23 year old very curious straight(/maybe bi?) guy here, been thinking about having sex with a man for almost 10 years. I've given/received a few BJs and almost gone all the way a few times, but I inevitably get cold feet.
The last time I tried a few years ago, I went to a couples' house. We all started fooling around and I was really into it ... until I came, at which point I just shut down. Same thing happens after I masturbate to gay porn. It's not shame or anything like that, really, but I just am not into it at all anymore. Until an hour later when I'm thinking about cock again, haha.
Any advice would be much appreciated.