ok some of u may remember my indepth thread about my bromance With me and RL and his intense and strained relationship with his brother jak .
The saga continues and its affecting me more than i thought it would. So jak has been trying to get RL to.leave
Since jak moved back into the.house(their parents home) and making things.more difficult. so RL will just throw up his hands and go . Both jak and his brother RL have been off and on with drugs and.alcohol for years. Jak has always prided himself on being able to bounce back to.normal life/work during and after his high while RL CANNOT. So RL gave in and decided to go into a treatment program on the east cost . (HINT:WE LIVE ABOVE AND TO THE LEFT OF THE CONTINENTAL USA)
He told me he would delay his his trip.so.that we can hang out a bit before.he leaves..
But a few days ago we accidentally run into each other in town and he.tells me be prepared if he's.able to.get his.treatment program earlier..then later that day he tells.me he's got bad.news. The bad news was that he was leaving in two days...I was devastated i needed more closure time and needed to get used to the idea. But he said I'm family and i don't have to worry to about losing touch with him and that once he gets settled he's gonna fly me out there and I'm gonna love it. So I'm feeling better about it. But an hour before we left for the airport RL his mom and I had a prayer circle and me and his mom both broke down crying
And i continued in the car but i was able to pull it together to see him off
But tears keep popping out of nowhere
And now i just feel empty and don't know what i am going to do with myself i got so used to his pressence and our bond
And nothing seems like it can fill the void. And I'm trying to think about how i was functioning before we became close and its hard to imagine .
I know this is begining to sound like codependency but it kinda is and i need help getting over it.
What steps can i take to get over this and cope better