such as how i had no friends, how i was getting bullied in school and etc. the funny thing about it was that the members on the site that i'm talking about that did that were a bunch of people who were basically trying their hardest to look like the shit on a damn internet forum. they needed someone to make themselves feel better so they used me. on this forum, you can come as you are and NOT get belittled where you have someone trying to boost themselves up.

on the other sites, it's SO bad that believe it or not, people can't even post picture of themselves because so and so will just turn it into a photoshop frenzy where they'll make fun of whoever. hell, to tell you the truth, you think that what you're experiencing is bad in here trying to defend somebody. if you were to try the same thing elsewhere, you would be labeled as an alias of the person that you're trying to defend or might end up being a target yourself. at least JUB members have consciences and hearts. most places on the internet DON'T. if you can't handle here, you most definitely will NOT be able to handle other places on the internet. you have to be ready to be just as fucked up as the other people on there. that's why i first came to JUB with the attitude that i had because that was what i was used to dealing with. i was used to dealing with assholes.

[refujiunderground]

Why do you continue to with these other sites refuji, they can't be doing your mental health any good ?

like this site and porn, it's addictive. i'm a self destructive individual.

[refujiunderground]

not really a confession BUT i'm getting a little worried about ashyphoenix. hope dude's doing okay. if you're doing okay, give us a shout.

and another thing too. i have a rape fantasy which involves a guy being a stalker. that's SO hot. i wish i had a stalker. my fantasy would be for him to persue me to the point where he would follow me around, watching my every step, and then giving me that surprise sex. don't know about you guys but i swear if i had a stalker and he approached me like "i want you badly" or whatever, i would let him have his way with me and would most definitely date him and get into a relationship as well. if he actually went out his way to do that much for me, he most definitely is boyfriend, husband material.

but i don't think that i'd ever have a stalker though. nobody wants me like that. i'm actually shocked and surprised when i find out someone actually likes me or finds me attractive let alone sexy. it's flattering. i'm NOT used to getting that type of attention or for that matter, being viewed or seen in that light by anybody.

one last but least thing, i'm way too shy and reserved to approach a guy to talk to him about dating. i most definitely am NOT going to be upfront about it. i'll just keep it to myself. not used to expressing myself either. i think i'm love shy. i will even go as far as to lie, hide, avoid or act like i'm not interested because i'm that afraid when i really am.

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Too long, didn't read.

what??????????

[HolyEggRolly]

I have this fetish where I want to smear a burrito, and it's ingredients all over a guy's body and eat and lick it off them.

[refujiunderground]

I confess that I have concerns about him, too, RJ. He despises his sister, but has to spend time with her this Christmas due to family reasons.

Concerning your rape fantasies: if you look around, you'll see that a lot of gay guys have that fantasy. I don't know why.

hope he didn't do anything crazy or whatever. he was talking about how he felt like he was about to go through a mental breakdown and all. maybe he's away from jub. honestly, some of the members of jub such as the ones that chose to self delete without any warning, i'm concerned about because it's not like they gave a warning to why they did what they did. who knows.

as for the rape fantasies among gay men, it probably has to do with the feelings of being wanted and desired to the point where someone is basically willing to take away someone elses power. to go from a human being to being a boy toy. it's hot.

had another confession but i forgot about it. it was something that was important too.

not the confession that was on my mind but i'm still @ benderboy calling digitalfudge, digitalgrudge some months back. wrong but still fucking funny.

[refujiunderground]

^ I have my own theory on rape fantasies.

When I was younger I used to fantasize about being raped, it was because I thought I couldn't get fucked by a guy any other way, now I don't really get turned on by the idea because I know I could get some if I really wanted to.

I'd get deeper with it, but ain't nobody got time for that.

Happy holidays everyone.

P.S. - refuji the way you bring him up so much I'm certain I know who you like. Keep it cute.

i feel you, man. the rape fantasy plays true with someone coming to terms with being gay, being in denial of their sexuality or being closeted. the rape fantasy is a safe way to be in the closet and be in denial because it's basically projecting the feelings you have towards guys onto someone else and saying that it's them that's gay and they were the ones coming onto you. when someone acknowledges that they're gay, they basically own their sexuality instead of shifting it towards someone else.

and digitalfudge ain't the guy who i have a crush on.

i wish you a merry christmas and a happy new year. don't too hard on new years, dude.

[maxpowr9]

I think instead of trying to leave them step by step as I promised,I'm becoming even more addicted to the cigarettes

The amusing part is, I am immune to nicotine (or at least have a very high tolerance of it). I made $1k back in college when I smoked a carton [Camel lights] in a fortnight, quit and didn't smoke again.

I'll thank two teenage smoker parents for that.

[Axxess]

P.S. - refuji the way you bring him up so much I'm certain I know who you like. Keep it cute.

When I read this the song "Don't mess with my man" started playing in my head.

Confession: I want to see someone bend Cupidboy's legs over his head and pound him to mush.

#evenmorecreepostatus

Who doesn't want to see that?