I don't know whether I should call it horrible or terrifying, to be honest. Today at 1:45 AM someone has tried to enter my apartment - I live in a ground floor, and all my windows and my door are literally facing the garden. I've heard someone (I've been able to distinguish three voices), talking very excitedly and, soon after, they were literally pounding on my door and opening the mail slot to see if there was any activity inside. Whomever it was, they wanted to gain access to my apartment or else, they were high on something and pretty violent. Something that surprises me is that my motorcycle is parked outside, and they haven't touched it... Which makes the entire situation weirder and scarier - this was not a burglary, but someone who came here with a malicious intent. I just don't know what they wanted.
The thing that shocks me the most is how laissez faire the police have been, to be honest. I have told the emergency operator that they were pounding on the door and the walls as we spoke (the noise was loud enough for her to hear it), and they were talking and moving around in the garden as I was speaking to her; her answer has been "have you looked outside to see who it is?". Well, of course not! These people are fucking crazy! They have said that they would send someone, but after 10 minutes of this I have had to call again, because no one had come - the operator's answer has been basically, wait until we can come and stop being a nuisance. Cheers mate! Those people whomever they were, have been outside for a good 15 to 20 minutes. By the time the police have given me a paltry phone call 50 minutes later to tell me that they'd surveyed the area and they were long gone, obviously no one was there. Thanks for your efficiency! I couldn't have worked it out myself even if I'd tried with all my might.
So, a group of violent people could try to gain access to my apartment during the night yet again, and the police don't give a shit. I have to wake up very early every day, and I am terrified of what might happen if they decide to come at 4 o'clock instead of 1:45 AM the next time, if there is one (and I am praying to God there isn't because that was fucking scary). So, what am I supposed to do, end up in hospital fighting for my life or dead for them to decide that this is a fucking emergency?!?!!!
Also, the thing that surprises me is that there wasn't any response whatsoever from my neighbours - were they too scared to turn the lights on? Are they catatonic? Those individuals were making A LOT of noise! They were pounding on the door and walls, for Christ's sake! What the hell is wrong with people? Would they have reacted at all if someone had entered my apartment and decided to murder me? This is unbelievable...
Well, I don't know what to do. I feel like shit at the moment - it's 3:18 AM and I have to go soon, so wish me luck.