I've been feeling depressed for the best part of two years no. I'm bi not out - but that has nothing to do with how I feel. Unemployment, finance troubles, societal pressure (need to save up to buy a house - but i can't even afford dinner).
So I've had a light fun buddy for a while now. Started out as two bi-curious guys trying out stuff together. I feel really close to him. Our friendship arrangement has lasted longer than any of my relationships (only been with girls). I can't stop thinking about him. It's become more than sex. I didn't think love existed but I'm scared I'm in love - with a guy!
I don't know if it's love or if it is because he's my only bit of happiness during a tough part of my life. Either way - I'm beginning to worry about him a lot too. His future looks poverty stricken like mine and I can't help fear for him. I've got no mental space to be worrying about myself, my family and him! It's too much.