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    Quote Originally Posted by ChickenGuy View Post
    chance1 and Benvolio?



    I've no idea why you all take their deluded anti-Obama ramblings so seriously over there - they don't convince anyone or persuade anyone with their silliness, so why always get into a name-calling tirade with them like in a school playground?

    Face it, I think you all in CE&P actually ENJOY getting a rise out of them and they out of you. It's like a sport.
    They do. Chance though is NOT,NOT,NOT a right winger but a New Yorker with New York attitude, a moderate-conservative(where the Dems are today)registered Democrat. Jack has gone too far at times, and chance goes far more in the direction of accomodation but gets bit in the ass so his natural defensiveness gets amplified. Jay was a moderate independent there but no more...he's essentially in with the far left kumbaya choir as for the most part Kulindahr. I think you in the UK are far too lenient on Obama... chance is far more open minded if you look through all his posts than than the vast majority of the left there. I rarely am comfortable with Benvolio's contributions...he's like a Pat Buchanan old style populist conservative with nasty attitudes towards immigrants and other ethnic groups.

    Obama- bashing may be unpopular with liberals but even some on the left with a shtred of intellectual honesty are starting to speak out against Obama policies that belie his post partisan, messianic image. Some here don't get it and never will. Progressive (left-wing) perspectives aren't the only ones out there...I love a battle of ideas, and I sure as hell wouldn't want an all left leaning political forum as much as I would avoid going into a far right dominated one. I'm just fucking sick to death of the anti- chance stuff in particular.... maybe he should take things less to heart but they won't ever accept him so long as he doesn't subscribe to their own ideologically rigid bubble of what's acceptable . Maybe he shouldn't give a rat's ass but without a doubt he's one of the very few there who are evenly remotely open minded and willing to hear other perspectives.
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    Please, oh please let this dentist visit and podiatrist appointment go as planned. I can't afford anything screwing up, today.

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    AAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! /pissed...

    Not enough time to prepare for the dentist appointment, and I've been going through the allergy attack from hell since last night. My eyes are so red, I literally look like I'm possessed by the devil. It feels like I fell out of the allergy tree, and hit every damn branch on the way down!


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    Quote Originally Posted by jdcnow View Post
    AAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! /pissed...

    Not enough time to prepare for the dentist appointment, and I've been going through the allergy attack from hell since last night. My eyes are so red, I literally look like I'm possessed by the devil. It feels like I fell out of the allergy tree, and hit every damn branch on the way down!

    So sorry to hear that. Recover soon


    I had my broken tooth pulled today. But my gums are still bleeding. And that lingering taste of blood in my mouth is so disgusting ergh

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    A gripe?

    Why do people start threads like this:








    The sky is blue.








    Discuss.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Scealle View Post
    I had my broken tooth pulled today. But my gums are still bleeding. And that lingering taste of blood in my mouth is so disgusting ergh
    Back in 1989 I badly cut myself with a paring knife, a circular cut about the size of a dime which obviously needed stitches. (I was trying to slice an onion.) I remember it was on the same date, in October, as the big northern California earthquake which collapsed part the the Nimitz Freeway, etc.

    On the way to E. R., the best thing that I could do (and get there in a hurry) was to put the cut part into my mouth, and drink the blood that was coming from it (probably about 20ml per minute). Otherwise more than likely I would have gotten blood all over.

    Raw blood is NOT easily digestible, I don't think, but I had no effects afterward.

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    i'm a bit irritated. VERY IRRITATED.

    i am feeling very, very hot right now. it's only 70 something degrees and i feel hot as fuck. i also feel tired as hell to the point where i want to snooze for real but i have important things to do. then my whole body is aching me like i'm coming down wiht the flu or something. i don't know if i am but my body is fucking aching the shit out of me. then i'm feeling a bit depressed. it's been going from really depressed to just a bit depressed. the waves have been crashing and damnit, the bottom of my left foot is fucking crawling right now. damnit, this is irri fucking tating right now. WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY!!! WHY!!!!
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    ^After the rain yesterday, the humidity is brutal. I'm on my way back to Boston after spending about 2 days in NYC and that's all I could take of the city. Well, I blame the lazy cleaning crew that didn't put up a sign saying "wet floor" and slipped and fell right on my ass down the stairs yesterday. If it wasn't my own company, I would have sued. At least meeting up with my brother after his work was fun.

