First of all, I want to start out by saying that I'm not looking for any self righteous lectures. I'm only saying this because in the past I've started perfectly innocent threads that seemed to attract 'preachy' and 'bitchy' users who use this as an opportunity to look down their noses at me and start a flame war, I'd like to avoid that please. I'm aware that I have a problem and I'd like to get to the root of it or maybe get some tips on how to get over it.
So yeah, I'm also aware that I'm preaching to the choir here since pretty much every gay man has this dilemma: falling for a straight guy. Happens all the damn time. Do we wish that we could snap our fingers and those guys would suddenly 'turn gay' for us in an instant? Sure. Is it ever going to happen? Not in this lifetime. I'm grounded enough in reality to realize this, but my problem is that when I find myself in this predicament...not only do I find them sexy and attractive...I also develop bitter and resentful feelings towards them. Because that's the kind of guy I want to be with (not because they are straight, just their looks and personality wise) but I know I can never have them. I don't like this person I turn into. Now I don't get in their faces and say "How dare you be straight! How dare you not reciprocate my feelings! I hate you forever!!!" and I'm not rude to them. I hide my resentment and try to have as little contact with them as possible. This is stupid, this is silly. I should feel this way at all, but I do...and I want it to stop? I want to be able to accept the fact that I will never be with *insert sexy attractive straight guys name here* and move along.
Now I know the simple solution to this would be to find a GAY man that you can find yourself attracted to so you won't care for all those other guys but if any of you have seen my previous thread below, you know for someone like me...that's easier said than done. Any other suggestions, pretty please?