Ok, this is hard for me to tell, but I need some opinions.
As a boy(before puberty) I messed around with girls, they were my age and it was the typical
kid stuff, show me yours and etc.
When I hit puberty I was a mess, home life was abusive mentaly and emotionaly and I had to go to a new school because my dad had died and we moved, I got beat up daily.
My first erotic dream was of a girl who was my age (12) my mother woke me up as the girl was undressing, I never had another girl dream.
One year latter I was sent to what was really a reform school (I had commited no crime, it was just a place for the system to dump me)
At this school sex between boy was a daily thing, after being there for a few months I was in on it, I loved it. We did just about anything.
I was there for 18 months, upon leaving I thought that the "gay" stuff would just stay behind
and that I would go back to girls(if I was ever there)
The gay stayed, girls did little for me, I tried them and they were fine, but not like a guy. I guess the missing part was a penis, I love dick.
So, I have to ask, please be kind,
but, would I have been "more str8" if I had not been sent to that reform school? I guess I will never know, but the question is always on my mind.
I would love any opinions, thanks.