Long time lurker, first time poster...
So I can't help feeling like I've become more and more obsessed over my body/looks as I've become older. All I see in the mirror is my receding hairline, my womanly hips, and the fat I can't seem to lose. I find myself lying awake at night rather frequently thinking about my body.
I'm 5'10" 148lbs. On paper, I think I would appear a normal weight, but in person I always look big. My hips are literally the same size as my tiny 36" chest, making me look like i have an hour-glass figure. I have huge thighs and stick-thin arms which just adds to the overall 'feminine' figure. On top of all of this, I can't seem to put on any muscle/tone. I recently lost >30lbs, but I still have fat around my stomach and hips I can't lose. I've tried diets, exercising 7x a week, I even ran 2 half-marathons in less than a month and I lost 0 of it!!
Have any of y'all had these feelings? How did y'all overcome these thoughts and be happy with yourself?
I guess tied into this is the fact that I am now 25, single, a virgin, never been on a date, never been kissed, no interest from other guys, etc etc. I feel like I've missed out so much on life. I swear being Asian in the gay community is the worst. Personally, I'm attracted to all races, but I've noticed gay Asians don't want even want other Asians!!
Sorry for the little rant, but I'm just at my wit's end with my body. It would be one thing if I didn't exercise/diet, but having a body type/features I can't change just makes me very sad. Here's to plastic surgery in the near future...!
TL,DR: Have y'all had body image issues? If so, how did you deal with these thoughts?