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    Jebus.......


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    @ Fuji...

    Okay man, you are ugly as fuck. Wow, I've had some beautiful fucks in my time
    but can't recall any really ugly ones. Some were bland...but, vanilla is good at times
    (not the race kind, drop that shit)

    @Miss Anne,

    Commission sales is tough, no wimps need apply. Aggressive is a good word here, your
    technique will make or break. If you go straight commission, they won't have to fire you.
    Something about empty wallet syndrome will put you back on the street. Lot s of bucks
    to be made if it is in your personality.

    And Euro, glad you can appreciate the young man in that photo, his symmetry is for
    sure in 10+ catagory....photo shop or not.

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    Quote Originally Posted by sixthson View Post
    I was looking through Netflix for gay themed movies and I have to confess that I have very little interest in lesbian love stories. I am a bad homosexual, I guess.

    Not only that, but about 99% of gay themed movies are shit...bad acting, directing, story line and the low budget shows.
    Most gay films are from indie productions hence they lack the quality. Though I think Gay shorts these days are actually better. There are some pretty good ones I have watched lately I would recommend Girlfreind Boyfreind (2012 Taiwan) and Amphetamine



    Quote Originally Posted by G-Lexington View Post
    I was discussing gay cinema with a friend. He says he can't watch or read "straight" love stories as they "simply reinforce heteronormalism and therefore I cannot relate to them in the slightest". I can't say as I love romcoms or anything, but I think I can relate to "falling for somebody" and "falling for somebody you can't have" pretty easily.

    Lex
    Straight love stories tend to be really formulated and have gotten really bored of their falling in love scenarios over the years. I can relate to the fall fro somebody part.

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    Thankyou for the sales advice!
    " For all there is to feel, let it be felt"
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    Please stop posting that picture of the hot guy with the amazing ass. I'm supposed to be working, not getting horny and thinking about fucking yet again. At least if you're going to post it, offer to help a gargoyle out.

    Lex

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    Quote Originally Posted by EuroSoccer View Post
    Jebus.......

    he a anga manaagement professioanl? wen upset climp up wall?

    ha

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    That ass is indeed heavenly

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    Great - now even SS is conspiring to make me horny as hell.

    Lex

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    Quote Originally Posted by Huntneo(PT) View Post
    ^ You don't give yourself enough credit, refuji! It may sound like bullshit, but I find you attractive and I would date you if you asked me out.
    thanks, man.

    Also, I don't see myself as much of a looker either (as I stated before...I think I have a boring face), but I've managed to pull more than enough guys who confirmed that I was attractive to somebody. I don't see you being any different when it comes down to it.
    well, you are a looker even if you don't think so because there's guys in here that i've seen throw themselves at you and etc. even if you don't think so, there's people that let you know that you're hot. i'm sure you could get a date quicker than me based off your looks.

    And you said it yourself regarding websites like okcupid and such--there are certain "types" of guys who get most of the luck on through that arena. I think some of it comes down to sheer numbers, while the rest is prejudices and "preferences". When people are *honestly* thinking about hooking up in the back of their minds, their preferences dictate who they interact with or even give the time of day to. You may have to rely on other avenues to meet guys. I'm sure you've heard that spill before...so I need to be redundant. If you can just expand your gay circle (if it's even existent), or even meet some gay guys through your straight friends (if at all possible), try make it happen.
    it's that it's frustrating to tell you the truth. i hate myself because of the personality flaws and qualities that i have that i feel kick my ass despite me trying to live with them. i'm angry with myself because of that. then there's the things that i'm disappointed with myself for not doing such as having a career, still living at home, not being responsible, not being able to cook, not being able to handle adult responsibilities and feeling like a kid amongst other things. all that pressure. i have to fight self loathing and get myself to live life despite me wanting to put myself down to sleep for good because it feels too much. then i have to live in a world that despite what people will say won't give me a fair shake because of my skin color. you know how it is, man. i have to basically be on my p's and q's period because there's always somebody ready to take mine because that's how people are right. then the stress with coming out, being openly gay in a world that is homophobic. it's basically a fight everyday even when i'm by myself so i look at something such as simple as finding someone who i can simply talk to on a friendly level where i can take a deep breath around, it means something.