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    Quote Originally Posted by maxpowr9 View Post
    ^After the rain yesterday, the humidity is brutal. I'm on my way back to Boston after spending about 2 days in NYC and that's all I could take of the city. Well, I blame the lazy cleaning crew that didn't put up a sign saying "wet floor" and slipped and fell right on my ass down the stairs yesterday. If it wasn't my own company, I would have sued. At least meeting up with my brother after his work was fun.
    you were in NYC yesterday? did you meet anybody from jub?

    it rained here yesterday and surprisingly, it's humid once again.
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    Quote Originally Posted by frankfrank View Post
    Back in 1989 I badly cut myself with a paring knife, a circular cut about the size of a dime which obviously needed stitches. (I was trying to slice an onion.) I remember it was on the same date, in October, as the big northern California earthquake which collapsed part the the Nimitz Freeway, etc.

    On the way to E. R., the best thing that I could do (and get there in a hurry) was to put the cut part into my mouth, and drink the blood that was coming from it (probably about 20ml per minute). Otherwise more than likely I would have gotten blood all over.

    Raw blood is NOT easily digestible, I don't think, but I had no effects afterward.

    Does this qualify me for a Fear Factor audition, if it ever comes back? But I won't go, anyway.
    You swallowed 20ml per minute blood? Damn! How do you stand the taste? I am really really grossed out by the taste ergh Probably one main reason why I would never make it if I choose to pursue the health field.
    Man I miss Fear Factor. Even though it's not really a family show, I remembered enjoying watching it with my parents and siblings. The eating bugs/raw animal body parts challenge is the hardest for me to watch How could people eat eyeballs?

    I did the teeth filling today. And they have a lingering rotting taste. Hope the taste fades soon.

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    Quote Originally Posted by refujiunderground View Post
    you were in NYC yesterday? did you meet anybody from jub?

    it rained here yesterday and surprisingly, it's humid once again.
    I was there for work. My brother works in NYC despite living in CT and hung out with him after he got off work. I guess reading comprehension is a skill lost on people my age.

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    Quote Originally Posted by maxpowr9 View Post
    I was there for work. My brother works in NYC despite living in CT and hung out with him after he got off work. I guess reading comprehension is a skill lost on people my age.
    my fault, dude. i didn't really read through what you put. only saw the part where you said you were in nyc.
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    Amusement, not a gripe:

    I'm doing volunteer conservation work for the county parks department. Recently I asked if I could use power equipment (chain saw, brush cutter, chipper) for dealing with a certain problem.

    The parks director sent back this brief message:


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    I just need to vent, and say my piece here, and let the chips fall where they may. But I do need to say what I feel, right now.

    I have been in a deep mental anguish over whether to have surgery on my right foot or not, even though I need it done. I am terrified that they have to completely put me down to do this procedure. Frankly, if they have to put me down for this, I can't help but feel that I'd just rather be put down for good.

    I'm tired of the recurring nightmares I've had, where I've been executed and given lethal injection for being gay. Sometimes this nightmare has repeated itself several times in one sleep session/night. I'm tired of wondering what it's going to be like when they stick the IV line in my arm, and put the mask over my face. It's all I've thought about since Thursday. I'm tired of my mind running away from me, like some macabre runaway roller coaster that absolutely refuses to stop. I've tried everything from porn to meditation to both at the same time - nothing works. Nothing.

    I just can't take it anymore.

    I've thought about finally coming out to my mom. But I'm absolutely terrified of what she'd say. Fundamentalist Christian who has always kind of been embarrassed by me, because I'm not just like my older brother.

