i really wanna go to a gay bar/club tonight. I REALLY WANT TO GO.
i also want to hook up as well but i don't feel entirely comfortable in doing so. a fuck buddy or however you want to call it. yesterday in new york, i saw so many hot guys and yo... i need some ass. it's that i'm a bit scared to do so and i don't want to just hook up with anybody either. fuck it, i'll just leave it alone. i also don't feel comfortable with other guys zoning in on me like they want my ass or something like i'm being preyed on. i've dealt with that this week already. on sunday and on tuesday. i guess the more i put myself outthere around other gay men, my "telfon", virgin status is in risk of being taken away. i dunno if i want to lose my virginity just yet.
i think i'll just wait it out.