    dating is a complex thing don't get me wrong and people are going to be people BUT i hate the fact that i still have to deal with the same bullshit that i would nothing but to spend about a minute away from as quick as that is and face in my everyday life with dating. it is ONE of the few things that keep me hopeful towards a better life then to deal with the same bullshit. i don't have time for that. it pisses me off. i understand people have preferences and the whole nine. that's cool BUT you mean to tell me that in a pool of 1,000 people, every last one of them are ignorant as fuck or have the same bullshit mentality? it's annoying have to deal with 100 guys have their heads up their asses where they're thinking they're hot shit that they simply can't humble themselves to simply treat me like a human being because i'm not attractive, white, tall or whatever. then the guys that DO want to talk simply are just being friendly so they can have a quick hookup then discard me like trash. it's like on either side, there's NO RESPECT that these guys have for anybody not even themselves but yet they demand it from people. they don't deserve that shit because they don't give it. then i might run into a regular guy who's just like me but that's like 1 out of 50 people and depends on how many people i interact with which varies. it's hard to find some regular down to earth guys such as yourself and guys on here and easier to find some lames with their heads up their ass. it's like damn... is this really happening? it's frustrating. even to simply have a talk with one or two of these guys on a simple friend level like how people do on here, it's like pulling teeth. i have a much easier time making friends on here than in real life. it's fucking annoying. i'm not really asking for much, man. i'm just a regular down to earth dude trying to survive that is trying to learn how to live with his imperfections in a cold world. i'm just tired of the bullshit, man.


    Quote Originally Posted by Lefty View Post
    @ Fuji...

    Okay man, you are ugly as fuck. Wow, I've had some beautiful fucks in my time
    but can't recall any really ugly ones. Some were bland...but, vanilla is good at times
    (not the race kind, drop that shit)
    indeed.
    one thing about the closet/you don't have to hurry/it will be bad tomorrow/so brother, don't you worry

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    Quote Originally Posted by G-Lexington View Post
    Please stop posting that picture of the hot guy with the amazing ass. I'm supposed to be working, not getting horny and thinking about fucking yet again. At least if you're going to post it, offer to help a gargoyle out.

    Lex
    Ummmmhhhh.................what?
    What guy wiv what ass?





    By the way his body is perfect, but what really turn me on is his face and his expression......
    He is such a babe

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    http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2013/0...n_2586352.html

    how fucking stupid can you be?

    man, she should be fired asap. as someone said in the comments, it would be NO surprise if she slept with a student or two. she seems like the type. this is someone that has NO business teaching high school kids or teaching for that matter.
    one thing about the closet/you don't have to hurry/it will be bad tomorrow/so brother, don't you worry

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    Quote Originally Posted by EuroSoccer View Post
    Ummmmhhhh.................what?
    What guy wiv what ass?





    By the way his body is perfect, but what really turn me on is his face and his expression......
    He is such a babe
    ...I give up. I'm officially horny as fuck. Anyone want to join the gargoyle in the back room for awhile?

    Lex

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    Quote Originally Posted by Huntneo(PT) View Post
    Yeah--it's not so much about feeling like I can't (or should be ashamed) of posting such things, but why it irritates me a little when straights do it. I don't feel my relationship is inferior to any straight person's...so why do I have somewhat of a negative reaction when it comes to open displays of their relationships, etc.

    LOL and yeah, Lex...the 'pregnancy' deal isn't likely on our end--but it's just another example I wanted to throw out there.

