I believe something is tenuously trying to make life in the universe, true it is still within the law of entropy so we destroy and reap chaos, but I believe what we create out of the chaos we sow is love. We have to consume and waste but we do so in order to have love and perpetuate these feelings so that love can be experienced by more and more through time.
I believe in life on other planets, I think we are a fucking rarity and incredibly lucky that our rock hurling through space is still intact, but the universe is huge there just must be some other life somewhere.
Even so I think Nietzsche was off-base. God is not dead, he is still holding our dimensions and laws of physics together. God just doesnt care. Inside of whats inside of whats inside of the higgs boson (purely as a hyperbolic example, I know that this isnt God, haha) must lie something transcending reality as we can experience it and is beyond our detection. Maybe one day we can observe more of these things, but there must be a limit of what can be observed and even hypothesized. But in terms of our lives, why should we be so arrogant to believe God is responsible for getting us that parking space, or backward-ass-ly-worse, calling us to kill each other.
Maybe it is because of some horrors I have lived through but I do not feel that being jaded, jilted, or just misunderstood and alone has led me to this conclusion. I just believe that God, being omnipotent and all powerful, would be smart enough to not give a fuck about what we do and think and rather only wants us to feel love and infuses us with feelings. Good or bad, we are filled by these collective emotions and reveal the masks of our true selves to others. It can only be, and hopefully will be universally accepted and fulfilled, man that loves his fellow man. God cannot ~love~ us, we have to love each other. And it is God that gave us love and the circumstances to have life, so we must love each other and live our lives.
In the end I share somewhat Hindu beliefs in that the idea we get to walk around in our 25 year old bodies is retarded. I think we are absolved of our lives, memories, and selves entirely as our life force becomes one with the ether. I believe we are recycled, our love goes to rest and be with God, and our energy is reformed to perpetuate love. Our energy being a piece of God himself. I cannot wait to take all the love I have and give it back to God, despite feeling hated and abandoned by the Christian God (my parents think Im a dirty sinner blah blah, they tell me there ok with it, they never suspected I was gay and always bashed gays and tried to get me to hate them, so surprise you born-again bigot, you have a gay son!).
I have such intense love for all mankind, each one of my friends I try and know so intensely. I laugh, love, cry with them. They sleep in my bed and hold me close, girl or guy. We have a normal college frat boy or artist crowd lives at day and are gregarious and fun but my friends are all used to bearing their souls to me and I feel so so so privileged to feel this special love and trust fill me all the time. I am so hated by the world and alone and heartbroken but I have so much intense love and passion and feel so connected like I want to hold every human close to my heart. And I cannot wait to give all this love I have made back to God and have the immense span of my emotions become spread out into so many new lives or chances for love as the essence of what is me dissolves into the space between space to build God. I do not feel loved by God, and by mathematical odds, I actually should realize he probably hates me and has made my life so hard. Even still, I love God, I love mankind, and I want to just devote my life to making others feel love fill them up like it does to me.