So me and my ex-boyfriend broke up a long time ago (April of last year). We remained friends until July of the same year. I'm 28 now but he was actually my first actual boyfriend (although I've been out since 18).
Picture this. When he broke up with me in April, through a TEXT, I cried immediately and have since had no closure. I haven't seen him since July of last year. What ended the friendship was him promising he wouldn't go out with this girl our friend liked, only to turn around and date her. Who does that??
This past Sunday at the hospital, who do I see in the E.R. with his new girlfriend? My ex. I was just sitting there with my mom with my eyes closed cause I wanted to rest/had been feeling faint. All of a sudden I open my eyes and there he is right across from me with his girlfriend that I've heard about. Honestly, all I know is that she's blonde and skinny. I wasn't concentrating on her.
I ended up going outside to cool off. Less than 10 minutes later they came outside and I think they left. I looked at him a couple of times during this whole experience and BOY he has NEVER LOOKED HOTTER. He looked REALLY GOOD. It hurt a lot to see him trying to move on although I had knew about his gf last year. I didn't see them again after I went back in.
I have actually tried to move on since we broke up last year. It's been a slow process but I have initiated trying to date others and stuff. In the process I talked to a couple of nice guys online, on the phone or through text (and experienced a lot of game playing) but nothing worked out.
The last guy that I asked out in August won't admit that he might like me. I honestly don't think he is close to accepting himself yet. I'm not being full of myself though -- when we work together he stares at me a LOT at different times. He said that he was in a relationship at the time. He says he's straight but wouldn't he have said, "I'm not gay." when I asked him out? I thought that was strange. He was nice about letting me down. But then weeks later he told someone he didn't have a girlfriend.
Why is dating life so complicated? And why after not seeing my ex for over a year did he out of the blue just kind of show back up in my life? I'm quite lost with all this now. Comfort and stability seem so far away to me.