    Edit: Eurosoccer...stop distracting me!
    I don't think what you are saying is unreasonable at all. Heterosexuals have lots of freedoms we don't. One of them is the freedom of expectation. People just expect them to date, fall in love, get married, have babies and make a life together. Too many people in the world see a straight couple together and they think 'love'. They see two gay men together and they think 'sex'.
    How often do you hear someone say about a guy a girl "they're dating, don't they make a cute couple?" What do they say about two guys? They say "they're gay, you know?" GMAFB. We can be in love and a cute couple, too, you dumbasses.

    I have never and will never feel my relationship is inferior to anyone's. We don't hide, either, but still we have to endure gossip that heterosexuals don't.
    Everyone wants to be heard. No one wants to listen.

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    Quote Originally Posted by refujiunderground View Post
    wow, you pretty much figured me out.
    So...did you beat your dick into submission yet today?
    Everyone wants to be heard. No one wants to listen.

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    Quote Originally Posted by sixthson View Post
    So...did you beat your dick into submission yet today?
    oh you bet. black spark did it. that new video he has with the guy in the glasses and the underwear . oh my god.

    but you most definitely are on point with what you said, man. i'm pretty much using masturbation to sort of mask the pain underneath and i just need to confront it before it really takes me under. that's been the story as of late. been feeling a bit depressed thinking about things and i'm starting to realize that no matter how i've tried to escape or cope with things, the demons are still there.
    one thing about the closet/you don't have to hurry/it will be bad tomorrow/so brother, don't you worry

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    Perhaps it's time to put your armor on and go slay those sons of bitches. Or at least find another outlet for your issues besides keeping the monkey's backside red.

    Lex

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    Quote Originally Posted by G-Lexington View Post
    Perhaps it's time to put your armor on and go slay those sons of bitches. Or at least find another outlet for your issues besides keeping the monkey's backside red.

    Lex
    well journal writing didn't work. neither is going to the group therapy or talking with therapists and apparently, the medication although it is helping with the ocd and anxiety for the most part, it mostly isn't working with the depression. might start drawing again.

    you know, it's kind of hard to explain it though. have you ever been felt pain inside that you just want to get out, that you don't know where it's coming from BUT just can't? there's really no explanation to why i feel this way. it makes no sense. maybe i do know what it is BUT i don't know how to express it or want to talk about it. i know i haven't been sexually molested or abused or at least my memory serves me right. i know i haven't been physically abused by either of my parents although i would say that i did have bullies in school. i am upset with my father for the way he is and what he has put my mother through. i'm angry with myself for the things that i've put myself through and etc. there's many things that i'm upset about but none of it explains why i'm depressed. *shrugs*

    i was going to talk about two incidents that happened back when i was a kid BUT that has nothing to do with what was just written. might put it in a blog entry instead.
    one thing about the closet/you don't have to hurry/it will be bad tomorrow/so brother, don't you worry

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    Refuji, have you tried Morning Pages?
    Author of Lost in a Dream. If you want to make me smile, read it and tell me what you think.

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    Definitely. Try different things. Writing, and drawing, and music and whatever else. See what happens.

    Lex

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    Quote Originally Posted by justanothershyguy View Post
    Refuji, have you tried Morning Pages?
    from what i read, it's basically writing a journal entry in the morning. never tried it before but it's worth a shot. it's that sometimes, the thought that should come out during the writing doesn't come out. the thought using comes out during the day where there's something that happens that pushes my buttons but there's no access to a paper and pen so i just bottle my feelings up, toss it away, forget about it, write that journal entry where it's a lot about nothing for a page or so, then the thought that i wanted to write about earlier resurfaces another time like say when i go to bed. then when i'm lying there, listening to music and the thought comes up, i'm like "damn... that's what i was going to write about". it's that the venting thought or the idea doesn't show up when i want it to.

    but morning pages sounds like a good idea though. the energy is all there to just write, write, write, and write. tried writing a journal entry in the morning before and there were thoughts that were on my mind that surfaced that i was able to get out. it felt good. i'll start tomorrow morning. thanks, man.

    Quote Originally Posted by G-Lexington View Post
    Definitely. Try different things. Writing, and drawing, and music and whatever else. See what happens.

