Anyone else think that the idea of gay men fucking women for the first time in their lives to be extremely, cum-splatteringly HOT?
A few years ago, I was on a gay chatline in Dallas. I only liked talking to muscle bear-type men, men with facial hair. I had had sex with all kinds of men, and my partner of 15 years was no bear, but I had a special lust for older men with mustaches, beards, goatees... While talking to this one guy (44) he suddenly started telling me about how he had fucked a 20 year old girl for the first time the night before and it was the best sex he ever had! And now he thought he was straight! Immediately, cum started erupting from my cock~ I couldn't even breathe! I could hear the blood pounding in my ears as he talked about this girl seducing him and how much he really enjoyed- and preferred! - sex with a beautiful girl!!!
Suddenly, after that, I couldn't get the idea of an older gay man converting to heterosexuality just by letting himself accept it. That week, in horror, I realized I was checking out this girl's body at work. I had a micro-fantasy of walking up behind her, reaching around and grabbing her left tit in my left hand, while the middle two fingers of my right hand rubbed on her jeans where her pussy was, as I ground my rock hard cock against her ass. I seriously freaked out, as I was leaking so bad that it was showing through my jeans! (NO LIE!) I almost started crying, I was so upset at myself for actively having such 100% NON-GAY desires!
After that incident, I consciously never let myself think about girls sexually at all. Out and Proud!!! But...
I could not stop myself from being interested in gay men fucking pussy. I remember researching bisexual videos, and was shocked to see my favorite performer of the 1990s, Rob Cryston, had done two Bisexual videos. Well, it took me until that Summer to finally buy them from a cheap DVD online mart (on a secret credit card I had to take out so my partner would not find out), and the second I saw gay Rob tongue-kissing a woman, I shot my first load~ just from him kissing a girl like a real man kisses a woman! Many, many more loads would be shot off for the next 3 years. I did the same thing with the Blake Harper DVD where he is with two women at once - SO FUCKING HOT!!!
And this continued, my secretly renting/downloading bisexual videos to see GAY MEN fucking and eating pussy~ NOT straight men. I guess it was preparation, although I just told myself it was a kink, which everyone has. Online I created an identity as a gay man who was realizing his secret heterosexual lust, wanting to jack off on the phone with men who were in the same predicament. And there were hundreds over the last 3 years! SO MANY gay-identified men who were telling me that they truly wanted pussy secretly now instead of cock. And I was pretending to be like them because I wanted to shoot off listening to them described my favorite kink. I LOVED hearing them talk about how secretly they knew they were truly heterosexual inside, but were jacking off about pussy in secret so their gay lives wouldn't be destroyed.
And I wrote erotic stories about gay men realizing their true sexuality due to being awakened to what was truly inside them to their core. Just from my stories on Nifty.org , I've had hundreds of gay men writing me, telling me they also are turned on by the idea of gay men fucking hot girls, and that my stories had even put the idea in their own heads!
Anyone else find this taboo sex of gay men with decades of rigid homosexuality experiencing earth-shattering heterosexual orgasms when they start fucking women for the first time? Anyone else want to talk about it? Anyone else think such ideas spark a transition to heterosexuality?