I've been in a LDR for two years now. My partner lives in Asia, and after almost a year apart I finally went to visit him for three months this spring. The trip was amazing but one thing was made clear about our 15 year age difference, his sex drive is much lower than mine. He's happy with twice a month and I wish it could be twice a day! Anyways it got to the point that I was constantly having to beg for sex and constantly meet with the response " take care of it yourself". Needless to say this didn't do wonders for my self-esteem, I wasn't exactely feeling hot. Until one day I was changing at the gym and two of the hottest guys I'd ever seen drop their towels right in front of me and invite me to a threesome. Well I politely declined( using every ounce of self control in me) but it got me thinking, Im a 23 yo in his sexual prime ( not the akward geek I used to be ) should I really be having to beg for sex ?! Since then I got antsy in the relationship; he was and is my first and only sexual partner; but I want to explore sexually, I haven't acted on my desires though. Long story short I get back to America, where the time difference makes it almost impossible for us to talk live, and started my nightly porn routine to take the edge off. Except this night I found a live ****** website and, I figured it could be an innocent way of exploring my desires without really cheating. I signed on last night and watched a guy jack off as i chatted with him. I didn't show anything myself but just knowing that he wanted sex as much as I wanted it, was a huge turn on. The next morning though I started to feel guilty; At first I thought it was just another part of the okayed porn zone. . . but does the live part of live ******s make it cheating ? Should I tell him?