    Lex
    that most definitely would work. can use all the time that i spend on here whining, complaining, talking about my masturbation exploits and put them towards drawing, learning how to play the guitar, how to dj properly, play the keyboard and etc. funny thing is during that blackout back in late october/early november during hurricane sandy, that's when i was all getting busy keeping myself occupied. time to treat it like it's a blackout again.

    i want to thank you, sixthson, huntneo, borg, frankfrank, loveguys72, justanothershyguy, lefty, ixthrock, xbuzzerx, naughtyarousal and everybody else on here that's been supportive towards me for all your support and love during the times when i really needed it because i was down and out and basically hanging on a limb ready to give up. you guys are wonderful.
    one thing about the closet/you don't have to hurry/it will be bad tomorrow/so brother, don't you worry

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    my mom once again ready to look for a fucking argument over one simple thing. i just had to get out of the kitchen because she just goes on and on and on turning one simple thing into 99 fucking problems about what's wrong with me, my brother and my father.

    i think it's ironic because here she is ready to tell me to be positive, to stop arguing and etc BUT yet she does the same fucking thing. wtf.
    one thing about the closet/you don't have to hurry/it will be bad tomorrow/so brother, don't you worry

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    Quote Originally Posted by Lefty View Post
    @The Fly...

    really?

    funny, it was his climbing gear that drew me.
    Quote Originally Posted by dereperez View Post
    I came down with the flu...
    I couldn't help it...these two posts were precisely next to each other.

    A flea and a fly in a flue,
    Were imprisoned, so what could they do?
    Said the fly, "Let us flee,"
    And the flea "Let us fly,"
    So they flew through a flaw in the flue.
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    Quote Originally Posted by frankfrank View Post
    I couldn't help it...these two posts were precisely next to each other.

    A flea and a fly in a flue,
    Were imprisoned, so what could they do?
    Said the fly, "Let us flee,"
    And the flea "Let us fly,"
    So they flew through a flaw in the flue.


    frankfrank, you're insane....but in a good way.

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    Quote Originally Posted by refujiunderground View Post
    my mom once again ready to look for a fucking argument over one simple thing. i just had to get out of the kitchen because she just goes on and on and on turning one simple thing into 99 fucking problems about what's wrong with me, my brother and my father.
    My mum does the same shit..............but I just take the piss out of her.
    She gives up pretty soon.
    Don't hate your mum, that's what moms do.........moaning and nagging all the fucking time.
    I love her to bits.

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    Refuji -

    You also need to remember that your problems you're having are GENETIC. Your parent(s) are probably going through the exact same shit you are. You're a step ahead of them because you realize you have a 'problem'. Try and look at them with more compassion then you feel they're giving you.
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    Quote Originally Posted by Keeland View Post



    .........
    One of our lacrosse players mover here from Ontario last year. Two days ago, he was bitching because it was 20F when we woke up. I told him "Jesus, that didn't take long."

    50F today.

    Lex

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    Quote Originally Posted by borg69unimatrix View Post
    Refuji -

    You also need to remember that your problems you're having are GENETIC. Your parent(s) are probably going through the exact same shit you are. You're a step ahead of them because you realize you have a 'problem'. Try and look at them with more compassion then you feel they're giving you.
    i see what you're saying but at the same time, i dunno, man. i feel bad that she's in this situation that she's in but at the same time, how do you feel bad for someone that doesn't want to get help, acknowledges that they have a problem and is stubborn minded where they think they know it all? then at the same time, they try to encourage you to think like them so when you end up in a situation like this, you're basically feeling confused and bad for basically asking for help. don't get me wrong. i love my mother with all my heart BUT now that i think of it, she put herself into a lot of hardship that she didn't need to put herself and the more she tried to be on some "i can do this all by myself", the more she dug herself into a hole.

