Okay I'm having some really contradicting sexual issues, mainly having to do with my sexual role in gay sex. Its like when ever I am jacking off I imagine myself as the bottom, I can barely even cum thinking about fucking another guy.
Then I started having sex. I started bottoming but I never really enjoyed it. It hurt at first of course but even when I got used to it I never really liked being pounded by a guy. That being said I find I have the best jo sessions when I am fingering myself or using a toy.
Then I tried topping which felt pretty good. Now these last couple times during sex in which I bottomed I had to just stop the guy and I told myself that I was done with that because I just don't enjoy it. So now I'm really confused about what I want sexually. To top it all off I have this huge fetish for being dominated. So when I go out looking for guys I tend to be drawn to kinky dom tops.
All this sounds ridiculous to me as I am typing it out but its what Im going through. Can anyone offer up anything? Thanks.