    I'm tired of living in the damn closet. I'm tired of living under fear of the political anti-gay bomb-throwers in society at large, and the people around me I'm forced to have dealings with. I'm tired of having to hide who I am, as a human being, to the point where I refuse to let anyone get to know me, because they might find me out, and everything I've busted my ass for in the last two years here, suddenly is all for nothing. I'm tired of having to hide who I am to the point that I am 30 years old and have never - not once - even so much as went out on a date with anyone before in my life. And I'm too scared to even approach someone I don't know in a non-work, non-store environment, and start talking to them.

    I wouldn't wish this on even the person who molested me so many years ago.

    I don't want to do this anymore. I wish I never knew what fear was. Now, it runs almost every aspect of my life, and every move and decision I make.

    If I have to be put down for this surgery, I'd just rather be put down for good.

    I know that this may be quite difficult to read - for that I sincerely apologize. But this is what's in my head, and in my heart, right now. And I just want it all to just stop.

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    ^

    JCD, I was going through similar terrors two months ago. Why did they insist on a general anaesthetic for such a small operation? I had heard of people going through psychosis after general anaesthetic!

    Anyway, the operation went smoothly and I realised most of those who told me those horror stories were druggies. So I needn't have worried.

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    Thank you, Pat. I'm actually wondering that myself, and believe me, I will ask. We do keep ladies who have C-sections done awake for that procedure (unless the situation evolves into a medical emergency, of course). So I will ask if just my right leg can be numbed or do they have to completely put me down for this. I seriously thank you for the encouragement.

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    Quote Originally Posted by jdcnow View Post
    I just need to vent, and say my piece here, and let the chips fall where they may. But I do need to say what I feel, right now.

    I have been in a deep mental anguish over whether to have surgery on my right foot or not, even though I need it done. I am terrified that they have to completely put me down to do this procedure. Frankly, if they have to put me down for this, I can't help but feel that I'd just rather be put down for good.

    I'm tired of the recurring nightmares I've had, where I've been executed and given lethal injection for being gay. Sometimes this nightmare has repeated itself several times in one sleep session/night. I'm tired of wondering what it's going to be like when they stick the IV line in my arm, and put the mask over my face. It's all I've thought about since Thursday. I'm tired of my mind running away from me, like some macabre runaway roller coaster that absolutely refuses to stop. I've tried everything from porn to meditation to both at the same time - nothing works. Nothing.

    I just can't take it anymore.

    I've thought about finally coming out to my mom. But I'm absolutely terrified of what she'd say. Fundamentalist Christian who has always kind of been embarrassed by me, because I'm not just like my older brother.

    I'm tired of living in the damn closet. I'm tired of living under fear of the political anti-gay bomb-throwers in society at large, and the people around me I'm forced to have dealings with. I'm tired of having to hide who I am, as a human being, to the point where I refuse to let anyone get to know me, because they might find me out, and everything I've busted my ass for in the last two years here, suddenly is all for nothing. I'm tired of having to hide who I am to the point that I am 30 years old and have never - not once - even so much as went out on a date with anyone before in my life. And I'm too scared to even approach someone I don't know in a non-work, non-store environment, and start talking to them.

    I wouldn't wish this on even the person who molested me so many years ago.

    I don't want to do this anymore. I wish I never knew what fear was. Now, it runs almost every aspect of my life, and every move and decision I make.

    If I have to be put down for this surgery, I'd just rather be put down for good.

    I know that this may be quite difficult to read - for that I sincerely apologize. But this is what's in my head, and in my heart, right now. And I just want it all to just stop.
    Maybe it's your fear of death that is making you face your demons? Firstly, don't sweat the anesthetic. I've been knocked out for less, and I prefer it. Secondly, maybe you contemplating your coming out is a good thing. I've seen the effects of remaining in the closet has on a man, and it is so destructive for many guys. But use caution. For who's benefit do you want to come out for, yours or your Mom's? Just think about it, because once you do, there is no going back into the closet, so make sure you are ready for it.

