...But first, I'd like to know if I should even bother bringing it up.
I have a list of symptoms that I've been compiling over the last couple of hours. The symptoms I have that I think may be related to bipolar disorder are:
- Addictive personality (from my posting history, this requires no explanation)
- Rapid mood swings (I can go from feeling on top of the world, to sobbing, and back again in under an hour)
- Inability to sleep regular hours (I'm always way too up to sleep; I only sleep when I'm so tired I have no other choice)
- Wildly fluctuating interpersonal decisions (I'll ask someone if they want to do something, then twenty minutes later decide against it and make up a story as to why I can't)
- "Snap decisions" (Last night, I decided to pierce my lip, and within half an hour it was done)
- Absurdly high sex drive (I masturbate at least three times a day, engage in risky sexual behaviour and, for the poor guys who are the object of my lust, I talk sexual almost non-stop. It's much more extreme than it sounds, and I sincerely doubt it's a result of being a horny 23-year-old)
- Extremely short attention span (I can't finish anything. I lose interest in even the most engaging subject matter after a maximum of half an hour)
- No emotional baseline (I'm never just "normal"; I'm consistently and constantly either really happy or really sad)
- Suicidal ideation (I tried to slit my wrists two nights ago in a fit of depression that lasted all of three hours)
- Extreme black-and-white perspective on things (This may or may not be related to my Asperger's, but every thought and action is either very, very good or so bad that I beat myself up over it for hours)
I've done a bit of looking into it, and it seems I fit quite a few of the hallmarks of bipolar disorder. The only thing I'm not sure about is how rapid the mood swings are; nothing I read said anything about that.
Finally, if I don't have bipolar disorder, what are the other possibilities?