I am a 20 year old, turning 21 in 20 days. I am a closeted bisexual man who have been burned a couple of times; all because I've resorted to craigslist and A4A. I just don't know how to live in a world that is not accepting. I just want to find someone who will accept me for me. Am I asking for too much.
Lately I have been feeling so lonely, like I will never find anyone; man or woman. I'm pretty sure it has something to do with me being closeted about my sexuality but I am terrified at what my family would say when I tell them. I am out to my coworkers and my closest friend and her sister and trust me that was not easy to do. Lately I've felt like its time for me to tell more people, but I don't want to be deserted by my family.
See my mom is very into her Christian faith and I believe that I am this way because God wanted me to be but when ever anything having to do with being gay or lesbian, she makes some kind of comment. When we found out that my older cousin was gay, she said she was fine with it but made comments about not agreeing with what he is doing. I love my mother to death and I do not want to lose her in my life. I have no clue what to do.
Everyone says that my relationship between my mom and I is too strong to let something so trivial come in the way but what if it does? I also have my best friend who is like a brother. He has had some issues when he was a kid about homosexuality and has now become somewhat fearful of the subject. How can I come out to him and not be afraid of how he will react.