So lately, non-monogamy seems to pop up more and more in my life, either in form of invitations by couples that want me to join in for a night, or my friends talking about it, some of my friends are thinking about making their relationships open.
And I'm fine with that, but I just want no part in it. I was thinking about it, and thoroughly examined my feelings on the matter, and I came to realize, that I would be uncapable of happyness in a non-monogamous relationship.
On the other hand, I might be interested in taking part in threesomes, as long as I'm not in a relationship, but when the opportunity presents itself I always change my mind, because I'm not comfortable with people I don't connect on an emotional level.
Don't get me wrong, I don't feel like I'm missing something, and I am definitely not crazy over the issue. Sometimes I'm just curious about it but most of the time I'm not.
However I feel somewhat threatened by the seemingly increased amount of poligamy / non-monogamy. I understand that many people find that to be extreemely desirable, and while I am not completely opposed to the idea either, I'm afraid that it will be harder for me to find someone who feels the same way about it.