Hey, I just discovered this site and was looking for someplace I could talk about this rather embarrassing topic. I've been freaking out a bit as I've been trying to get rid of two external hemorrhoids and they just won't go. I first noticed them last August and got steroid suppositories then cream from the doc, and it kind of helped a bit but they kept coming back. I've tried everything I've heard online, extra fibre (I have irritable bowel syndrome which has mucked up my whole digestive system and may have caused the hems), squatting on the toilet, using warm baths and ice, witch hazel, anusol, prep h, apple cider vinegar. The swelling seems to go when I'm lying down, but comes back when I've been sitting or standing for any length of time.
I thought it'd got a bit better over Christmas but now I'm convinced it's as bad as ever, if not worse. It doesn't feel sore as such, just uncomfortable when it's bad and I'm always aware of it. I know I should prob just relax and try to ignore it. I've been through much worse in my life. Heck, I survived cancer when I was growing up. But I'm SO paranoid of how this looks and am worried I'll be disfigured for life. It's put me off meeting guys. It's actually made me pretty depressed and freaked out. Although I'm not exclusively bottom, I always seem to end up with guys who want to fuck me. Guess I'm worried that no one will ever want to go near my ass again.
I have a consulting appointment with a surgeon on 28th but I'm really terrified I might have to get the surgery because from 99% of the accounts I've read online, recovery from hemorrhoid surgery sounds like a hellish nightmare.
Is there any chance the hemorrhoids will still clear up on their own? I guess I'm just looking for some reassurance