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    anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    depersonalization or whatever? for two days in a row, i've had a moment or two where i just start panicking somewhere, get cold, start thinking that i'm in another world, and start questioning myself and life in general. when i look at other people, i think that they know that they know what i'm experiencing and think i'm crazy. the only time i've experienced this was when i was weeded out. the thing with this is i felt like i was getting to the point where i might have jumped out my brother's car and took my clothes off in the middle of street exposing myself wondering if i was in a dream or if this was real life. i also felt like at any moment when my homeboy was in the car with me, i was going to just blurt that i was gay to him. i dunno.

    could it be that i'm tired because i usually stay up late, don't sleep til like 5 or 6 in the morning and etc? i've been doing it for a long time. am i experiencing symptoms of a nervous breakdown? sleep deprivation? what? this is kind of creeping me out.
    one thing about the closet/you don't have to hurry/it will be bad tomorrow/so brother, don't you worry

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    I've had some drug-related flashbacks that have caused similar experiences, but sometimes when I think of certain strange things that happened in my childhood I can feel my sense of reality slipping...

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    I have no idea what you were/are experiencing but a doctor would be better able to tell you than we could - that is unless you feel like it's giving in to weakness or some bs like that.

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    Quote Originally Posted by Carmine View Post
    I have no idea what you were/are experiencing but a doctor would be better able to tell you than we could - that is unless you feel like it's giving in to weakness or some bs like that.
    that's what's scaring me. awhile ago, i was trying to look for a therapist and i backed off of it because my insurance was basically shitty and on top of that, the search for doctors discouraged me. i know if i say this to a therapist, they are going to say that i have some version of schizophenia or some bullshit that's going to get me hospitalized. HELL NO.

    Quote Originally Posted by Seghers View Post
    I've had some drug-related flashbacks that have caused similar experiences, but sometimes when I think of certain strange things that happened in my childhood I can feel my sense of reality slipping...
    would you say it's got to the point where you completely lost knowledge of yourself where you called yourself a different name or questioned your very existence? dude, i was about to calling myself everett, which was my weed name in toronto when i had that bad trip when i was experiencing that shit tonight. once again, the whole concept of life and death just left me feeling stupid.

    what's it like for you though? were you scared when you were experiencing it?
    one thing about the closet/you don't have to hurry/it will be bad tomorrow/so brother, don't you worry

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    i know if i say this to a therapist, they are going to say that i have some version of schizophenia or some bullshit that's going to get me hospitalized. HELL NO.
    Well at this point, you while you can still make this decision, I have no other choice but to enjoy your inevitable collapse into insanity. You don't always get what you want. You get what you need.
    Please do not apologize for your opinion.

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    Quote Originally Posted by fetaby View Post
    Well at this point, you while you can still make this decision, I have no other choice but to enjoy your inevitable collapse into insanity. You don't always get what you want. You get what you need.
    you think i'm going crazy? you wish. some people like my homeboy that i was texting telling him i'm losing my mind in the car yesterday thinks i'm crazy but not that crazy. i think i'll be fine. i think it's because i'm getting closer to that closet or i'm just stressed out because i was pissed off before.
    one thing about the closet/you don't have to hurry/it will be bad tomorrow/so brother, don't you worry

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    If they decide to hospitalize you - and from this angle, you seem a very far away from that point - it's almost certainly because you need to be hospitalized. At worst, they might suggest something inpatient. You certainly sound functional, and not a threat, so I don't think forced hospitalization is going to even be considered.

    Lex

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    I've been there. It's usually a result of very little or no sleep for me. I'll space out so far during my workday, that I'd literally get weak-kneed and almost collapse. I was just in such a state of utter nothingness that I seemingly lost all function of basic motor skills.

    But then on opposite sides, I get so far into a zone that it's like I have tunnel vision. If I'm determined to do something to that extent, I'm so far gone and divulged in my work/project, that you would have to smack me upside the head to get my attention.

