Like the title suggests - I'm 25 and severely depressed right now. Growing up I had a pretty tough childhood, but things ended up getting worse (much worse) after becoming extremely rebellious towards my parents, who weren't emotionally or mentally supportive of me. I was always caught in the middle of their drama and never once did i experience a normal childhood. Fast forward, and now I'm living alone in a studio apartment with a job, car and better relationships with everyone in my family except my Mom (she's still really abusive). After going through so much garbage growing up, I've now realized that I don't know how to balance my life. I never feel like I'm good enough at work, with friends or family and it really sucks. Trying to put myself out there is making life unbearable because I'm making one mistake after another. I really want to stop feeling like I never will experience healthy friendships, relationships and adventure. Getting called ugly and fat is making things even worse for my depression. Even when I'm with friends or family I feel inferior and worthless. I've also developed a severe case of body dysmorphia because of what other guys have said, furthering my depression. I don't know how to feel good about myself anymore :/ Any words of wisdom would help..
Today I downloaded grindr again due to loneliness, and now I feel even worse.