just venting, airing out, talking shit, personal beefs, problems, anger management, and etc thread

[ElmosToe]

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i was getting so annoyed of being alive... basically have the ability to let myself die and then come back to life when i feel like it.

Sounds like you've exhausted the limits of boredom.

[refujiunderground]

Sounds like you've exhausted the limits of boredom.

i've been feeling like this for years though and i would basically do things to keep things exciting. i used to wake up having something to look forward to back when i was a teenager such as my main problems disappearing and things going the way that i want them to go or things going back to normal before they were fucked up. then i realized that they weren't going to go anywhere and i had to deal with them as much as i was bothered by them such as my sexuality for example. it was exciting to run away from my problems though for a time. i was fun to deny that i was gay because at the time, i felt like it was really catching up to me where someone was going to force me to deal with it. i sensed that other people around me were catching on or had already catched on where they were ready to pull my card. i really wonder what would have happened if i chose to ignore my feelings.


now that i'm dealing with certain issues, i pretty much don't have anything to look forward to. it all seems to be boring now. i don't think i would even be excited if i ended up getting a job or a boyfriend. there's pretty much nothing to live for at this point. i don't feel nor plan on killing myself though as i'm not suicidal or out of my mind yet. it's that i just have a meaningless existence where i just feel like life is a snoozefest where it can't get any better. it can get worse though so i'm crossing my fingers that it doesn't end up like that despite it looks more like that everyday, i wake up.

[ElmosToe]

now that i'm dealing with certain issues, i pretty much don't have anything to look forward to. it all seems to be boring now. i don't think i would even be excited if i ended up getting a job or a boyfriend. there's pretty much nothing to live for at this point. i don't feel nor plan on killing myself though as i'm not suicidal or out of my mind yet. it's that i just have a meaningless existence where i just feel like life is a snoozefest where it can't get any better. it can get worse though so i'm crossing my fingers that it doesn't end up like that despite it looks more like that everyday, i wake up.

Forgive me for being an optimist and without delving into your certain issues... I've seen pics of you in some random thread on here and as I recall you're a pretty good looking dude. You are young and you have no job (aka you don't need one?). That right there would be reason enough for me to get out of bed. I would look forward to all the endless ass I could get before I have to go back to bed. (half joking) But maybe you SHOULD just go out and get a job or start working form home. Try Odesk or Elance.

One thing that helps me when I feel like I'm going to crawl out of my skin from shear boredom and the monotony of everyday mundane life or just a need to get away from crazy shit and the crazy people who create it is a nice long road trip out of town or out of state. Just be spontaneous, don't plan much, pick a place, grab a friend, load up a long playlist and drive there to see what happens. Sometimes a random adventure to an unknown place can help refresh your perspective.

[BENDERBOY]

How the fuck did Anthony Cotton win, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck.

[CupidBoy]

How the fuck did Anthony Cotton win, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck.

I'm always here for you to release some tension.

[BENDERBOY]

I'm always here for you to release some tension.

I don't know how the sap won jason, and with tapdancing.

[CupidBoy]

I don't know how the sap won jason, and with tapdancing.

Life can be so unfair.

[BENDERBOY]

Life can be so unfair.

Too fucking true.

My money was on Jodie Prenger done up as that guy from Cameo. WORD UP.

[CupidBoy]

Too fucking true.

My money was on Jodie Prenger done up as that guy from Cameo. WORD UP.

That's right baby, just let every frustration out, I'm here.

[refujiunderground]

Forgive me for being an optimist and without delving into your certain issues... I've seen pics of you in some random thread on here and as I recall you're a pretty good looking dude. You are young and you have no job (aka you don't need one?). That right there would be reason enough for me to get out of bed. I would look forward to all the endless ass I could get before I have to go back to bed. (half joking) But maybe you SHOULD just go out and get a job or start working form home. Try Odesk or Elance.