    Best of luck!
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    Quote Originally Posted by mikey3000 View Post
    Maybe it's your fear of death that is making you face your demons? Firstly, don't sweat the anesthetic. I've been knocked out for less, and I prefer it. Secondly, maybe you contemplating your coming out is a good thing. I've seen the effects of remaining in the closet has on a man, and it is so destructive for many guys. But use caution. For who's benefit do you want to come out for, yours or your Mom's? Just think about it, because once you do, there is no going back into the closet, so make sure you are ready for it.

    Best of luck!
    Yeah, I'm working on it. I have Michaelangelo Signorile's book, "Outing Yourself" and am reading it.

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    Quote Originally Posted by jdcnow View Post
    I just need to vent, and say my piece here, and let the chips fall where they may. But I do need to say what I feel, right now.

    I have been in a deep mental anguish over whether to have surgery on my right foot or not, even though I need it done. I am terrified that they have to completely put me down to do this procedure. Frankly, if they have to put me down for this, I can't help but feel that I'd just rather be put down for good.

    I'm tired of the recurring nightmares I've had, where I've been executed and given lethal injection for being gay. Sometimes this nightmare has repeated itself several times in one sleep session/night. I'm tired of wondering what it's going to be like when they stick the IV line in my arm, and put the mask over my face. It's all I've thought about since Thursday. I'm tired of my mind running away from me, like some macabre runaway roller coaster that absolutely refuses to stop. I've tried everything from porn to meditation to both at the same time - nothing works. Nothing.

    I just can't take it anymore.

    I've thought about finally coming out to my mom. But I'm absolutely terrified of what she'd say. Fundamentalist Christian who has always kind of been embarrassed by me, because I'm not just like my older brother.

    I'm tired of living in the damn closet. I'm tired of living under fear of the political anti-gay bomb-throwers in society at large, and the people around me I'm forced to have dealings with. I'm tired of having to hide who I am, as a human being, to the point where I refuse to let anyone get to know me, because they might find me out, and everything I've busted my ass for in the last two years here, suddenly is all for nothing. I'm tired of having to hide who I am to the point that I am 30 years old and have never - not once - even so much as went out on a date with anyone before in my life. And I'm too scared to even approach someone I don't know in a non-work, non-store environment, and start talking to them.

    I wouldn't wish this on even the person who molested me so many years ago.

    I don't want to do this anymore. I wish I never knew what fear was. Now, it runs almost every aspect of my life, and every move and decision I make.

    If I have to be put down for this surgery, I'd just rather be put down for good.

    I know that this may be quite difficult to read - for that I sincerely apologize. But this is what's in my head, and in my heart, right now. And I just want it all to just stop.
    You're obviously over worked, over stressed, over extended, and seriously exhausted. Throw on top of that the stress of being in the closet and the anxiety of an operation - I'm amazed you've made it this far on that kind of schedule burning at both ends.

    I'm not telling you how to live, but it sure seems like you need some kind of 180-360 life change, for your own good. You're wearing yourself out mentally AND physically on your current path. Take a break. Try something new. Step back and reevaluate, or look at it from a different angle.

    What you're working for and how hard you're doing it to get there is fucking amazing and admirable, but what good will it do you to kill yourself on the way?
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    ^ Thank you, Borg. I needed that.

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    I remember it was way back in 1999, I was then seventeen when I first had access to the internet.

    And through the internet, inevitably...I discovered pornography.

    It was great and exciting to see images after images of beautiful hot, attractive naked young men gracing my computer screen.

    However, it soon became an addiction. I would soon began to spent hours after hours in front of my computer, simply surfing, viewing more and more gay pornography.

    What have I become?

    Sometimes I wish I haven't discovered pornography. My life would probably have been much better.

    I don't really think porn is all that bad. But when it gets to the point where I literally spent the whole day and night, surfing and watching porn, I think I need help.


