I have had occasional cravings for dick since 8th grade. I am 90% straight but have a cock craving now and again. A friend and I fooled around a little a LONG TIME ago . In 8th grade I had fantasies about getting bent over my bed and fucked by some friends. I started inserting things around then.
I never did anything with a man until about 33-34. If I had no fear of disease or just doing something with a guy it probably would have been sooner. I have had guys hit on me before but did nothing. Although I would masturbate to the thought later. Disease is my biggest fear. Especially now that I am married to a woman I really love.
I am not attracted to guys to speak of. Although twinks and hairless guys are attractive to me. I guess I am versatile in the sense that twinkish guys and fem guys/CD's/trannies/traps etc can attract me. On the other hand I feel like I want to sub for older daddy types. Although a nice body and especially cock make me want to get fucked sometimes.
I have officially fooled around 4 times since I was a kid. The first was a mutual handjob. I drove around the block a couple times before getting up the courage. It was fun. The second was me performing a covered blow job to a guy. He was a hard cummer and I got tired. I would have preferred a bare BJ but fear of disease prevented me. ( I was married during all of these.) The third was a birthday blowjob from a guy. It was bare and felt great. The kinky thought of a guy sucking me was hot. The last was me sucking a top bare and getting fucked covered. I loved sucking that dick and my primary complaint is that he came way to soon. He fucked me for maybe 1 minute before cumming. I really wanted a long pounding even though time was short. Getting fucked was the whole point.
My deepest fantasy is being used by multiple guys and being filled with cum and swallowing loads. I cannot and do not want to ruin my marriage. But I want to experience the best of both worlds.
I guess I am just a super horny bi guy.