One thing that helps me when I feel like I'm going to crawl out of my skin from shear boredom and the monotony of everyday mundane life or just a need to get away from crazy shit and the crazy people who create it is a nice long road trip out of town or out of state. Just be spontaneous, don't plan much, pick a place, grab a friend, load up a long playlist and drive there to see what happens. Sometimes a random adventure to an unknown place can help refresh your perspective.

it's easier said than done. you know something that's messed up, it seems that even getting the simplest things in life seem so damn hard to get. i've been very fortunate to have two parents, come from a nice home, not to be broke and etc. i'm thankful for it but i also have been unfortunate as well in a sense where i've ended up in some situations that i've had no control over that i've had to fight my way out of or been very lucky to make it out of. most people i know seem to catch a break or two where i pretty much had to fucking bust my ass just to get one simple thing. not saying that i have it tougher than other people because i don't or trying to play the pity card because that's not cool to feel sorry for yourself, i have a father that does that bullshit, but after awhile, i get frustrated and fed up where i'm like fuck it, i give up. i remember searching for a job the longest back around high school, first two years of college and i ended up with some minimum wage paying job that was shitty my second semester of my second year in college. got fired from that and ended up at somewhere which was about the same except with cooler people that i could relate to very well. been looking around for the longest for a job, even lost hope for a bit at that job where i was like "fuck it, let me just focus on school and just live with this wack job that i have since these employers aren't giving me a chance."

i know about starting somewhere but to be honest with you, i'm really getting sick and tired of having to settle for less, bust my ass and come up short then watching other people basically getting shit handed to them. what even gets me madder is that these same people that are getting the shit handed to them and aren't even putting in that work are telling me that i'm not working hard enough. like huh?

i did this civil service exam thing but to tell you the truth, i'm really not interested in just settling for some correctional officer job. i'm just going to try out law school even though i don't think i have what it takes to make it through the entrance process. i do think i have what it takes for the classroom though. just have to work on the public speaking skills but i can do the work. all that stupid entrance work with the standardize testing, writing essays, and all that shit is annoying. reminds me of the bullshit process i had to do at the end of high school. all that talk about how hard college is and it ended up being easier than high school. flunked my sat with a 800 but still went into community college and a 4 year school busting ass to get a 3.4 gpa so @ those folks talking about the SAT shows what type of student you'll be in college. still don't know how some of these guys that have the chance to live on the college campus off of scholarships and their parents money can flunk out. it's really not that hard.

[BENDERBOY]

That's right baby, just let every frustration out, I'm here.

Cheers Jason.
Even the ex-soapstars did a better job with Hairspray. thankfully i didn't vote for any of them.

[CupidBoy]

Cheers Jason.
Even the ex-soapstars did a better job with Hairspray. thankfully i didn't vote for any of them.

What show was this now?

[BENDERBOY]

What show was this now?

Comic Relief Celeb Dance Show.

He only won because he's the house gay.

You should have seen Vanessa Feltz done up as Cher sitting on top of that cannon.

[CupidBoy]

Comic Relief Celeb Dance Show.

He only won because he's the house gay.

You should have seen Vanessa Feltz done up as Cher sitting on top of that cannon.

I don't even think I want to know what THAT all is about.

[BENDERBOY]

I don't even think I want to know what THAT all is about.

Yeah once i saw it i was wishing i could turn back time as well.

[ElmosToe]

"fuck it, let me just focus on school and just live with this wack job that i have since these employers aren't giving me a chance."

i know about starting somewhere but to be honest with you, i'm really getting sick and tired of having to settle for less, bust my ass and come up short then watching other people basically getting shit handed to them. what even gets me madder is that these same people that are getting the shit handed to them and aren't even putting in that work are telling me that i'm not working hard enough. like huh?

Who are these people getting shit handed to them?

I will tell you, working in corporate America for 15 years has taught me that the old saying is true, it's "who you know" that gets you anywhere. You can have a PHD but if the people who you want to work for either don't know you from a referral or don't like you for whatever reason, you won't be working there. Same is true in reverse, you can have no degree and no experience and be the dumbest nut job and still get hired in a nice cushy high-paying position if you know the right people and kiss a bunch of ass. I have seen it happen time and time again.I have been both the benefactor and victim of both scenarios myself as well. Now I am working for a huge multinational corporation in Life Insurance as a claims analyst making $12/hr with no benefits. I could be making more as a waiter... It's not an easy or fun job either. My previous job was just a business specialist making $60k/year.

