so this is a tale of my domination, my obsessive behavior (OCD), and kink.
I have a guy come over, who wants to be dominated. He is 19, virgin to guys, had 2 girls before me. Wow.
His limits were "normal" .. no scat, no burns, no blood. okay ... Also before we go in he says he won't be into kissing. Bummer, because I wanted to. He didn't mind me being into scat. Our game plan was me putting him in my bathtub and filling him up with warm water, up his ass. And so I did that about 3 times. I then put my mouth on his ass lol and he pushed the water out. It was fun but too much water for me to try to swallow it all. So I just tasted and swallowed a little bit.
Then I want to suck him off. I do suck on him and when I first put his dick in my mouth and it just gets hard without me doing anything. That's pretty cool and I like his cock expanding inside of me Then I suck on him on and off over time ... he wouldn't lick my armpits, wouldn't suck on my cock, which was a bummer and I choose not to push him on that.
Then I suck on him and when he is really hard, I take his cock deep into my mouth and throat and even choke on it a few times. I know when I do this, it must be uncomfortable for the guy or something, or maybe stimulation is way different, because guys tend go soft. Well, this guy goes soft several times after I put his cock too deep into my throat. I tell him to tell me before he cums, and not to cum before I tell him.
Anyway, later, I am pretty much done with him - he won't suck me, won't lick my armpits, won't cum easily, and I had my fun with him filling him up with water. So I want him out but I want him to cum in my mouth before he goes. I tell him that I really want him to cum in my mouth. And I tell him he can cum whenever, so that he can let to and not hold it. I suck on him for minutes and minutes, trying my best moves, trying to change his position standing up, sitting down, standing up again, nothing. He gets a little hard here and there and then soft again. I no longer push his dick deep in my throat at that point. He starts playing with himself I tell him to stop and suck on him again, nothing. Then, I am really done, but he won't cum. ...
So I tell him to play with himself and he does and then when he is ready he tells me that he is ready to cum, even though I don't really care at this point for him to tell me. Just cum. He tells me 2 more times, and cums a few seconds later.
I think he tells me because he wanted me to switch to sucking him (because I wanted it in my mouth), but I am reluctant to do that, because I want to be sucking on a cock for a while beforehand, and then have it cum. Not have a guy jack off and when they are ready just take the jerking cock with the fist pumping up and down in my mouth and have it kinda squirt out on me ... And I'd hate to break his pattern of jacking off and have him stop jacking off and me pick up sucking, cuz in my experience, just before you cum, it sucks to change the pace and method of stimulation, as it's like an anti-climax. So even though he is my slave, and I shouldn't care about his pleasure or displeasure, I refuse to give an opportunity for an anti-climax. But maybe I'm too obsessive/overanalyzing about this here.
Now he cums and is done after this, naturally, and leaves. I am left without cum in my mouth, which gnaws on me afterwards. The problem here is that "I wanted to suck on him till he came in my mouth" and that did not happen and my obsessive behavior kicked in of me wanting something I cannot have anymore.
What I did instead is when I was done I almost lost my domination and basically started asking him "What would you like" a few times, because I was done and wanted him out, and since sucking would not work, I wanted to know what would. He didn't know and didn't seem to really care what it was, but he wanted to cum as well. He said something like "I don't know really" and "whatever". So I am mad at myself for (and obsess about):
* not pushing the issue with having my cock sucked
* almost losing domination streak, where I ask the slave what he wanted
* not doing whatever is necessary to get what I wanted - having him cum in my mouth.