I posted a topic about this same topic in around October of last year.
I lived in Japan from August 2012 until September 2013. During this time I had my first serious relationship with a Japanese man. We spent all our weekends together and dated from January 2013 until I left Japan near the end of September 2013. I loved him. We broke up when I left. The reason why I left was because my job was destroying me mentally. I suffered panic attacks and tension headaches at work. Since returning to the US I have not suffered either of these again, but I still, to this day, miss my ex-boyfriend.
There was essentially no closure. We broke up over the phone and he said to me that he never wanted to hear from me again. This devastated me. At a time when I was already thinking "Eff Japan!", this just made me feel even more bitter.
I tried contacting him after I returned to the US, but he refused to speak to me. It truly breaks my heart because this is someone I was so close to, we lost our virginity together and did everything together.
I now live in Washington, DC and have tried going on many dates with different guys. It never seems to work out though for one reason or another. Most guys in DC simply don't want to date and want to just screw around.
I've already pretty much decided that when my lease is up in June of next year i'm going to move to California, it's been my dream to move there ever since I was in high school and i'll always regret it if I don't follow my dream, plus DC is insanely expensive for how crappy it is.
How can I overcome missing my ex though? I just looked at a picture of us together and almost started to cry. I've done everything I was told works...
1. Having sex with other people, I did this about five times and none of them were even half as enjoyable as my ex (because we loved each other and there was a legitimate passion between us)
2. Going on lots of dates
3. Removing all references of him for almost a year
Help I feel so lost...