I confess that I want BMB to change his avatar to this guy.
I confess that I want BMB to change his avatar to this guy.
I watched High School Musical again today and renewed my crush on Zac Efron.
i as well as my shirt are dretched in sweat and my room is at cooking temperature from jerking off to this..
i want to eat out his ass. dayum, it's going to be a hot summer. kleenex saved my night because i came real close to shooting an eyeful into my eye. it didn't come out in clumps. it came straight shooting out like blaow.
one thing about the closet/you don't have to hurry/it will be bad tomorrow/so brother, don't you worry
yesterday, i felt like quitting my dayjob to sell drugs preferably crack or cocaine by the brick load. i would do whatever came along with the drug dealing including the violence. i would be one trigger happy dude taking out my negative feelings on people that won't pay up.
one thing about the closet/you don't have to hurry/it will be bad tomorrow/so brother, don't you worry
if i ever get enough dough to the point where it's more than enough, i'm going to buy me a husky dog.
i'm thinking about buying two (a male and a female) so they can breed and have babies that i can also take care of. start my own world of dogs.
i'm so wrong for this but i thought this was funny putting this on slo mo with this guy coughing his lungs out especially at the 1:10 mark where he sounds like a chicken for a second. he dies from ammonia poisoning from the fumes. i found it hilarious, yo.
I have something to confess. I'm unhappy with my body but I'm doing the insanity program.
A lot of my friends keep trying to sign me up for things like the insanity program, or tough mudder, or whatever those things are called. I just keep telling them "I'm fine doing this my way, thanks"...but they don't seem to get it. "But this way, we can encourage each other!" "You'll lose more weight this way!" "This one pushes you to the limit!" Uh, can't I just control weight the way I want? I'm not on any time frame - if I want to hop off the wagon and enjoy a heavy dessert, I don't mind doing that. I know it "pushes me back", but so what? I'm trying to enjoy my life, and keep the happy medium. Many of the people I know on these programs seem awfully unhappy a lot of the time...
The CE&P mods need therapy, or neutrality training, or non-suppression training.
no lie. i'm tired of the whole self centered shit going on with people thinking its all about them, them, and them. you know, it seems like i have to kiss a lot of motherfuckers asses in order to get some SHIT around here or i have to pull motherfucking strings all the goddamn fucking time offline. these people have the nerve to tell me that i can't be mad or annoyed so they try to make me feel bad when i voice my distaste with it. you know, i voice my distaste because the other optiojn would be beating their ass, hurting them, killing them or whatever. i really don't know other ways to express my anger towards other people. you know, i get heated with people sometimes where i really feel like hurting or killing them because they piss me off so much. godforbid if i get my hands on a handgun and just feel like the way i felt today or right now.
but today, man.... i really was heated because here i am trying to get some shit together and everybody was forming the FUCKING ass. my brother felt like doing whatever and so did my homie feel like doing whatever and who gets the blame for THEM fucking up, I DO. for real, i just felt like coming out the closet and whatever happens where they feel like not wanting to have shit to do with me afterwards, that's all fine. i need a new start. i'm tired.
and no, i don't care what anybody has to say about me chilling out or whatever. chilling out doesn't work. it's only when you snap on people that they get the message.
you know, 50 percent of me wants to say that i would never hurt someone because i'm that pissed with them because i know better and the other 50 percent literally says that i would hurt somebody if i felt mad just to see how i feels to hurt someone else because they hurt me or because i feel like it. i'm screwed up in the head. i know the last shrink said that there was nothing mentally wrong with me but i think that i need to still seek therapy on how to manage my feelings better or to help me express the thoughts that i have long bottled up that make me the way i am now. there should be no reasons why i'm envious towards others success, feeling disrespected whenever someone goes into the next lane and speeds right in front of the road where i feel like shooting their tires off where they end up in a car crush or whatever.
see, that in itself does not sound like someone who is okay. more like a self centered, i should be on top of the world, type of guy. i know what my problems are. its that i don't know how to fix them.
Rx for Refuji:
Valium 10 mg. hs and tid x a lifetime. Handcuffs prn.
Everyone wants to be heard. No one wants to listen.
that I'm scared of turning 21 later this year without ever having so much as gone out with another guy, let alone confessed an attraction, hugged, held hands, kissed, etc.
