Plain and simple, I had a moment this past month where I was over infactuated with a cute looking guy... who I never even met. To add, I learned about him from my friend when he began to open up to me and tell me about his life. Normally I have been the one telling him about my life, so it was at the time I began to show trustworthyness to my friend. That is, until I went and royally screwed it. The guy I was infatuated with was none other than my best friend's brother.
I took things the wrong way and told my friend that I have been checking him out over his social accounts. Then he got the idea I had a problem involving his brother, especially considering to "date" him. So, he suggested I don't talk to his bro. Then comes the bad part, when I said I wanted to move on, I go on an message the dude over Facebook. No reply, but he's seen the two messages I sent him. I told my friend what I had done, and he wasn't all too happy about it. I stressed him out, unecessarily, since he had stuff going on as well (college wise). Until recently, I realized that it wasn't his bro that was the problem - it was me.
So now, we also needed to bring in our other friend and be blunt about this:
I gotta get over his bro and move on from this.
Put this behind me, because my friend already knows I apologized.
Thing is, I just don't know how I even came to the point where I make this so much of a big deal. It shouldn't be. I barely even know the guy, and now he knows me through an online message. My only thoughts is that he must think I'm some creep. But I shouldn't let that cloud my mind. As my friends said, I gotta get over this. I guess in due time?
My hope is that my best friend will look past this and realize (when the time comes) that I have moved on. And I have no problems with his bro. I would like to meet him some day, and not for sexual purpose or a relationship. From my viewing of him through online social sites, he seems like a nice guy and who I'd enjoy meeting. I wouldn't be surprise if my friend had been okay with this if I didn't make this such a huge deal.
I just thoughts that this could be reasonable for a rant/vent, but I'd like to hear what you guys think and what I can do to move on.
Thanks you guys.