So, i have posted in this forum before. I am having problems accepting who I am being gay and all, but the funny part is that my parents are accepting and most of my friends dont really care. One bad thing is I live in the bible belt and you can only guess what thats like. The reason I am posting this thread is I feel useless anymore that I have no purpose. Over the past 9 months to year i have went downhill in mental and physical health. This makes me sound really bad but i have tried to date 4 different guys over this time, i guess because i am lonely. In this time I have attempted suicide, been placed in a behavioral hospital. After all of this i have lost a bunch of friends that i miss dearly. The bad thing is, I've kinda met someone but all I can think about is those other guys and where my future is going... questions like what if i move away, etc. I don't know what to do anymore or where to turn. I drive myself up the wall per say in worrying. I feel numb an empty anymore and bad things is, there is no purpose, suicide thoughts keep reoccurring. Any advice from any of you... have you been in my situation? Thanks for reading my crazy post, I promise you this is not for attention.