There isn't really much advice I'm expecting from this, it's just I need a place to vent if I'm being honest.
First of all, I'm 19 and I came out at the start of June this year and everything went well, everyone that I've told so far has been supportive and I haven't lost any friends or anything along those lines. All of that aspect of my life has been great, I've never experienced change.
However that's also the problem, after coming out I expected things to change a little bit, that I'd maybe be meeting guys, dating, meeting new gay people etc but that still hasn't happened.
I'm on a UK based gay 'dating site', I use the term loosely because a) I don't really use it as such, it's more entertainment (there are forums) and b) it's pretty widely used as a hookup site. I don't want to seem like I'm big headed by saying this, but I consider myself an alright looking guy and I get a fair bit of attention both in person and on the mentioned website, but it's all very sexualised.
No one even seems interested in me as a person. I find it hard to meet gays in person because I have no gay friends at all and I don't find it fair to ask my straight friends to come with me to gay clubs. This just makes me feel so alone, I've talked to people online but no one seems to be in a similar position completely.
All I literally want is a gay friend if I'm being honest, I'm really not bothered about having a boyfriend I get by quite well on my own and love my own company, I just hate seeing all my friends with girlfriends and there's me the outsider with no one to go out with. In 6 months I've yet to even come across someone who I could just text and ask if they fancied a pint without a reply like "sorry I'm with my gf" or "I'm meeting so and so".
I'm just wondering has anyone ever been in a similar position and how did they deal with it? Is it maybe just my age and in a few more years things will change?
I just get down a lot over it, maybe my expectations when coming out were too high but I thought my life would have had a much bigger improvement than it has.
Anyway thanks for reading, like I say I just needed a place to get stuff off my chest!