Although I was never formally diagnosed, I've had issues with depression and anxiety for a while. It got at its worst when I was a senior in high school. I tried talking to my parents about it, but they just said that I have no reason to feel unhappy. They said I have everything someone my age would want and I had an easy life, so what did I have to be depressed about? Since they didn't understand, I went to my guidance counselor at school and she called my parents after our talk. The next morning, my parents reprimanded me for talking to her. They said they didn't want me making them look like bad parents and to stop talking to her.
I've gotten better since then and my relationship with my parents improved as a result. I did have a tough year in 2012, but things started looking up last year. I would say I'm doing very well now. But I still live at home with my parents, because I just graduated college and have yet to find a job. And certain things still happen that triggers my issues with my parents.
My mother made some comment recently that hurt my feelings. I told her about it and she apologized and told me to tell her if it ever happened again. So, I sent her an e-mail the other day about things that were bothering me. I told her about how I feel I'm not allowed to ever be in a bad mood at home and that I shouldn't be chastised for being angry sometimes, especially with my anxiety/depression issues. I feel there should be more understanding when I'm having a bad day, as I'm not a mean person and don't lash out at people.
She responded by saying, "You're entitled to think whatever you want about me. I don't have anything else to say." It really hurt me, because I proofread my letter over and over for about an hour. I tried really hard to make sure that it was mature, eloquent, and not disrespectful or insulting to her in any way. It reminded me of my experience with my guidance counselor when I reached out and my parents made the situation all about themselves. I felt like my feelings were pushed aside as insignificant. I feel like they completely miss the point.
I guess I need to just accept that they're not the people to talk to about these things. I'm opening up to you guys, because I need to hear from people who will understand. Can anyone else relate?