Confess something that might surprise others or damage your reputation on JUB - 2012

[G-Lexington]

I'm not here to judge. But HAD you been fucked before?

Lex

[oakpope]

Despite remarkable progress in the last 20 years, our violent crime rate still ranks among the highest in the world. The vast majority of the world's serial killers still live in the United States.

That would tend to prove that indeed death penalty is no deterrent to violent crimes

[Huntneo(PT)]

I sorta want to put a video of my partner and I on xtube...but I know he'd never go for it. bummer.

[oakpope]

Explaining America to non-Americans is pretty difficult. The best I can come up with when someone points out how "behind the times" socially we are, how violent we are, how uneducated we are, and how hypocritically puritanical we are...is to say "And we're exceptionally proud of it.". To a great many of Americans, these things are a a badge of honor.

Lex

In most matters, I try to always remind myself of cultural differences and that cultures of others are to be respected. But death penalty is against what I consider as one of the cornerstone of human universal values. Yes there is relativism and what is considered polite in a country can shock in another, but, in my opinion, some key values transcend all. And being against death penalty, for me, is one of those.

And you sell yourself short, I have plenty of admiration for what the American people have done and are capable of doing. The stereotype of the cowboy uneducated, violent and puritanical, is just that, a stereotype. You're so diverse a people, you have mixed so many different cultures to produce one that is unique.
But the one stain that I can't let go is this one, the death penalty. It's so unethical, barbaric and wrong (in my opinion and I understand that many disagree with me, but I will never cease to fight against).

[oakpope]

I sorta want to put a video of my partner and I on xtube...but I know he'd never go for it. bummer.

Bummer indeed

[Ziggy Stardust]

I'm not here to judge. But HAD you been fucked before?

Lex

How dare you ask such a question. Just kidding. It wasn't really that he said that but the way he said that just shocked me.

Yeah I had. I had lost my virginity to my best friend a year earlier. We would take turns blowing each other and fucking each other. Really had no idea what the hell we were doing since I was only 14. He was 16 at the times so we were both clueless but had lots of fun all the way up until our late teens. Then things got messy.

[JohannBessler]

That would tend to prove that indeed death penalty is no deterrent to violent crimes

One thing I forgot to mention, that Europeans perhaps don't know, is that death penalty statutes vary widely from state to state. Many states have abolished it.

To address your point, I don't think the death penalty has really ever meant to serve as a deterrent. As unpleasant as it sounds, I think states use the death penalty more for the purposes of punishment, and to permanently remove those criminals from society.

[EuroSoccer]

I sorta want to put a video of my partner and I on xtube...but I know he'd never go for it. bummer.

Put a plastic bag on his head...........that would do
By the way........did you actually ask him?

[refujiunderground]

i think being rejected by someone is more better than them taking you in because they're desperate or whatever. i was thinking about it today when some dude rejected me and looking back at all the other something guys that did the same thing. that makes my life a whole lot easier because that's one less person in my life that i really don't need. i'm also weeding dudes out. being that i'm not attractive, i think that i get to see other gay guy's motives when dealing with me because i know that i'm not a dude magnet where dudes are throwing themselves at me because of my face. i don't like superficial or vain dudes anyway. i know when guys that are cool and want to be my friends and nothing else besides that. i also know when guys are trying to basically use me as a quick fuck or are desperate where they're just dating me because they need someone in their life. i also know when a guy might actually be geniunely interested in me. so whenever some guy just tells me no, i can't even get that upset or mad with him because he's doing me a favor. he's keeping it real. i would rather be alone and constantly rejected than to have some dudes getting involved with me for all the wrong reasons.

with that said, i enjoy alone time, masturbating and etc than randomly interacting with people. today, i was really enjoying listening to music in my mother's car while she was shopping just staring up at the cloudy sky. it was enjoyable. with that said, i really don't need any guy in my life right now and if i do decide to, i really have to like him enough. i usually test people to see where their heads are at anyway just like what i was doing with those online dating sites. a lot of dudes on those sites are undatable anyway.

[G-Lexington]

How dare you ask such a question. Just kidding. It wasn't really that he said that but the way he said that just shocked me.

Yeah I had. I had lost my virginity to my best friend a year earlier. We would take turns blowing each other and fucking each other. Really had no idea what the hell we were doing since I was only 14. He was 16 at the times so we were both clueless but had lots of fun all the way up until our late teens. Then things got messy.

Weird that he knew. I mean, that he could tell a (male) virgin ass from a non-virgin one.

In most matters, I try to always remind myself of cultural differences and that cultures of others are to be respected. But death penalty is against what I consider as one of the cornerstone of human universal values. Yes there is relativism and what is considered polite in a country can shock in another, but, in my opinion, some key values transcend all. And being against death penalty, for me, is one of those.

And you sell yourself short, I have plenty of admiration for what the American people have done and are capable of doing. The stereotype of the cowboy uneducated, violent and puritanical, is just that, a stereotype. You're so diverse a people, you have mixed so many different cultures to produce one that is unique.
But the one stain that I can't let go is this one, the death penalty. It's so unethical, barbaric and wrong (in my opinion and I understand that many disagree with me, but I will never cease to fight against).

