okay so theres this guy, quite a bit older than me and we dated a couple times a while back, but i wasnt feeling it and ever since, we've been friends. he'd give me advice on a lot of things, and was there to talk. as some of you may know, im going through a bit of a crossroads in my life, trying to figure out what i want and how to fully accept myself and just to be... happy.
well hes stuck by me for a long time, listened to my complaints and problems, and i couldnt thank him enough. but recently, miscommunication and confusion led to an error in one of our planned meetings and then he got super mad at me, calling me flakey and a "shitty friend" for rescheduling (even though he was the one that first mentioned the idea). i feel that put a sort of damper on our relationship.
and then today he said he wanted to meet up again this week, and it was gonna be wednesday or friday (i was checking with other people i was gonna hang out with, so i could find when him and i could hang out)... well anyways, it ended with him saying i need to grow up, to not be lazy, and to give me "time to figure my shit out"
i never really thought of myself as immature (i mean no more so than a 21 year old). its just lately every time we've talked, ive ended up feeling like an asshole and in the wrong. but in a way he also seems very manipulative... he wants to have sex with me. i dont look at him romantically but i could see a fwb working, maybe. so i guess i go back and forth between the idea of becoming physical with him. i told him no a couple of weeks ago, because i didnt want to string him along... but then he keeps making me feel like it'll be good for me to open up and learn more from him, sexually.
well anyways, regardless now... i have no clue where our friendship is. he's giving me space (for how long, i dont know) but i just find it annoying that i always end up feeling like im always in the wrong. do you guys think i am? i know he's older (and probably wiser, then) but it just seems like he overreacts to situations some times i often end up feeling really bad. what do you guys think?