    And that being said, I am now deciding to quit watching porn for good.. It's hard to quit an addiction. I have tried unsuccessfully in the past to quit watching porn...only to be lure by the temptation again.


    But I don't want to be consumed by the world of pornography anymore....Porn is like a fantasy...It doesn't help or improve anything in my life....

    Sure it does help to relive sexual tension building up in my body but I think a healthier alternative will be to go to the bathroom and jerk off.


    I really hope that this time round, I will be able to successfully overcome and quit my addiction to pornography.
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    Quote Originally Posted by jdcnow View Post
    I just need to vent, and say my piece here, and let the chips fall where they may. But I do need to say what I feel, right now.

    I have been in a deep mental anguish over whether to have surgery on my right foot or not, even though I need it done. I am terrified that they have to completely put me down to do this procedure. Frankly, if they have to put me down for this, I can't help but feel that I'd just rather be put down for good.

    I'm tired of the recurring nightmares I've had, where I've been executed and given lethal injection for being gay. Sometimes this nightmare has repeated itself several times in one sleep session/night. I'm tired of wondering what it's going to be like when they stick the IV line in my arm, and put the mask over my face. It's all I've thought about since Thursday. I'm tired of my mind running away from me, like some macabre runaway roller coaster that absolutely refuses to stop. I've tried everything from porn to meditation to both at the same time - nothing works. Nothing.

    I just can't take it anymore.

    I've thought about finally coming out to my mom. But I'm absolutely terrified of what she'd say. Fundamentalist Christian who has always kind of been embarrassed by me, because I'm not just like my older brother.

    I'm tired of living in the damn closet. I'm tired of living under fear of the political anti-gay bomb-throwers in society at large, and the people around me I'm forced to have dealings with. I'm tired of having to hide who I am, as a human being, to the point where I refuse to let anyone get to know me, because they might find me out, and everything I've busted my ass for in the last two years here, suddenly is all for nothing. I'm tired of having to hide who I am to the point that I am 30 years old and have never - not once - even so much as went out on a date with anyone before in my life. And I'm too scared to even approach someone I don't know in a non-work, non-store environment, and start talking to them.

    I wouldn't wish this on even the person who molested me so many years ago.

    I don't want to do this anymore. I wish I never knew what fear was. Now, it runs almost every aspect of my life, and every move and decision I make.

    If I have to be put down for this surgery, I'd just rather be put down for good.

    I know that this may be quite difficult to read - for that I sincerely apologize. But this is what's in my head, and in my heart, right now. And I just want it all to just stop.

    To be blunt...I think it is about time that you seek out a good, qualified, homo or homo friendly therapist.

    Your fear of anaesthesia and connecting it extermination because you like cock needs some serious attention....and no one on this site is going to be able to help you through it.

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    Quote Originally Posted by rareboy View Post
    To be blunt...I think it is about time that you seek out a good, qualified, homo or homo friendly therapist.

    Your fear of anaesthesia and connecting it extermination because you like cock needs some serious attention....and no one on this site is going to be able to help you through it.
    Thanks. I'm already seeing a therapist at my college. In fact, I have an appointment with her tomorrow morning, before my algebra final. I think I'm going to email her in advance tonight, so she knows what I've been through since last week.

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    Quote Originally Posted by travis82 View Post
    I remember it was way back in 1999, I was then seventeen when I first had access to the internet.

    And through the internet, inevitably...I discovered pornography.

    It was great and exciting to see images after images of beautiful hot, attractive naked young men gracing my computer screen.

    However, it soon became an addiction. I would soon began to spent hours after hours in front of my computer, simply surfing, viewing more and more gay pornography.

    What have I become?

    Sometimes I wish I haven't discovered pornography. My life would probably have been much better.

    I don't really think porn is all that bad. But when it gets to the point where I literally spent the whole day and night, surfing and watching porn, I think I need help.


    And that being said, I am now deciding to quit watching porn for good.. It's hard to quit an addiction. I have tried unsuccessfully in the past to quit watching porn...only to be lure by the temptation again.


