Okay, It's me. Derek - Formerly Effortless_Pro
I see there's some familiar faces, and some new faces... and some new rules?
So what's new? Who missed me? Did anyone even know why I was gone?
I quietly deleted my account, last year. For reasons that I thought were my own, but they weren't.
I ended up getting involved with someone who was very controlling, and very good at manipulating me. Sadly I let it go on for almost a year; mentally it was abusive and I am mad at myself for sticking around as long as I did.
I should have ended it months and months ago; he would get overly jealous an insecure and would go mental if he found out I had slept with someone prior to him, or if people had seen pictures of my dick... Which literally one of the first things I said was "Everyone's seen it"
This website bothered him, so I deleted my account foolishly.
There's so much, but the final straw was when he decided to go through my apartment, and my personal effects and my computer, which I knew he was doing... so he found stuff, stuff that I put there for him to find; so this time he couldn't deny that he did anything and make it about me...
He went through my e-mail, responded to my ex (whom I am amicable with and was arranging to get my personal belongings back from Montreal), and an old fuck buddy who I am still friends with... Followed me to Toronto under the "pretenses" he made plans with a friend who lives there on the same day I was meeting up with the Fallen god for a book signing.
Essentially I finally got the balls to tell buddy that whatever we were was over.
For the longest time he refused to say we were in a relationship, and when things started to break down; and he realised he was going to lose me, and his control over me he suddenly wanted to get serious but by then I didn't; you can only be denied for so long, and know that this guy is on EVERY dating site possible; and every hook-up site, and then deny it to your face when your friends and even acquaintences have spoken to him; and then random bar friends freak out when they see him and he denies that it's him, yet it's his user name everywhere.
I know I'm rambling, but it was so bad, it got so bad - all the little lies, the big lies, the fact he thought I was obligated to have sex with him; I got sick for a good month and he was more concerned about getting his dick sucked.
Anyways, enough about that.
I'm extremely happy now that he's gone. I have my own place, and it feels like mine, because someone isn't constantly "keeping tabs on me" by "hanging out with me"
I missed you guys.