So I never had any relationship that lasted any longer than a month before now.
He and I are getting along great. We have the same quirks, like the same games, Disney movies, similar senses of humor, you name it, we have it.
I'm open-minded, I try to communicate well with him, etc.
For whatever reason though, I'm not really interested in sex.
I love him to death and want to please him but that fiery, passionate feeling when you wanna go at it isn't happening.
It's happened in the past with other men, but this time around, I guess things are different.
We've done oral sex, I do not want to frustrate him to death. He's being very kind though, telling me I shouldn't be sorry about it. We tried anal a bit. He got in relatively easily but I wasn't able to take him much farther than the head. It was just too much for me at the time, pain wise.
My problem isn't the fear though, I just am not even interested in trying. I don't get fired up around him. I need to know because everything else is right, everything else is what I want. Should I potentially engage in sex I don't necessarily want to get used to it?
He worries that for example, once I feel him pushing against my prostate I'm going to go sex crazy and cheat on him for some bizarre reason.
Would it actually be advantageous to try this without the "desire" to potentially gain an incentive?
I know this was all over the place but I'm at a total loss here.