    But I don't want to be consumed by the world of pornography anymore....Porn is like a fantasy...It doesn't help or improve anything in my life....

    Sure it does help to relive sexual tension building up in my body but I think a healthier alternative will be to go to the bathroom and jerk off.


    I really hope that this time round, I will be able to successfully overcome and quit my addiction to pornography.
    Good luck, Travis. Sounds like you have the right idea and I hope you can do it.

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    Quote Originally Posted by pat grimshaw View Post
    ^

    JCD, I was going through similar terrors two months ago. Why did they insist on a general anaesthetic for such a small operation? I had heard of people going through psychosis after general anaesthetic!

    Anyway, the operation went smoothly and I realised most of those who told me those horror stories were druggies. So I needn't have worried.
    I've been through two operations under general A. One, I asked when it was going to start -- they'd put me under, and I woke up still waiting for some feeling of passing out. The other, I woke up not remembering anything, literally -- didn't even recognize my name. That lasted all of about two hours as things came back in dribbles and chunks.

    I've also been through two with local, and I confess I didn't like either of them -- both times, it felt like someone had stolen part of my body and there was a terror I wouldn't get it back!

    The thing is, fears are fears. GA is little different than ordinary sleep: you zonk, stuff happens while you're checked out, you come back -- story over. It's a matter of how each person reacts -- and as a patient, you have the right to insist on local if the procedure can be done that way -- you can even, as a guy I knew in college did, insist on reading a novel he was tackling while the team did its thing.

    "Thirty-one* states allow all qualified citizens to carry concealed weapons. In those states, homosexuals should embark on organized efforts to become comfortable with guns, learn to use them safely and carry them. They should set up Pink Pistols task forces, sponsor shooting courses and help homosexuals get licensed to carry. And they should do it in a way that gets as much publicity as possible. "

    --Jonathan Rauch, Salon Magazine, March 13, 2000

    *the number is now forty

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    Quote Originally Posted by jdcnow View Post
    Yeah, I'm working on it. I have Michaelangelo Signorile's book, "Outing Yourself" and am reading it.
    Another helpful book is Coming Out: An Act of Love, by Rob Eichberg. I found it a little weak at times, but the theme is powerful, and it did help me a lot.

    "Thirty-one* states allow all qualified citizens to carry concealed weapons. In those states, homosexuals should embark on organized efforts to become comfortable with guns, learn to use them safely and carry them. They should set up Pink Pistols task forces, sponsor shooting courses and help homosexuals get licensed to carry. And they should do it in a way that gets as much publicity as possible. "

    --Jonathan Rauch, Salon Magazine, March 13, 2000

    *the number is now forty

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    going under anestesia is really pretty unremarkable... it's happened to me twice as an adult (and once as a kid, but I don't really remember that... I was maybe 6-7). they put the mask on, you take a couple deep breaths, and all of a sudden you feel really sleepy.

    worst I experienced was waking up with a catheter. *really* wish someone had warned me about that before I went under. I reached down to scratch my balls and was like, "OMFG WTF THERE'S A TUBE COMING OUT OF MY DICK!"

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    Quote Originally Posted by jdcnow View Post
    I just need to vent, and say my piece here, and let the chips fall where they may. But I do need to say what I feel, right now.

    I have been in a deep mental anguish over whether to have surgery on my right foot or not, even though I need it done. I am terrified that they have to completely put me down to do this procedure. Frankly, if they have to put me down for this, I can't help but feel that I'd just rather be put down for good.

    I'm tired of the recurring nightmares I've had, where I've been executed and given lethal injection for being gay. Sometimes this nightmare has repeated itself several times in one sleep session/night. I'm tired of wondering what it's going to be like when they stick the IV line in my arm, and put the mask over my face. It's all I've thought about since Thursday. I'm tired of my mind running away from me, like some macabre runaway roller coaster that absolutely refuses to stop. I've tried everything from porn to meditation to both at the same time - nothing works. Nothing.
    Think of it as just passing out after drinking too much ... ?

