Since I was about 16 I have had thoughts on and off of joining the military. I had decided not to, and really had never told anyone. Instead, I started to go to school for law enforcement and am working at the police station. This past year, I cannot seem to get over the thought of joining, but not telling anyone and just going.
I'm still young enough, the only thing is, I have a boyfriend and I help take care of my family.
I haven't talked to either of them about this reoccurring thought and how it's becoming more and more of a desire. I'm not sure how to approach them with this since I know both parties will be saddened, nervous, and I'm sure upset.
Aside from that, I'm also worried about being gay and going into the military. 90% of the people I know here, don't know I'm gay nor know I have a boyfriend lol.
I don't know what to do.