My dad completely destroyed our family but I'm almost in peace with myself because towards the end of winter 2011, he was diagnosed with prostate cancer and as of now, his kidneys are damaged and there's nothing medicine can do about that. The doctor said that he's in the final stage of his cancer which means that he could die any time. For me, this is God's wrath for everything he's done to all of us. Don't think he's become a saint. He's even worse than he used to be, I really don't understand who the fuck he thinks he is.
I'm so thrilled because I know his death will be painful. Some people might think I don't have a heart or I'm evil, but you guys have no idea.
I don't want to reveal too much!!! But when my mom met him, EVERYONE (including strangers) told her to not marry this man. People would come up to her to tell her that this piece of shit is a drunk ass thief and a pure definition of bum. My grandfather didn't want him to marry my mom. Plus, he's ugly! When I say ugly, I really mean ugly inside and out!! If you're ugly outside, at least try to be pretty inside. My mom was so pretty, literally a real life model. She could've done so much better.
As soon as he married my mom and got her pregnant, he stopped working!! For him. he didn't have to work since my mom had a nice job and could support him for free. Instead, he devoted his life to alcohol. My mom changed his life, bought him a car and gave him everything he ever wanted. Even though he used to beat her, they managed to have four kids and I'm the third one. I remember when I was younger, he'd piss in my mom's car because he was too drunk and my mom was mad. I didn't know what was happening back then. He barely started working again when I turned 10 or so. Did I mention I was the third child? My older sister was 14 when he finally decided to work again.
How can I even start to describe him? He likes ordering people. When he gives an order you must obey, otherwise he WILL GO BERSERK and start insulting you and make you feel like you worth nothing!! I've always hated him ever since I can remember. My hatred grew even more when he started cheating on my mom. Not once, but several times!!
My mom promised us that she'd file for divorce and save some money to find another place, so we won't have to see him again and we will finally be a big happy family. But then, she forgave him and got back together.
I wanted to kill myself! I felt so betrayed, i just couldn't believe it! I was 16 when it happened, I just found a job and started saving my money so I could runaway or move to Toronto as soon as I turn 18. He made my life like hell, there were some days that I really wanted to take my life away. He knows he can't put his hands on me because it'll be more than I pleasure for me to sue him. He'd psychologically attack me and my mom has never done anything to stop him. I completely secluded myself in high school! I'm more open today, but then again, I can't trust anybody. No wonder why I don't have real friends nor a boyfriend.
In summer 2011 just before I turn 18, I started getting along with my mother again and she convinced to not move away. She said that I should stay at her house at least until I graduate from college so I won't have to work too much. Biggest mistake of my life!! I enrolled in college and there went most of my savings...
Summer 2011 was also when my mom's "husband" health condition aggravated. I was 100% sure that he was going to finally die that summer that's why I took my mother's proposition into consideration.
Later on, my mom harassed me to get along with this piece of shit. Thank God, I always listen to my instincts and didn't give in. I can't believe I almost started to feel bad for him. He did everything in his power to drive my sister nuts so she'd move out of the house because she didn't want to give him money. He actually succeeded and turned my mom against my sister, she just couldn't take it anymore and moved to her own placed last November. Guess what? I'm his new target!! He's doing everything in his power to get me kicked out of my mother's house because I hate him with a burning passion. Unfortunately for him, he can't kick me out of this house because he doesn't pay the rent. He said, "I'LL MAKE YOU UNCOMFORTABLE TILL YOU LEAVE THIS HOUSE JUST LIKE I DID WITH THE OTHER ONE. ("the other one" is my sister)" He said that in front of my mom and she didn't even say anything. My mom treats him like a God, she worships his every move.
He calls me names, like fag, dumb faggot, idiot, etc. I'll never ever treat my children like garbage. I'm even on the process of changing my last name, I can't let my future children have his name.
I cannot wait for his death, it'll bring so much joy into our family. Does it make me a bad person? I'm 19 now just so you know.