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    I went to visit the bar I used to do the books/manage on weekends/tend bar for and it's amazing how much the place collapsed. I basically left him a list of recommendations and he did none of them which is why the business is failing again. The bartender I suggested be promoted to manager to fill my spot wasn't and things got worse. I'm just shocked he didn't quit.

    I will say, it felt good to be wanted back.

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    Quote Originally Posted by jdcnow View Post
    ^ Thank you, Borg. I needed that.
    You're a great guy... smart, funny, amazing work ethic, responsible, dedicated,... I could go on -

    I've read a lot of your posts and realize what your job, home, school, living situation is like. I'm proud and amazed at what you're doing o follow your dreams and better your life - but like I said, you're pushing yourself way too Damn hard to get there. Mentally and physically. You were in the hospital not too long ago for chest pains, and now for your foot.

    Consider these as HUGE "check engine" light warnings.


    Your engine is about to blow if you don't slow down, add/change oil, get tune up/serviced,... and all those other cheesy car analogies.

    You're awesome... but please don't kill yourself on your road to becoming more awesome.
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    Sometimes I have so many people around me, yet I feel so alone. Does that make sense? I was raised surrounded by women, no men at all. Now, later in life, married with daughters and a sick mother surrounding me 24/7, I still feel the same. Now I have an aunt who is a recent empty nester and wants to hang out with me. ARGHHHHHHH !!!!! I really crave male affection and companionship but my guy lives out of town. I am lost in a sea of estrogen. Help!!!
    Inspired - but too tired.

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    Quote Originally Posted by mikey3000 View Post
    Sometimes I have so many people around me, yet I feel so alone. Does that make sense? I was raised surrounded by women, no men at all. Now, later in life, married with daughters and a sick mother surrounding me 24/7, I still feel the same. Now I have an aunt who is a recent empty nester and wants to hang out with me. ARGHHHHHHH !!!!! I really crave male affection and companionship but my guy lives out of town. I am lost in a sea of estrogen. Help!!!
    Actually it makes sense. I feel the same way, except that I'm surrounded by males most of the time.

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    I HATE IT when I'm hanging out with a friend, and we're talking and laughing and everything... then suddenly they get a text. My friend proceeds to answer it, and I'm left sitting there silently, feeling like an idiot! Of course, I never say anything about it, because that would be rude of ME.

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    Quote Originally Posted by dereperez View Post
    Good luck, Travis. Sounds like you have the right idea and I hope you can do it.

    Thanks, dereperez.

    I just feel like there are more important things for me to do in life than just watching porn.

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    Quote Originally Posted by travis82 View Post
    Thanks, dereperez.

    I just feel like there are more important things for me to do in life than just watching porn.


    Blasphemy!!!
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    I was happy to see that I got a 97% on my final exam today. I looked at my final grade - a 92.9%. A 92.9% is an A-, whereas a 93% is an A. Which ticks me the fuck off because in terms of contributing to my gpa, an A- is a 3.7 and an A is a 4.0. I asked my professor if he could mark it as an A, but he refused.

    My gpa suffers a .3 drop because of a tenth of a percentage point. Well fuck.

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    Why am I so monogamous-minded? I want to be a slut (I think).

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    Quote Originally Posted by 80KGold View Post
    Why am I so monogamous-minded? I want to be a slut (I think).
    Word for the day... monogamish.
    Inspired - but too tired.

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    Quote Originally Posted by travis82 View Post
    I remember it was way back in 1999, I was then seventeen when I first had access to the internet.

    And through the internet, inevitably...I discovered pornography.

    It was great and exciting to see images after images of beautiful hot, attractive naked young men gracing my computer screen.

    However, it soon became an addiction. I would soon began to spent hours after hours in front of my computer, simply surfing, viewing more and more gay pornography.

    What have I become?

