Ok, this is a long story, the truth is that i have allowed for this to be to long but well, hope you read it and give me your opinion and what i should do.
PS: By the end of this you're going to think I am an idiot... Well I am...
Here it goes, I've had a boyfriend for 4 years now, his name is Anthony, I really love him, we've lived together for two years now.
But, after a year of living together, I'm not proud to admit I started cheating on him; I started having sex with random guys I met online every once in a while until I met this guy called Mauricio (Mau). He is not the best looking man ever (he's really ugly) but has a really big dick and well, money; at the time I was figthing a lot with Anthony and this guy listened to me, took me to places and payed for everything so it became more than just a random guy.
After a few months my relationship with Anthony got better and i realized how ugly is Mau (on the inside and outside) so I tried dumping him, however Mau started boceming more and more of a stalker, one time he asked me to meet him and showed me photos of us that i have no idea how or when he took, he also had my MOM's number and address, and also the address where Anthony and I live.
He told me that he wouldn't show any of the pictures to Anthony and my family with the condition that he and I met once a week to go out and fuck. I said yes... I went the next day to the police and tried putting a harrassment complaint, but the police officer's response was: "get the fuck out you fag" (I live in Peru, not the most advanced country when it comes to gay stuff). I thought that seing him once a week and letting him buy me stuff wasn't that bad.
This lasted about six months but i grew a hate for Mau, I'm not a violent person but I started having thoughts of killing him, he noticed I was starting to hate him so he decided to "change the rules" of our "agreement", he asked me my facebook password and took me to his computer and made me delete all my accounts on various websites (manhunt, bakala, etc...), I gave him my facebook password and I've tried changing it but when I do he starts calling my family and Anthony and he records the calls and then makes me listen, he passes himself as a salesman for who knows what and warns me that if i do something to annoy him again he will post all the pictures, he also talks to my co-workers.
Yes, I'm an idiot, but I need help, any ideas what i should do, I really don't want to admit to Anthony that I cheated on him and lose him forever, I know him, he would dump me for good, that's the only reason I'm still in this mess.