last december , i lost my soul- mate - being alone and without him for all these months is really tufffffffff. I met NIKKI , back in highschool at the age of 16 , he was somethingelse .
Have you ever met that 1 person you just start talkin , 2 and you feel like you have known them for years or have friend up before? Well that was NIKKI , we clicked and pretty much liked and agreed on everything , rarely argued , i can only count 2 x's . A, year after highschool i wanted to quit , make some coin and have my own shit- well my dad gave me the ultimatum , work or school , i chose the latter, and i havn't looked back .
After quitin school , me and NIKKI kept hangin , till 1 day i , he laid 1 on me - it was euphoria for me , kinda weird but ..... From then on we were inseperable , and after 2 years of workin and livin at home , i wanted my own leaf , and that was the start of a great , but short , confusing at times life for me . M y parents never, really put it together or at least they didn't want to aproach me about it . NIKKI , went to scool and i made coin , after knowing and loving him for ten years , he was taken away, What GOD wants GOD takes , i still think he punished me and maybe NIKKI 2 , for what we were doing , i struggle with this everydamn day . I , feel at times that i'm ol and dead inside , we were so young and didn't know it . When you grow up in a hurry and become responible you forget how young you really are , but when your world is gone , you realise just how ol , and empty you feel. I , dread this comming december , but , gotta go on . At 26 , life should be sweeeeeeeeet , all the time - WRONG. It all depends on what goes down , and what path ur gonna walk , at least that's the crazee way i think .