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    if you want to pull a Martin it's cool. You know you have issues. I know you aren't going to do anything about them. So either prove me right and let me enjoy my popcorn. Or prove me wrong and get the help you say you want.
    Please do not apologize for your opinion.

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    Make an appointment with a Psychiatrist immediately; not a Psychologist or a Therapist.

    And don't try to diagnose yourself using the Internet.



    Although if you must know, you have Generalized Anxiety Disorder and are suffering from moderate to severe panic attacks.

    Take the meds. Avoid the weed. You're going to be fine.

    Now get to the Doctor so they can coincidentally tell you the same exact thing.

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    The sleep is a factor, buy not all of it.

    Do what Illgetbi and others have suggested.

    Stop second-guessing the doctors and counselors.

    Act on your own instinct and get help rather than trawling to waters here to find any possible validation for your fear of treatment.

    And, good luck with it.

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    It makes me cringe even more when JUBbers diagnose each other than it does when one asks for medical or psychiatric advice. A real MD would never diagnose a patient via the internet.
    Everyone wants to be heard. No one wants to listen.

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    A lot of people think weed is a safe drug but its probably the worst one out there. I know that may offend my potsmoking friends but I regret touching the stuff as it gave me anxiety.

    If you see a pot smoker and watch them try to function, even after they have come down, their cognition takes a huge plunge for a long time afterwards and some people get paranoid.

    What people dont think about is that being high on weed is pretty close to having psychosis.

    But I would go to the hospital or see a psychiatrist as soon as you can and be honest as possible with the doctor.

    If you think they are not interested in details they probably just want to shuffle you in and out, so be picky about who you see.

    Also you need to work on getting enough sleep and eating nutritious food.
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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    Quote Originally Posted by refujiunderground View Post
    depersonalization or whatever? for two days in a row, i've had a moment or two where i just start panicking somewhere, get cold, start thinking that i'm in another world, and start questioning myself and life in general. when i look at other people, i think that they know that they know what i'm experiencing and think i'm crazy. the only time i've experienced this was when i was weeded out. the thing with this is i felt like i was getting to the point where i might have jumped out my brother's car and took my clothes off in the middle of street exposing myself wondering if i was in a dream or if this was real life. i also felt like at any moment when my homeboy was in the car with me, i was going to just blurt that i was gay to him. i dunno.

    could it be that i'm tired because i usually stay up late, don't sleep til like 5 or 6 in the morning and etc? i've been doing it for a long time. am i experiencing symptoms of a nervous breakdown? sleep deprivation? what? this is kind of creeping me out.
    Yes.

    You have finally overstressed yourself to the point of nervous exhaustion or a psychotic break.

    I thought you were seeing a therapist?

    You need to start with sleep. As in getting 7 to 8 hours of uninterrupted sleep.

    Turn the electronics off at 10pm every day.

    Ask your doc about Trazadone to help you sleep. It is not as dreadful as other stuff and is non-addictive.

    Cut out the crap.

    Like the refined sugars. The HFCS sodas. The high salt and msg laden garbage you are probably shovelling into ourself unitl midnight and which gets your poor pancreas and endocrinal system working so hard that you can't get to sleep.

    Take up yoga and learn how to relax.

    Good luck. Because if you don't change your habits, you are headed for a catastophe.

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?



    This is you. Go see a doctor.
    Last edited by Sofa-King; April 14th, 2012 at 10:44 AM.

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    I'm gonna go with the anxiety/panic attack also. If I'm sleep deprived and getting stressed, I feel like how you've described and then my panic starts to set it. Gotta stop and take a couple deep breaths and talk yourself out of it. Pacing or walking around helps me too.

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    Only in case of hunger strike.

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    I used to as a kid but ever since all 8 cylinders started firing (I hope) it happens less and less.

