I know this might seem long but please read, I need help
Ok Me and my boyfriend have been together for about two months we are both in college and he is my first boyfriend.
I kinda feel like the relationship is kinda getting less interesting. We are always together and sometimes I feel like its awesome and other times when I'm with him I feel like its taxing on me. I have fun with him and everything but other times i don't have fun at all.
I used to feel really sexually attracted to him, I would want to blow him whenever I got the chance no matter what, but now I don't feel like doing it, and when I do I make him be freshly showered. The thought of doing it without him entirely clean kinda grosses me out although I don't think that I would be the same way with another guy. I like getting blowjobs and handjobs from him but Im only doing the same to him out of courtesy most of the time. The same kinda applies to kissing him. Before I would want to kiss and make out with him a lot and now it feels like a chore even when He is kissing all i can think about is ok is it almost over.
I gave him a chance because we have a lot of things in common, and because he has a good personality but now I feel that the charm that I once saw has waned. I don't think his jokes are that funny anymore, and sometimes he just annoys the hell out of me.
We've talked two weeks ago and I told him that I thought that we were spending too much time with each other. After we talked I had felt that things were gonna get better and that I just needed space but nothing changed.
I've told him that I love him and sometimes it feels like I do and other times I'm not sure. I don't mean to sound very wishy washy, and I don't want to sound like a jerk. This is all confusing to me this is my first relationship.
I don't want to sound like a jerk or anything, I don't want to hurt him he is a very nice guy, and I don't want this to end bad between us. We only have another month here at school before we go home for the summer should I wait it out and see? Should I end it?
I Need Advice you guys HELP PLEASE!!!!