So havent been on here in a minute haha. Thanks to everyone who responded to my other thread. I guess i kinda identify as bisexual now. not that i've 'come out' or anything like that... do you even come out as bisexual? i dunno. but i'm feeling pretty okay with who i am and what i like, and i have you guys to thank for it. so thanks!
anyway i've come back with another quandry of sorts. to give you all some background im currently in a small graduate program out of my home state, but its so small that everyone more or less knows each other. im no longer in a relationship with my girl since getting into this program -- the distance was too tough and we just couldnt manage it. we're still good friends but, that's how things work out.
so theres a guys here who.... i dont know what to call it, i guess i've developed a crush on him. i sound like a fifth grader right now haha but hear me out. i dont know what to do about it. its complicated. the guy is openly gay (and its kind of strange because he's a total bro too)... but o one here knows im bi (i once told this other gay guy in our program that im bicurious, but we were both drunk and i dont think he registered it. which is fine because i just see him as a friend and nothing more).
i kind of want to make a move and like... we kind of flirt haha but in a way where its totally innocuous. for example he'll call me cute and compliment me and stuff but he thinks im totally straight so i know he's just having fun. i kinda wanna let him know im into him but it'd be tough yknow... the program is so small and id rather 1) not let everyone know im bi, 2) not do anything with this guy and then mess up the dynamic of the program. as shallow as that is im kind of really concerned about my reputation and i dont want things 1) spreading too fast, and 2) getting back to people i know back home.
there have been a few times where i just get absolutely smashed and am like 99% close to telling him that im at least bicurious but so far i havent cowboy'd up to do it. i dunno. i guess im just frustrated and dont know what to do in this situation.
has anyone else ever felt like this, or been in a type of situation like this? itd be great to hear some feedback.