So I'll start this by saying I haven't been on JUB in a bit so hey everyone! I'm currently in my last year of school, not out, but working on it shortly.
I was going through some tumblr sites of exposed men, which I now feel guilty for viewing, when I saw non other then one of my top 5 crushes at my school! The funny thing is that I can't get sexually excited about the pics because I feel so guilty and embarrassed for him. I don't think he knows, and the site said the pics were obtained by a fake female account/impostor. Before I ask you advice I want you to know that this experience has really taught me a few things.
1. Seeing the object of your desire truly isn't all that great when it can lead to personal humiliation.
2. I knew what was happening on those tumblrs are bad, but the pics/vids are hot to view so I didn't care.
3. I think my enjoyment of these sites has decreased.
4. I know I am a hypocrite.
5. I know I must do something but I'm also intrigued by the supposed dirty videos he made. While I'd love to see them I have too much guilt to stay quiet.
Besides contacting the tumblr account, how should I tell him? Should I keep quite? Please remember that I'm not out so I don't feel comfortable disclosing how I found them.
If I can't get them off the site, now linked to over 600 pages, should I just write him an anonymous letter or would that make it worse. I feel guilty, even though he gave the pics/vids to a stranger, but I feel that I must do something for a friend. BTW we aren't supper close, but still friends.
I appreciate any advice you can give me.