I guess it doesn't help much that I'm only out to a handful of people and don't do anything to look for/hold out for guys to get into something with..
had a nightmare last night where i was at a book store trying to get a sonic the hedgehog book from these things that i printed on the internet. the boss at my job was there. i then decided to sit in this chair, now here's where the dream gets interesting. this older guy who was sitting with someone else right next to me and he decided to talk about the difference between aileen wuornos and richard kuklinski. we were having a deep conversation and then all of a sudden, he started rubbing his feet with no shoes on it with my feet which also had no shoes. it was okay at first but then i was like "hold on, is this man rubbing his feet with mine on some flirtation shit?" then i saw this older woman with glasses who was like "oh my god, these two guys are doing the gayest shit that i've ever seen". that's when the older guy with the horniest look on his face got up from his chair and started to force himself on me while i was sitting in my chair in front of everybody. i got so frightened that i pushed him off of me and ran for my life out the store along with the comic book. i realized that i forgot something so i ran back to the store fast as all hell where i took a whole stack of dollars that was on the counter. i saw the boss at my job there when i came back afraid that he saw him and the older guy flirting around where he would know straight up that i was gay and i proceeded to run back out where i then woke up.
I have to confess to something.
I slept with two of my female friend's BFs, and it wasn't a one time thing it was multiple occasions. They kept coming back because they said I gave them better head and handjobs than their GFs did.
sometimes, i wonder why people actually give a fuck about trivial things such as upgrading their phones and their face, exterior appearance. WTF? let that shit die, man. who cares, man. looking attractive isn't important at all. worry about getting money. i was on the subway yesterday and i saw my reflection in the train window as well as i took a photo of myself waiting at the station for a d train. both times, i thought i looked very hideous. my brother inherited the good looks because he looks attractive while you can tell just by looking at my face that something is wrong with me. you can tell that something is off about me like i have autism or mental retardation by looking my face. even though i got a bit sad thinking about how ugly i was, i shook that shit off and was like "who gives a fuck?" the world doesn't stop over a bunch of fucking broken mirrors. i am much more than my face.
when we were on our way back, this old bitch was looking at me on the train shaking her head on some racist shit when my bro, my homie and me were by the door like we were going to rob her or something. old ass bitch, we don't want your money. i may be a dollar away from being broke but i'll catch aids before i rob your bitch ass. i will diss the shit out of you for looking at me like that though like this one idiot tried to talk about "what's popping?" knowing that all three of us as grown men would have stomped his little 15 year old ass out. him and his rugrat crew.
and i find a lot of the music out today wack as hell especially the rap scene. all the mainstream rappers are rapping to the same wack ass southern beats. i don't want to hear that shit especially from rick ross' camp. they all suck. same beats, same everything... my homie said 07 was a terrible year in hip hop. i disagree. today's music really is THAT bad.
1940s Women are asked to work in the factories during the war
1950s Women are encouraged to go back to domestic duties so men can work in factories; the TV show 'Father KNows Best tells women to obey their husbands
1950s Teenagers are recognised as a strong target market; Benjamin Spock tells mothers that children know best
1960s/70s feminism, gay liberation, divorce is no longer seen as a failure
1960s/70s rebels, anti-heroes and anti-authoritarian figures become attractive
1980s Time Magazine recognises the selfish trend and calls it the 'ME Generation'
1990s punks, shock for shock's sake; family breakdown is no longer seen as a failure; the community of taxpayers are asked to solve their problems of all those broken homes
2000s teenagers aspire to be "bad", sarcasm is seen as normal; anti-heroes are seen as heroes; teenage narcissism and self-entitlement permit any kind of behaviour
Tombo, we assume you mean headcheese........http://i.blogg.no/240x284/http://hyb...1222118496.gif
Loki, no room for the creative edge??
Johann, Your bearing and mien may reflect you inate superiority and the rabble may
be subconciously Jealous...your choice in haberdashery may reflect your mature
good taste. Surely you don't act like you have a hot poker way up your ass (Romney)
or sport the ridiculous hair-dos of the Trumper. Class shows through even when one
is starkers on the street...
