The short version:
He's pretty damn cute, and could use some luffin. Which I wouldn't mind providing, but don't wanna scare him off... what do?
He's an ex-coworker, we met about a year ago and got along almost instantly. He's the soft-spoken kind of guy whose baby blues hide a deliciously inciting spark of mischief, and we just spend hours and hours talking about anything and everything. Physically, he's pretty easy on the eyes. Short, small-ish frame, but pretty well-built, cute butt, hairy chest, playful smile, etc etc.
Kinda backed off a while back since he started talking about a 'girlfriend', but he's gotten himself beartrapped with a married girl, a bit of a sordid story with chapters on husband, kids, and a 'divorce' that won't come anytime soon... if at all.
We started going for the occasional drink again, and I offer my friendly shoulder. And now that I'm moving abroad, everytime we meet I can't help but feel he's wanting to be with me more often. And I can't help but feel heavily drawn to him, an attraction that goes from "GHOD I wanna kiss him and make it better" to "Please sit on my face now" in a matter of seconds.
I'd like to think he's at 'least' bi, like me... I mean, the way he acts and talks definitely say 'straight', but the way he looks at me, the subtle way he shows off his chest through the open buttons on his shirt, the way he says my company is so precious to him... these things and countless others just throw off my 'gaydar'!
And problem is... if he's indeed straight, and if I even 'hint' at something less than 'straight', it'll probably make our friendship go a bit sour. Probably a 'Worst Case Scenario', but still gotta consider the possibility. Especially since, with me moving away, it would mean the difference between keeping the friendship at a distance, and not talking ever again...
I know this will probably end up not going anywhere, but I can't help but 'romanticize' the situation, and keep awake thinking about 6'1" me slowly leaning down to kiss 5'6" him just outside the car... and yes, the part where i end up with my hand in his pants would be nice too...
Opinions, comments, advice?
Thank you for your time and patience