Most employers are not hiring people now, especially full time, they will hire temps with no benefits and pay them pennies. Many want you to have at least a bachelor's degree...to make $12/hr!!!!

There will always be people there who want to tear you down, make you feel less worthy, use it as motivation to be a success in life, proving someone wrong and making them eat their words, that's the biggest "fuck you" of all.

[refujiunderground]

anxiety is annoying as FUCK!!!! damnit, i'm so anxious right now i want to go to bed. just saw something that really has me wanting to shit in my fucking pants right now. i want to run to my bed right now and sleep the feeling off.

i think that i may have walked into some shit. damn, not again. i complain about not being in a relationship or not finding anybody and yet when confronted in a situation where someone's like , i get really uncomfortable where i want to flee and back away.

[refujiunderground]

Who are these people getting shit handed to them?

I will tell you, working in corporate America for 15 years has taught me that the old saying is true, it's "who you know" that gets you anywhere. You can have a PHD but if the people who you want to work for either don't know you from a referral or don't like you for whatever reason, you won't be working there. Same is true in reverse, you can have no degree and no experience and be the dumbest nut job and still get hired in a nice cushy high-paying position if you know the right people and kiss a bunch of ass. I have seen it happen time and time again.I have been both the benefactor and victim of both scenarios myself as well. Now I am working for a huge multinational corporation in Life Insurance as a claims analyst making $12/hr with no benefits. I could be making more as a waiter... It's not an easy or fun job either. My previous job was just a business specialist making $60k/year.

Most employers are not hiring people now, especially full time, they will hire temps with no benefits and pay them pennies. Many want you to have at least a bachelor's degree...to make $12/hr!!!!

There will always be people there who want to tear you down, make you feel less worthy, use it as motivation to be a success in life, proving someone wrong and making them eat their words, that's the biggest "fuck you" of all.

the job situation is REALLY, REALLY bad right now. REALLY bad. i think it's safe to say that america is about to go in the way of russia in the next 2 decades. we're finished. all the companies that left america are not coming back and everything that is going on over here, is drying up. why now though?

[thatgirl]

i have something to say you know what i really hate is when people online just type without using a period in their sentences they just type in one long endless sentence i don't know why they do this but it's really annoying they also forget to use pretty much any other form of punctuation in their comments except for the occasional acronym lol do you know what i mean idg why it's happening i find it really strange and headache-inducing like why is there no love for the period it is an essential part of writing i just thought i'd vent about that thanks for reading

[CupidBoy]

Yeah once i saw it i was wishing i could turn back time as well.

I'm sorry love.

I'm frustrated that I have to pee, but don't want to get up to go. I hate when that happens.

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i have something to say you know what i really hate is when people online just type without using a period in their sentences they just type in one long endless sentence i don't know why they do this but it's really annoying they also forget to use pretty much any other form of punctuation in their comments except for the occasional acronym lol do you know what i mean idg why it's happening i find it really strange and headache-inducing like why is there no love for the period it is an essential part of writing i just thought i'd vent about that thanks for reading

Clock em.

[ElmosToe]

why is there no love for the period

Couldn't resist.

[JP.]

To you: Commenter.

Im grateful with all your other comments, your smiley, your good luck, your kiss, your thank you.
What I dont like when you posted me comments that lead to your arguments/disagreements while you didn't open any outlet to reply.
Please dont do that, I dont like it and Im not being dramatic because you've done it couple of times.

and Im not gonna knocking your im, if you using that as a bait to talk to you.

Just let you know that it's annoying to have strings controlling behind my back.

Thank you.

[Stoowii]

i have something to say you know what i really hate is when people online just type without using a period in their sentences they just type in one long endless sentence i don't know why they do this but it's really annoying they also forget to use pretty much any other form of punctuation in their comments except for the occasional acronym lol do you know what i mean idg why it's happening i find it really strange and headache-inducing like why is there no love for the period it is an essential part of writing i just thought i'd vent about that thanks for reading

I read this in one breath.

[maxpowr9]

I'm have my Jewish friend from Oscar night over again and he is not with his husband this time thankfully. I get the feeling this playfulness that we are having casually on the couch will expound later with more alcohol. I pulled my roomie aside to make sure I don't make it worse but my lust is saying else wise.