A little birdie told me today that one of my former high school friends is now a registered sex offender. My reaction was how I responded to people coming out. I just thought: "yeah, can't say I'm too shocked about it, but still a bit surprising."
i was getting my websurfing on and i came across this.
caught a hard on with the quickness and i just couldn't help myself from . my jimmy has been ruffled.
dayum... for some weird reason, something tells me she stinks and smells like bowel movement but goddamn, i can just envision her doing that on the broadwalk of seaside heights in broadday and a whole bunch of guys unzipping their pants and ruffling their jimmies and skeeting on her face. that was a good fap for a change.
i'm not a fan of jerking off to women anymore anyway because it reminds me of the situation that i was in for 12 years where i was on a quest to make myself straight and i thought that jerking off to women actually meant that i was straight or had feelings towards women when i didn't. i think that trying to even fantasizing about getting with this woman or any woman for that matter would be setting myself up for disappointment because i know that i'm gay. i know i'm not straight or even bisexual because if i was, i probably would had a crush on a woman by now or had sex with a woman. i don't fantasize about fucking or waking up with women or dating them either. it was fucked up trying to force myself to do all that.
however, when my dick gets hard when i see something like this randomly, i have to
just saw the video i downloaded with her and my jimmy is not ruffled. fuck it, i'm going to download some gay porn instead to make up for all the wasted time.
my homies don't want to go to a strip club because they want to have sex with women and they can't have sex with the strippers plus they have to pay. i'll never go to a strip club because i'm just not into women and i don't think i want to be reminded about that. hell, even the strippers knew that i wasn't feeling them where a few of them called me out like this one on hott 22 where the stripper straight up said "why are you looking @ me like that?" that's the end of that.
My professional side is very polished, polite, and dignified. People at work see me as a mellow, mature man. Little do they know that in my mind, I undress every good looking guy during the course of a day's work. I fantasize about grabbing one and going at it in one of the bathrooms. I maintain a pretty good poker face while totally consumed with lust!
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but yeah, i have to confess something. the bel ami models (kris evans and dolph lambert) are FUCKING hawt. it was exactly what i needed just now. despite sweating profusely to the point where it was looking like i came out the shower jerking off in this hot ass room of mine, my dick is in wonderland after jerking off to those two guys. look at kris with that hot body of his (his arms ) thursting his dick inside dolph (sort of looking like justin beiber), awwww... i want to fuck both of them. i'd lick kris evans abs and sniff his stomach and suck on dolph's sexy balls all night.
You should ask your GP about hemorrhhoids; the internal ones are bearable, the external ones will kill your sex life.
I think it is time for me to leave this thread.
Give it a day or so to naturally upgrade.
i got permaban from bodybuilding.com forums yesterday for this thread in which i said "you people need to drop dead already. you're a waste of life and air".
i really don't care if they banned me on that place or not. in fact, i'm happy they did because i don't want to be associated with those people. i REALLY don't like a majority of the people in that place anyway. they seem like some ignorant, miserable, hateful douchebags that have nothing better to do than to act like they're better than everybody else but at the same time, looking down on people who aren't like them. basically a bunch of losers trying to redeem themselves through bullshit trying to look at the world as losers.
i think the disturbing part about that whole forum is that there's tons of people that have that whole mentality where they're extremely materialistic, superficial and think that life is all about looking good, having money, having a hot woman on their side and having a warped sense of the world to the point where life is a joke to them. you can tell that a lot of those people live sheltered lives and really haven't been out there in the real world, period. i go on tumblr and i see all these photos of these male models, who are attractive, posing and what not and then i think back at the people on that forum, the people i see at the gym, and how a lot of these guys center their lives around bullshit. like seriously, why are you amounting your whole entire life into your facial features or so called "aesthetics", the type of car you drive, how much money you make, and the whole nine and at the same time, your personality and your mind is shitty as can be. you basically are killing yourself over nothing. these are the same idiots that are popping pills bitching over a little anxiety such as being nervous around people and whatever. if they would stop centering their lives around bullshit, they wouldn't be so fucked up in the head. like i can't live my life like that. i'm already fucked up as it is. i don't need to get any worse.