    and it may be genetic but being the way my family is, they aren't talking or are basically in denial. my mom said that she had depression and anxiety issues, she was actually diagnosed when she was in the military BUT she chose not to deal with them. she says that my grandmom had issues too saying that she might have manic depression. then on my father side of the family, it's even worse because he seems to be a basketcase and i'm willing to bet that he either has that narcissistic personality disorder or anti social personality disorder from the way he acts. his late half brother appeared to be outthere too where he left his wife how many years ago, ran to the other side of the world and impregnanted a bunch of women where he has kids. he might have had a mental disorder too. my father's biological mother apparently had a mental disorder either schizophenia or something like that. my mom encouraged my father to get help BUT he refused to because he doesn't think he has a problem. she was nuts. nobody was formally diagnosed though because they're a different generation. pretty much both sides of the family may have had issues but nobody is talking or wants to acknowledge anything. it's messed up because they passing down whatever and then when the doctor asks for a family history, it's like i'm talking out my ass giving a heresay when it's not even backed up. it's just a headache really.

    hell, if it were up to my mom, i'd still be on some "i can do it myself. i can snap myself out of it. i just need to keep myself busy." it's upsetting. just had to vent real quick because i've always been told by my family that i'm wrong for going out to seek help for my issues.
    one thing about the closet/you don't have to hurry/it will be bad tomorrow/so brother, don't you worry

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    i see what you're saying but at the same time, i dunno, man. i feel bad that she's in this situation that she's in but at the same time, how do you feel bad for someone that doesn't want to get help, acknowledges that they have a problem and is stubborn minded where they think they know it all? then at the same time, they try to encourage you to think like them so when you end up in a situation like this, you're basically feeling confused and bad for basically asking for help. don't get me wrong. i love my mother with all my heart BUT now that i think of it, she put herself into a lot of hardship that she didn't need to put herself and the more she tried to be on some "i can do this all by myself", the more she dug herself into a hole.

    and it may be genetic but being the way my family is, they aren't talking or are basically in denial. my mom said that she had depression and anxiety issues, she was actually diagnosed when she was in the military BUT she chose not to deal with them. she says that my grandmom had issues too saying that she might have manic depression. then on my father side of the family, it's even worse because he seems to be a basketcase and i'm willing to bet that he either has that narcissistic personality disorder or anti social personality disorder from the way he acts. his late half brother appeared to be outthere too where he left his wife how many years ago, ran to the other side of the world and impregnanted a bunch of women where he has kids. he might have had a mental disorder too. my father's biological mother apparently had a mental disorder either schizophenia or something like that. my mom encouraged my father to get help BUT he refused to because he doesn't think he has a problem. she was nuts. nobody was formally diagnosed though because they're a different generation. pretty much both sides of the family may have had issues but nobody is talking or wants to acknowledge anything. it's messed up because they passing down whatever and then when the doctor asks for a family history, it's like i'm talking out my ass giving a heresay when it's not even backed up. it's just a headache really.

    hell, if it were up to my mom, i'd still be on some "i can do it myself. i can snap myself out of it. i just need to keep myself busy." it's upsetting. just had to vent real quick because i've always been told by my family that i'm wrong for going out to seek help for my issues.
    No one likes to admit they have flaws... especially if it's related to a "mental disorder", or that they have a problem they can't fix themselves. Going to a doctor because you have a broken leg is much easier then going to one and saying your feelings don't feel right. Individual thought is such a grey area of facts mixed in with perception, imagination, fears, hormones, anxieties, ... it's a wonder any of us can "think straight". Not to mention, there was a time in your parents generation where just claiming someone was insane was enough to have them hauled off to the "Looney Bin" and locked up, put in a padded cell in a straight jacket, and given electro-shock treatments. I'm not exactly 100% sure this REALLY happened, but I do distinctly remember it being a fear in my younger years. "Beware the men in white suits with nets!" Yo Dude! I ain't Crazy!!!
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    You can't fix their problems. You can only fix your own. I've gone to therapy and one on anti-depression meds. And I don't care who knows it. As borg says, something's not right, go get it fixed. It's what you do.