Ugh, if it wasn't for tax breaks, I doubt many people would give a shit about marriage in the US.

[xbuzzerx]

Ugh, if it wasn't for tax breaks, I doubt many people would give a shit about marriage in the US.

And you'd be wrong, most likely.

[RazorzEdge88]

Someone obvs didn't watch Married with Children.

[refujiunderground]

Someone obvs didn't watch Married with Children.

they don't know what they missed out on. married with children was and still is that show. they don't make shows like that anymore.

[maxpowr9]

^It's a victim of its time. I was just pontificating about the wondrous decade that was 90s music [in the CE&P music thread. Yes, such a thing does exist!] I don't even say that with a strong bias as a 90s child. Thank god dubstep is on the downswing already. At least maybe, breakbeats will become popular like it was back in 2003.

[Huntneo(PT)]

Is it just me...or does it seem that no matter what kind of job one works...management can ALWAYS find a way to act 'extra' about something? That or lousy coworkers can make for a suckass experience...

I really need to think of a way to start my own business or something. I don't think I can live my life working for (or with) other people.

[refujiunderground]

^It's a victim of its time. I was just pontificating about the wondrous decade that was 90s music [in the CE&P music thread. Yes, such a thing does exist!] I don't even say that with a strong bias as a 90s child. Thank god dubstep is on the downswing already. At least maybe, breakbeats will become popular like it was back in 2003.

yes, dubstep must die. dunno about breakbeats but dubstep has to go.

and 90s music is well some good songs there and some bad there but there was a balance though. now most music is garbage.

[ElmosToe]

I really need to think of a way to start my own business or something. I don't think I can live my life working for (or with) other people.

Odesk or Elance. It's a start.
Also, ever thought of publishing your own ebooks through Kindle?

[maxpowr9]

yes, dubstep must die. dunno about breakbeats but dubstep has to go.

and 90s music is well some good songs there and some bad there but there was a balance though. now most music is garbage.

This is the next best example I could find of breakbeat music [if you aren't aware, drum n' bass was a predecesor to breakbeat]...

[Huntneo(PT)]

Odesk or Elance. It's a start.
Also, ever thought of publishing your own ebooks through Kindle?

those are all great ideas, and I'll look into them immediately. Thanks!

[ElmosToe]

This is the next best example I could find of breakbeat music [if you aren't aware, drum n' bass was a predecesor to breakbeat]...

DnB is still around. du(M)b step is just a lazy slackers excuse at attempting to recreate jungle.

[GiancarloC]

the job situation is REALLY, REALLY bad right now. REALLY bad. i think it's safe to say that america is about to go in the way of russia in the next 2 decades. we're finished. all the companies that left america are not coming back and everything that is going on over here, is drying up. why now though?

Depends where you live. And if one were to look at the actual job situation, it's a totally different picture. Here in California we've had many high paying jobs created in the last few years. Sounds like a whole lot of sour grapes to me. Move to a different part of the country... Russia? Absolutely not.

[maxpowr9]

DnB is still around. du(M)b step is just a lazy slackers excuse at attempting to recreate jungle.

So true but jungle is a long gone genre. It basically went "extinct" in 2001.

[loki81]

omfg I hate this guy.

I know you don't have your own desk, and yes, that kinda sucks... so I don't even mind that you take my desk when I'm not around, since you work nights and I work days. but fuck dude, you know that we overlap by 3 hours on Sunday morning. is it really too much to ask you to sit at someone else's empty desk that one day/week so I don't have to feel like an asshole evicting you while you gather up all your shit?

edit: and just when I was feeling good about my $10,000 in stock options, I find out that another coworker is getting $200,000 I know he's been with the company a couple years longer than me, but jesus fucking christ. that would be life-changing money for me, though not really for him (from the sounds of it, he's going to make some renovations to his house and put the rest into college funds for his kids)

[RazorzEdge88]

they don't know what they missed out on. married with children was and still is that show. they don't make shows like that anymore.

Hey, we agree on a TV show! :c)

Now please don't go saying something like Two and a Half Men is better than Parks and Recreation, which would just kill these good feelings.

[Huntneo(PT)]

nevermind...