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    well, looks like it happened to me again at work and right at home just now. in fact, it's happening to me right now. i most definitely might have to catch up on some sleep or have to see a doctor. this is really messing me up right now. fuck having anxiety.

    i'm just afraid that feeling like this will make me act out of character and get my ass in trouble. i felt that happening at work.

    to be real with you, i think me stressing over finding a job, my sexuality and life in general as well as lack of sleep is really getting to me. i seriously felt like blurting out to my parents that i'm gay when i strolled into the house yo. for real... if this shit continues, i most definitely am checking into a hospital. i'm giving this til tuesday.
    one thing about the closet/you don't have to hurry/it will be bad tomorrow/so brother, don't you worry

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    It is 9:15 pm Sunday night and so far as I can tell you have noy posted all day.

    GET TO A DOCTOR!!!

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    after coming back to my senses, i am normal and back to my old crazy ass self.

    now that i think of it, fuck it, i'll put it outthere and you guys tell me what you think of this. i haven't had much sleep and i'm not someone that gets a lot of sleep anyway. i don't think it was due to lack of sleep. i also didn't use any medications or drugs so i don't think it was that either.

    however, i have to mention. on thursday night, i work at a fast food restaurant. i had a cherry and classic limeade sparkler at 9 o clock. i drank it feeling whatever and next thing i know at 11 o clock, i was fucked up out of my mind. so fucked up that i forgot where i was, was losing touch with reality and etc. i think that it might have been the drink because this is not the first time that i've drank that limeade sparkler and it has done something to me. everytime i drink it, i end up either sick with a serious cold or something else. it was probably food poisoning or i was severely dehydrated. i don't know. but whatever it was, i was messed up on thursday, friday and saturday. i'm convinced that it was the drink.

    i've NEVER experienced this feeling outside of smoking weed. i've had panic attacks BUT it was WAY different than this. it felt like i was high off marijuana. i had become stupid to the point where i forgot who i was, where i was, and was just acting weird. i felt cold, my skin felt weird and i couldn't feel my hands.

    i'm convinced that it was my drink that caused it.
    one thing about the closet/you don't have to hurry/it will be bad tomorrow/so brother, don't you worry

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    Please do not apologize for your opinion.

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    Could the drink be the thing that pushed you over the edge? Sure. But if you're so close to the edge that a "cherry and classic limeade sparkler" screws you up that much, I'd say...well, yeah, I'd say stay away from that drink, but I'd say you need to work on not being that close to the edge anymore.

    Lex

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    Quote Originally Posted by G-Lexington View Post
    Could the drink be the thing that pushed you over the edge? Sure. But if you're so close to the edge that a "cherry and classic limeade sparkler" screws you up that much, I'd say...well, yeah, I'd say stay away from that drink, but I'd say you need to work on not being that close to the edge anymore.

    Lex
    i don't even know how i got like that to begin with. i know that alcohol or drugs make me that warped up. otherwise, i'm fine. i don't even know. it was almost like a psychosis type of thing where i forgot that i was living in the world. luckily, i didn't do anything stupid.
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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    Beware the cherry limeade!!! Hey, do you think the cherry limeade is any kin to the broodwich?

    Please do not apologize for your opinion.

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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    I've had panic attacks where the physical feeling was identical to how I felt in the past during some trauma. I'd say you need a psych eval and can't be content that once you're done with an episode that you won't get another.
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    Re: anybody here ever zone out to the point where they just lose a sense of reality?

    Quote Originally Posted by Seasoned View Post
    I've had panic attacks where the physical feeling was identical to how I felt in the past during some trauma. I'd say you need a psych eval and can't be content that once you're done with an episode that you won't get another.
    well, it's almost been a month since i last experienced it and i'm going to say that i think i'm allergic to that drink i had.


    don't think i need to be evaluated by a shrink. the only way that's going to happen is if i really lose it to the point where i go nuts. i'm not doing any drugs or alcohol like that.
    one thing about the closet/you don't have to hurry/it will be bad tomorrow/so brother, don't you worry

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