    Sometimes I wish I haven't discovered pornography. My life would probably have been much better.

    I don't really think porn is all that bad. But when it gets to the point where I literally spent the whole day and night, surfing and watching porn, I think I need help.


    And that being said, I am now deciding to quit watching porn for good.. It's hard to quit an addiction. I have tried unsuccessfully in the past to quit watching porn...only to be lure by the temptation again.


    But I don't want to be consumed by the world of pornography anymore....Porn is like a fantasy...It doesn't help or improve anything in my life....

    Sure it does help to relive sexual tension building up in my body but I think a healthier alternative will be to go to the bathroom and jerk off.


    I really hope that this time round, I will be able to successfully overcome and quit my addiction to pornography.
    Wish you luck. I know exactly what you are talking about. It's oh so easy to get lost and carried about that you lose so much more than just a few hours. Everything in moderation and knowing your limits and sticking with them go a long way to staying healthy.
    I may be bad, but I'm perfectly good at it.



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    I'm curious to know why maxpowr9 is such an unusually big twat. I never really believed my friend when he said that every gay in Boston is snotty as fuck.

    Hi refuji! I missed you!

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    I have decided. I will come out to my mom. It's time. It's past time that I start living my life an not live in constant fear of others' opinions, good or bad.

    I choose power over fear. I choose to fight.

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    Quote Originally Posted by jdcnow View Post
    I have decided. I will come out to my mom. It's time. It's past time that I start living my life an not live in constant fear of others' opinions, good or bad.

    I choose power over fear. I choose to fight.
    Good luck
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    Good luck my friend! Being true to yourself will make you feel better.

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    I thought this was Hilarious !!!!

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    i'm angry, depressed, and sad right now and i want to hurt somebody as a means of taking out my anger whether it's physical or verbal abuse. i don't know who but damnit, i just feel like it. i feel as if i'm holding onto rage and frustration and it's fucking eating me alive. it's really eating me alive right now.
    one thing about the closet/you don't have to hurry/it will be bad tomorrow/so brother, don't you worry

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    Quote Originally Posted by jdcnow View Post
    I have decided. I will come out to my mom. It's time. It's past time that I start living my life an not live in constant fear of others' opinions, good or bad.

    I choose power over fear. I choose to fight.
    More power to ya buddy.

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    Quote Originally Posted by jdcnow View Post
    I have decided. I will come out to my mom. It's time. It's past time that I start living my life an not live in constant fear of others' opinions, good or bad.

    I choose power over fear. I choose to fight.


    Good luck!! All the best to you. Whatever the outcome is, you're a brave young man.

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    Quote Originally Posted by refujiunderground View Post
    i'm angry, depressed, and sad right now and i want to hurt somebody as a means of taking out my anger whether it's physical or verbal abuse. i don't know who but damnit, i just feel like it. i feel as if i'm holding onto rage and frustration and it's fucking eating me alive. it's really eating me alive right now.
    You really, really need to talk to your doctor and tell him that exact thing. You really need to open up and tell him you want to hurt people. It's important that they know that to help you the best. Coming from someone how has dealt with a loved one going through depression and being bipolar, sometimes the doctor needs to try several different medications to find the one that helps the best. Some actually make the feelings worse. My best girl friend struggled for over a year and about five different prescriptions before they found the one that kept her balanced the best. Really, talk to your doctor, they can give you better help than we can.

    I hope you feel better soon.
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    I'm on the warpath tonight after my roomie blew up in my face over dinner. The "where the fuck is my tomato sauce?" [answer: in a bowl in the fridge] and she went into the pantry to open up another jar.

    Dumb bitch.

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    Quote Originally Posted by maxpowr9 View Post
    I'm on the warpath tonight after my roomie blew up in my face over dinner. The "where the fuck is my tomato sauce?" [answer: in a bowl in the fridge] and she went into the pantry to open up another jar.

    Dumb bitch.
    Enough foreplay already... why don't you two quit dancing around all the sexual tension and fuck ???
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