Okay, this is a bit of a long story, but here goes:
I am currently at uni. I have a girlfriend. We've been dating since we were 17, 3 years now. We've had sex several times (though definitely not a lot, considering the time we've been dating). The feeling of having my penis in her feels quite nice, but it has never felt like 'heaven on earth' or anything. I have wondered for a while what (straight) men go on about, and how is it so great? Basically, I was expecting it to be a lot better than it actually turned out to be.
Then, I started to consider what it might feel like to be with another guy. I was never really all that attracted to men, but have recently (say last two or so years) found myself to start to feel that way. There is a guy in one of my uni classes who I presumed was gay, because he acts very effeminately. I know that's a stereotype and all, but it turned out to be true, and asked him if he wanted to do a project with me, as we needed to do it with a partner. My biggest aim was to get with him, so we could eventually have sex, so that I could experiment. He accepted, and when we went to my house one day (I live in a share house at uni), when no one else was there, I decided to flirt with him, and seduce him.
I started by lowering my voice, then I touched his leg. He then leaned forward to kiss me, and we kissed for several minutes. Then I took off his shirt, and shorts. I then took off my own shirt and shorts, and we made out, both in our underwear; he was wearing white briefs, me black boxer briefs. Then he pulled off mine, and licked and sucked all over my penis and balls. Then I did the same to him. It felt great when he was doing it to me, and then it felt great having his stiff penis in my mouth, and it felt great hearing him moan as I pulled back his shaft with my tongue, and then went down to his balls, licking one, then the other, then both at the same time. After several minutes, we decided to do anal, and I topped. As soon as I had my hard penis in his ass, that felt like heaven. He had a nice, tight hole, and pounding my penis up and down it, while simultaneously lightly smacking his back, and reaching around and pashing, AND hearing him moan through sheer bliss, felt like everything that I had originally expected to feel from having my penis in a female vagina. To feel this feeling from being in a male ass was quite a shock.
That was two weeks ago, and I haven't had sex with my gf since then (or him for that matter), as I would find this grossly unfair to her, although I did use a condom with him. I really like her, but I am starting to really feel for this guy too, and don't know what to do. It is such a dilemma. Overall, I would give the sex that I had with my girlfriend a 7/10, and this guy a 10/10.
If I were to date a guy, though, my friends and family would be absolutely shocked, as I have absolutely no traits that the stereotypical gay man does, as I am athletic, sporty, wouldn't know a thing about fashion or anything like that, and don't like chick movies etc...
Not only that, but I know that my friends and family, would likely shun me, as they wouldn't accept me as gay. I also don't want to her my gf. I would also like to marry a woman one day, and have children.
So, what does it sound like to you? Am I gay, straight, bi? What should I do? Thank you in advance.