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    Quote Originally Posted by JohannBessler View Post
    ^that surprises me, Lex.

    You comeacross as one of the strongest, most confident people I've ever met.
    I'd like to think that's part of the package. I think much of my strength comes in knowing where my limits are. When something's too tough for me, I don't have any trouble reaching out. And I've found nearly everybody came through in a pinch when I needed them...probably because I tried to do the same for them.

    And for the record, I was on anti-depressants all of five months in the last decade. And I found they didn't "roboticize" me at all. It's very tough to describe the effect they had. But if you've ever had a really bad cold, and then suddenly your sinuses FINALLY open? Or if you've been stuck with cold cloudy weather for weeks, and then you FINALLY get that sudden burst of sun and warmth? Like that. But where I suddenly burst out of a "life is terrible and I can't stop thinking about horrible things" cycle into a sudden "No, wait, I remember - I like life" state. Up until the meds finally kicked in (which took about a week), I was running on faith. The fact that I sort of remembered what it was like to be happy and enjoy stuff. But once they took hold, I immediately felt it again. I felt normal again. And even though I slipped back into depression maybe 30 seconds later, that was fine. I had gotten back for a second, and that was enough for me to get determined to get back there permanently. Which I managed to do.

    I do seem to sort of not feel the massive ups and downs that many people do. I recognize the angry "you bitch - you walked in front of my car" thing that RE mentioned. I do get those feelings on rare occasions. But generally, I feel more...eye-rolling? I smirk and say "No, please, you too. Definitely meant for you to cross as well." More sardonic humor than anger. But occasionally, yeah, I freak out and want to scream at them. I'm glad I don't feel it that often.

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    They don't turn you into Stepford Wives.
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    Random sidnote: I think way too many people regard antidepression medication as "happy pills", and then feel they aren't working under that expectation. And I think people almost are embracing the idea that normal things in life shouldn't make you sad-- losing jobs, losing loved ones or ending long relationships, etc. Those are all normal things to feel sad about. The right medication shouldn't make you happy all the time. It should stop you from being chemically depressed for no real life cause.

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    ^ That. Life was great when I fell into my depression.

    Um...I'm trying to remember which med it was. It was a "mild" one, since my depression was diagnosed as mild - ie, I could still function. Maybe welbutrin? Not many side effects. Occasional vague feeling (like you get with cold medicine), and I got tinnitus in my right ear ten minutes after taking it. No sexual side effects. At actually, my creativity was much improved - I actually could motivate myself to carry out creative tasks.

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    Again, not sure if it was. And my depression was a light mist compared to the torrential downpours that others have to face. Perhaps I'm "naturally zombified", and perhaps I should be taking pills to become more like you.

    Lex

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    Quote Originally Posted by G-Lexington View Post
    ^ That. Life was great when I fell into my depression.

    Um...I'm trying to remember which med it was. It was a "mild" one, since my depression was diagnosed as mild - ie, I could still function. Maybe welbutrin? Not many side effects. Occasional vague feeling (like you get with cold medicine), and I got tinnitus in my right ear ten minutes after taking it. No sexual side effects. At actually, my creativity was much improved - I actually could motivate myself to carry out creative tasks.

    Lex

    Effexor? Probably not if your dick din't go numb.

    Whatever it was...we're glad to have you back and out of the vales of depression.

    Actually...sounds more like Cocaine from the description.

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    Anyhow.....speaking of genetic time bombs....


    ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME???????

    I inherited Factor V Leiden and serious co-agulation disorders from my mother's mother's mother's side of the family (Bowstra).......but this week I find out that I inherited my FATHER'S fucking blood pressure???!!!!!


    Really????

    I started running about 150 over 110 and Boom...suddenly I'm on ACE inhibitors.

    And nothing else is going to bring it down.


    Fuck Fucking Fuck.

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    Quote Originally Posted by rareboy View Post
    Effexor? Probably not if your dick din't go numb.