i like to work out but i don't center that whole entire shit around my life. i don't drink protein shakes, go to the gym everyday or strive to look like the hugest, muscular guy in the world or to have people admire my looks. that's not why i go to the gym to begin with. when i'm able to get a job where i can stack my money up, i just want to get me a nice place, be able to live with a clear head and not try to live a lifestyle which is NOT going to drain me mentally. i'm not a perfect person but i feel that i can make the best out of who i am and what my life is. i don't ask for anything else besides that. yeah, i will strive to have more like become a millionaire and what have you but i'm doing so to live more comfortably and etc. it reminds me of this guy who i met not too long ago that was trying to force me into doing something solely for making more money. i care about having money as a survival thing. i'm not into this whole money to live an excessive lifestyle which people use to fill voids since they're missing something. i think taking long walks in the world and breathing fresh air that is coming from trees is more relaxing and thrilling than riding a yacht right off miami beach, partying my ass off, getting drunk and thinking that i'm the shit while everyone is watching me getting jealous because i'm basically flossing my money while they're working and struggling to eat. that's NOT my thing. maybe for most of the people on the bb.com forums but not me.
What a woosy.
Must not be very good friends or the restaurant sucks.
A/C room? not even 75 degrees. What you going to do
when Summer comes?
It's going for 97-99 here today and I think maybe i
should have sunscreened a bit lower and more heavily.
You didn't say it was for Thai food.
Hell, I'd call in with some deadly 48 hr
virus before Ii'd gp as far as the corner
for Thai food.
Stay home and play...Take Bennie for a
nice long walk and a fast food hot dog treat.
i HATE it when dude's eyeify me in the gym and YO.... now that i think of it... the guy that was looking at me while i was doing the decline bench press. that was REALLY dumb of him to stare me down like that all the way from the other side of the gym. i was not feeling comfortable when he did that. i already stated so months ago about how i don't like the gym because i end up checking out the guys out and what have you where i might end up popping out the closet. the guy too, he's cute too with a nice body. i seen him around before and him and his boy would always be looking at me like something was wrong or whatever, i would look back at them but now i want him to eye me up and give me attention. i hope he's gay cause i want to fuck him. we can take turns fucking each other. don't believe in gaydar and all of that mess. if he's not gay, i can always jerk off to him in my thoughts.
i honestly think drugs and alcohol let's your true nature emerge from yourself.
with that said, back when i lost my mind in toronto tripping off of marijuana that probably was laced with something, i did some crazy shit that i probably would have got locked up for or sent to the mental institution. don't know how i didn't get locked up that day. i think my joint was laced with something because my experiences with marijuana have always been crazy but not as crazy as that time in toronto 5 years ago.
i ran on the main street in chinatown and went nuts. i almost snatched a baby out the stroller in front of his mother and father while i was having a bad trip besides screaming "help me unhigh myself". when i came down from my high, i went through the main streets looking for my glasses and cell phone with my brother since i lost them. there were people that were terrified and eyeing me in complete horror from the way i acted those 30 minutes. one person even went up to me and said "are you okay?" all pissed off as can be. i then ran up to a homeless man who i thought might have my glasses and cell phone and shoved my hands into his pants on some robbery shit. i didn't say shit just was like "hold up, man. let me see something real quick". all i came up with was a wet tissue. i dropped it to the ground like "wtf". what i'm shocked is that this dude was like 6 feet nothing and there i was, a then 20 year old midget, letting me run my hands through his pockets while he did nothing. WTF?
if i was in new york city, i probably would have got under arrested or worse.
Think deeply about that Loki.
Is free underwear worth the marrying of several women and
taking responsibility for having one with a bun in the oven,
one popping a bun out at the same time and having to do that
for ages. Oh, and you have to listen to the Tabernacle Choir before
all others (and support Romney)...
Better to be a practicing Pagan or Hippy type Heathen, they are less restrictive
but still care and nurture their own.
My morals are not loose.
I keep them locked in the Guestroom.
My friend finally admitted that he had a crush on me (I've known this for at least 2 months) and it was really awkward after. I love him but I am totally not in love with him (the difference between the two is that the "in" means penetration). I just hope our friendship doesn't dissolve. Also, I burned myself today and have 3 boils on my hand right now. Typing is quite painful.
sometimes, i wish i was a sociopath or simply emotionless where i wouldn't get easily upset or just simply not give a shit where i can have the balls to treat other people like shit basically they deserve it.
^ refugi; are you doing aerobics or weights work?
A friend of mine used to spend lots of energy grunting and getting frustrated with his heavy weights but when he switched to aerobics he became looser and more relaxed.