Happy Sunday, everyone!

[xbuzzerx]

yes, dubstep must die. dunno about breakbeats but dubstep has to go.

and 90s music is well some good songs there and some bad there but there was a balance though. now most music is garbage.

It does definitely seem like a lot more groups that got their starts in coffeehouses or small gigs got record deals back in the 90s, whereas today watching Real Housewives produce their own recording session or album and putting it on itunes and youtube feels like it's a lot closer to how a lot of mainstream artists get their deals today.

[ElmosToe]

Depends where you live. And if one were to look at the actual job situation, it's a totally different picture. Here in California we've had many high paying jobs created in the last few years. Sounds like a whole lot of sour grapes to me. Move to a different part of the country... Russia? Absolutely not.

I grew up in SoCal, born and raised. About 7-8 years ago the big company I worked for moved to Nebraska (and me along with it). They wanted to save money on taxes and had enough insight to realize Cali's economy was headed for the shitter...low and behold. Financially California is a huge mess, high corporate tax rate, the highest gas tax in the country, many cities have claimed bankruptcy and every other tax there just seems to be going up. Not even going to get started on property values and the cost of living... nice place to live if you're rich or if you enjoy living in poverty, nice place to visit. But if you actually want a house and a comfortable life with a sensible cost of living, Cali is not the place.

[Huntneo(PT)]

how I feel about the weekend being over...

[refujiunderground]

Depends where you live. And if one were to look at the actual job situation, it's a totally different picture. Here in California we've had many high paying jobs created in the last few years. Sounds like a whole lot of sour grapes to me. Move to a different part of the country... Russia? Absolutely not.

http://www.bls.gov/web/laus/laumstrk.htm

your state is tied with nevada for having the second highest unemployment rate in the country with 9.8 percent. last i heard, your state was going broke and everybody was moving out. there's actually many people that moved from your state and nevada to new jersey because they heard that there were jobs over here. what's going on now? there's a lot of people moving out of our state to nearby pennsylvania because everything's cheaper over there and supposedly, there's jobs. with that said, unless you have a job, plan on settling down out here, or raising a family, jersey is the last place you want to move to. there's NOTHING over here. whenever i get some money, i'm out of this state because this place sucks. the only things that would make me stay is if i go to law school here, find a boyfriend and start a serious relationship or get a really nice job. otherwise, i'm out. been wanting to move out of here since high school.

Hey, we agree on a TV show! :c)

Now please don't go saying something like Two and a Half Men is better than Parks and Recreation, which would just kill these good feelings.

i don't even watch any of those shows so you don't have to worry about that. there's really no good shows on local tv anymore anyway. in fact, the tv stays off most of the time.

[JohannBessler]

^RJ, the trouble in California and Nevada lies in the fact that the Real Estate bust hit harder here than almost any other place in the country.

Everybody overspeculated, plain and simple. It might take decades to get it all back.

[RazorzEdge88]

That one stat alone doesn't tell the whole story with California's economy. It's also a state that pays more in federal taxes than it receives in federal assistance, so it can't be all bad.

[JohannBessler]

^That's right, Razzie.

The big fact that nobody knows is that the blue states pay a whole lot more into the system than they receive.

By contrast, the red states--in general--are Welfare Queens.

[pat grimshaw]

...last i heard,....everybody was moving out...

I heard that too. I heard the rich ones are abandoning California and moving north to Oregon and Washington.

[maxpowr9]

I always tell people to work in the Northeast for 5+ years and get that high salary and then move to another part of the country where it's cheap and you can live like a king/queen.

[JohannBessler]

I heard that too. I heard the rich ones are abandoning California and moving north to Oregon and Washington.

I believe this to be vastly overrated, Pat.

Nevada, which sits much closer to the rich ones than Oregon and Washington, has not seen a mass influx of rich Californian immigrants, despite a lower cost of living and a much lower tax bite (we don't even have an income tax).

Don't believe everything you hear in the news, Pat. The news media overblows issues for the purpose of getting more readers in order to sell more advertising.

[pat grimshaw]

… The news media overblows issues for the purpose of getting more readers in order to sell more advertising.

Half of the threads here are based on 'media overblows'