    Whatever it was...we're glad to have you back and out of the vales of depression.

    Actually...sounds more like Cocaine from the description.
    Certainly wasn't cocaine, unless it now comes in pill form and takes a week to take effect. I just recal it was deemed "mild", and it was relatively easy to wean myself off of. I had been taking a pill twice a day. One week of once-a-day, one week of every-other-day, done. Don't recall any problems other than...well, whatever you call fear-that-the-cure-might-not-stick.

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    A member here I really liked is totally giving me the cold shoulder. >_< I'm about ready to just give up on them.
    Is that anything like giving you the finger?
    Everyone wants to be heard. No one wants to listen.

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    Quote Originally Posted by RazorzEdge88 View Post
    A member here I really liked is totally giving me the cold shoulder. >_< I'm about ready to just give up on them.
    Some of the old vets here are becoming such cunts these days. The new drama posters don't bother me as much as the old guard turning into bitter self-righteous pricks.

    That said, I have enjoyed "meeting" a few people on JUB in the past couple moths.

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    Quote Originally Posted by JohannBessler View Post
    @RJ:

    If you decide to take up the practice of writing Morning Pages, you need not necessarily write the words down by hand--you may type them.

    Someone set up a website for specifically this purpose:

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    thanks, jb. just favorited it. might start doing this tomorrow morning. i know i said that i was going to do it this morning but something came up which prevented me from doing it.

    but while i'm at it, i'm feeling a bit irritated and annoyed. *takes deep breath* i was going to bring this up and was going to push it back then i have to get it off my chest.

    this may seem petty and this may be because i'm irritated, worked up, the zoloft or whatever else but fuck it, i was at the gym just chilling. you know, there were some other guys looking at me in a way i didn't like. i kind of got annoyed where i looked at them back like "who are you looking at?" i get uncomfortable when i see other guys looking at me at the gym for whatever reason. i get into defensive mode where i start thinking like "is this dude that is looking at me want to fight me?" i get paranoid and on guard when a guy looks at me.

    but anyways, i was a bit worked up over that. i usually am worked up but i was extra worked up where i was just ready to go off. READY. then my brother and me decided to work on our guts on this little bench sit up thing. so we're doing our thing and this guy and his girl wants to work in with us so we let them. i notice that before they asked, they were all waiting around with the guy using one of the other stomach exercise equipment and the woman was standing next to this other machine playing with her cell phone and at the same time looking at me with this blank face. i notice them while looking at the mirror while i was exercising. so we're all taking turns and then i asked the woman if she wanted to go ahead since i finished doing what i was doing and sorry if i offend anybody with what i'm going to say, i apologize to all the ladies in here before hand but this bitch gives me this look like i was stupid or something and walks back to the guy as if i wasn't talking to her ass. i got mad. really mad. i was like "bitch, i'm trying to be friendly here, nice to you and all and you go about it like that. you wanted to work in with us so go ahead and work in with us instead of doing that rude, stuck up bitch attitude. so my brother and me finished doing what we were doing, went to the locker room, got my jacket and went to the car. i was by myself and i got fuming mad where i really felt like going off on that broad. i don't know what is going on this week but some of these women are testing my patience. i do not want to hit a woman or put my hands around a woman's neck BUT i swear if any of these woman excluding my mother or any blood relative of mine or any woman that i know tests my patience, i will snap on their ass. i don't want to chris brown a broad BUT i will if i have to.

    but anyways, right now, i'm annoyed and ticked off. if anyone once again excluding family, friends and other people that i'm cool with test my buttons, i wouldn't mind fucking slashing their face up with a boxcutter. just cutting away in their face for pissing me off. since they hurt my feelings, i feel i should HURT them in a way that scars them permanently so they know that i hurt them and they never forget what i did to them. if you want to get me mad or fuck me over, i'll fuck you over twice so you know who you're fucking with and you learn a lesson. i could care less about the consequences. i'm willing to die over that shit too.
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    Yes, I have a black eye. I got it in one of the following ways:

