I'm a long time lurker and first time poster. Something's been bothering me and since I have nowhere else to go, I figured I'd try this out.
Before I begin, here's some stats on me. I'm 25 years old, not really out of the closet. I've never been with a guy before and have never really been interested until a while ago - but I'll get to that soon. I've had relationships with girls and am sexually attracted to girls. I'm thinking I might be bi but this isn't even the issue.
Here's my problem: I'm pretty sure that I'm in love with my best friend. It's been about two years and I've had enough already. He's the first guy I've ever been attracted to and the first guy that I've had heartbreak with. He's quite the casanova and gets girls left and right. As his right hand man, I have to hear about these conquests first hand and it's beginning to become really torturous.
A little big more on our relationship: we're like brothers. We're extremely close and there's a bond between us that means the world to me. I can't picture my life without him in some capacity. People constantly comment on our friendship and how rare it is to find this kind of closeness between two people.
In any case, you get the gist of it. I want to be able to maintain a healthy friendship with this guy because he does mean the world to me, but I want to be able to not give a shit when he hooks up with other girls. I've begun to get really upset when it happens and I don't want to deal with the anxiety anymore.
So essentially, I want to get over this guy all the while being able to keep him close. I'm thinking it's impossible, and I'm sure you do too. Any help would be really appreciated.