i like being depressed and feeling lonely during the winter. it puts my head down to earth where i remember the things i have to do, my goals, aspirations and basically being realistic with life. a lot of fantasies and bullshit is being pushed onto people where they want people to stay off point so they could take advantage of them.
i myself should be using my time more wisely. i'm not a perfect person. i should be studying my LSAT right now and be working. i LOVE having money and i HATE spending money. man, i want to be rich and the way to be rich is basically getting money and saving it up. fuck this whole spending culture where they try to put this mentality where you have to be materialistic or have a bunch of shit. i just want to be able to pay my bills, have my freedom, be left alone and given my space, breathing room and basically be in peace. i'll help anybody and everybody that needs the help, helping homeless people, and do good things INSTEAD of basically bullshitting around or whatever. i want to do good BUT @ the same time, i live in a world that wants me to do fucked up things. like i wouldn't want to hurt anybody and i hope i don't have to BUT you have some folks that are asking to get it though. leave me alone and i'll leave you alone.