    * having semi-consensual sex with a werewolf in a stairwell
    * getting into a heavy disagreement about sexuality with a visiting lacrosse player
    * asking a server in a sit-down restaurant why they thought they deserved an 18% tip
    * running into a guy wearing a Chris Culliver jersey on the bus
    * an impromptu flashmob parkour performance that didn't quite go as planned
    * making a YouTube video of me dancing around the room to "The Boy Is a Bottom"
    * a lover's quarrel between two guys who didn't want to "share the gargoyle" (which reminds me, I owe the victor a hell of a night)
    * reading "The Unreleased Beatles" in bed past my bedtime
    * revealing to my college quarterback online boyfriend that the "girl" he's been courting the last year is a 43-year-old hairy gay guy
    * attempting to knit a comfy cozy for my cock and balls
    * overenthusiastic mosh pitting to local band The Kevin Costner Suicide Pact
    * getting to a fight with a local news camera crew who stopped me in the street and asked me how long I've had an STD
    * jumping into the pool at Casa Bonita in a slightly buzzed state

    No points for guessing the correct answer.

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    running into a guy wearing a Chris Culliver jersey on the bus

    that one

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    Quote Originally Posted by G-Lexington View Post
    Yes, I have a black eye. I got it in one of the following ways:

    * having semi-consensual sex with a werewolf in a stairwell
    * getting into a heavy disagreement about sexuality with a visiting lacrosse player
    * asking a server in a sit-down restaurant why they thought they deserved an 18% tip
    * running into a guy wearing a Chris Culliver jersey on the bus
    * an impromptu flashmob parkour performance that didn't quite go as planned
    * making a YouTube video of me dancing around the room to "The Boy Is a Bottom"
    * a lover's quarrel between two guys who didn't want to "share the gargoyle" (which reminds me, I owe the victor a hell of a night)
    * reading "The Unreleased Beatles" in bed past my bedtime
    * revealing to my college quarterback online boyfriend that the "girl" he's been courting the last year is a 43-year-old hairy gay guy
    * attempting to knit a comfy cozy for my cock and balls
    * overenthusiastic mosh pitting to local band The Kevin Costner Suicide Pact
    * getting to a fight with a local news camera crew who stopped me in the street and asked me how long I've had an STD
    * jumping into the pool at Casa Bonita in a slightly buzzed state

    No points for guessing the correct answer.

    Lex
    @ the list of possible answers but sorry for your black eye though. hope you get better soon, man.

    oh and i guessed * overenthusiastic mosh pitting to local band The Kevin Costner Suicide Pact*
    one thing about the closet/you don't have to hurry/it will be bad tomorrow/so brother, don't you worry

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    I'll go with drunk pool jumping.
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    Quote Originally Posted by refujiunderground View Post
    @ the list of possible answers but sorry for your black eye though. hope you get better soon, man.

    oh and i guessed * overenthusiastic mosh pitting to local band The Kevin Costner Suicide Pact*


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    Quote Originally Posted by G-Lexington View Post


    Lex
    guess that's not the answer then.
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    Quote Originally Posted by loki81 View Post
    note to self: never be so foolish as to think someone might actually have a crush on me again.

    turns out that the "super gay," very effeminate friend from high school who I thought was crushing on me was actually using me to get close to my female best friend.
    Maybe he wanted someone to go shopping with?

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    I had two artists I really wanted to take part in my next event in March. I didn't hold out much hope, since they're both really busy and one's a friggin' Academy Award nominee. But I asked anyway.

    They both said yes.

    I'm bouncing off the walls. Which is tough for a gargoyle.

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    Quote Originally Posted by G-Lexington View Post
    I had two artists I really wanted to take part in my next event in March. I didn't hold out much hope, since they're both really busy and one's a friggin' Academy Award nominee. But I asked anyway.

    They both said yes.

    I'm bouncing off the walls. Which is tough for a gargoyle.

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    Just kiss and make up. But no tongues.
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