i've been trying to get as much help as i can towards getting more comfortable with myself and my sexuality. i've made a good deal of progress within the past year and some months. i was doing good where i felt myself inching and inching up to the point where i could see myself being entirely out. however, i notice that the feelings of homophobia are coming up again. i guess that's because i'm not crushing on anybody or whatever so i have that urge to push all of this to the back as if it never happened. i want to go back to the way that i was living before since i'm no longer being reminded that i am gay where i'm haunted by my thoughts and feelings. i felt a lot more better with myself when i was thinking to myself that i was straight even though i was fighting feelings for the same sex. i felt more at ease than i do now. how do i get over this feeling of wanting to run away and regress into the person i was? i know that the only thing that will do is make me be in the same boat that i was in years ago.