I feel like I'm about to reach my breaking point...what triggered me today was a friend deciding to bail last minute on our weekend plans because he "doesn't want to be in the sun all day". I was really looking forward to this weekend and now it seems like I'll be spending my 4th weekend in a row alone. It seems this has been happening all year...got ditched for New Years, Pride, and other random weekend events. Anyway, enough feeling sorry for myself.
It seems the main problem is that I only really have two friends. So I depend on two people for social outings. And these two friends seem to be super flakey lately so I end up spending all of my time alone. I feel so lonely all the time and am starting to feel like life isn't really worth living...a lot of the times I just want to cry. I go to work and hate it, come home, maybe go for a bike ride or walk around somewhere, and then the cycle repeats the next day. There is rarely anyone to talk to.
So how do I make new friends? I've always had trouble talking to people and am still not 100% comfortable with being gay (I'm 25 now), though it's a lot better than it was a few years ago. I feel like I'm just stuck and things will always be this way :/