As one of my friends put it, "America has much to be proud of. Shame al of it is in the past."

Lex

[Gravelord_Nito]

I'm still alive.

[Huntneo(PT)]

Put a plastic bag on his head...........that would do
By the way........did you actually ask him?

haha and yes, I have asked him in a roundabout way. He'd just be uncomfortable with it period.
I can understand where he's coming from.

And truth is, after I did it...I'd probably regret it as well. It would be one of those 'hot in the moment' type
situations, then i'd be like 'wtf did I do'? Once something is on the 'net...it's forever.

[refujiunderground]

i'm getting the increasing urge to walk around naked in public places and basically everywhere in general. i felt like that when i was at kohls yesterday. i felt like pulling my pants down while walking down the store aisles in front of everyone. my jeans were so comfortable, it felt like i didn't have anything on. fuck clothes. however, i can't see myself being naked in bed though. tried it once, felt really uncomfortable.

[oakpope]

haha and yes, I have asked him in a roundabout way. He'd just be uncomfortable with it period.
I can understand where he's coming from.

And truth is, after I did it...I'd probably regret it as well. It would be one of those 'hot in the moment' type
situations, then i'd be like 'wtf did I do'? Once something is on the 'net...it's forever.

You can place the camera so that your heads never appear.
(humm I'm feeling like an old pervert who really wish to see Huntneo beautiful body ! )

[oakpope]

i'm getting the increasing urge to walk around naked in public places and basically everywhere in general. i felt like that when i was at kohls yesterday. i felt like pulling my pants down while walking down the store aisles in front of everyone. my jeans were so comfortable, it felt like i didn't have anything on. fuck clothes. however, i can't see myself being naked in bed though. tried it once, felt really uncomfortable.

If I were to walk the streets of Paris naked, you would hear worldwide the screams of horror of the 15 millions people who live in the Paris region The French defeat of 1940 would seem a walk in the park compared to the shock wave this abomination would create

(Cthulu is good looking compared to me )

[CupidBoy]

Benderboy makes me giggle and blush like a 12 year old girl at a Justin Bieber concert *hides face under pillow*

Oh no! Now my nonexsistent reputationon on JUB is damaged

[RDaniel]

I got myself a Romanian pen pal (well, hopefully). I haven't been to Romania in a very looooong time and it would be nice to talk to someone from there. I know I have a few romanian friends here and I CAN talk to relatives there but I don't know... I prefer talking to someone else.

Also might be fun trying to teach someone english. ; D

[loki81]

this story is a couple years old, so don't judge me too harshly...

awhile back, I went on an overnight trip with two female friends. I drove, and they put their purses/overnight bags in the trunk of my car.

when we got to our destination, this gravely, gray powder was on their bags. I explained to them that some rock salt must have spilled in my trunk, apologized, they brushed off their stuff, and we had a lovely weekend.

it wasn't rock salt that was on their bags, though... it was, in fact, crystallized fox urine

I was using it to control some pest problems and a whole crapton of it spilled in my trunk without me realizing until it was too late.

[JohannBessler]

I'm still alive.

I had wondered about your welfare, Nito. I still think you could benefit by seeing someone. You don't have to suffer if you don't want to.

I hate to see a person get lost in an abyss of emotional pain.

[refujiunderground]

here's another moment i have to get off my chest. i was looking @ this tumblr Greatest Guys, saving pics for jerk off material. i'm looking @ this page, continually scrolling down and then something occurred to me that i realized many times before but really annoyed me.

why are these guys which are really hot posing and smiling like bitches? seriously, their physical frames are hot but the way a lot of these guys are posing and looking, it's like they're presenting themselves as women. i don't think that's cute at all. it's way too soft for me. it's stomach churning. i guess the modeling industry thinks that guys that act like they sport vaginas and are posing in estrogen charged photos is sexy. the only thing that saves them is their looks.

with that said, i still want a man at the end of the day. regardless if he's effeminate or masculine, i want a man. in other words, i don't want a guy that thinks he's a woman because that's the type of vibe i get in those photos. guys that are acting like they have ovaries instead of gonads. if i were into transsexuals or women, then okay i would probably be turned on but this right here.. NO. at the end of the day, i want a man that smells like a man, damnit.

and another thing too. i know i'm not attractive to most of you dudes on here, out here or whatever but i refuse to get down with that whole pretty boy shit where i'm going to posing, smiling and whatever making myself out to be a bitch to get a dick hard or two. if you're looking for that, you're probably not as gay as you think you are. you probably have bisexual tendencies. it's a whole lot easier for me anyway how i carry myself. i'll go off on somebody before i bring myself down to that level.

[CupidBoy]

^ thanks for the link! All those guys look hot and masculine to me though

[loki81]

I could really go for a BJ right now

[oakpope]

I would gladly show you how French people like to service, alas the little detail of the ocean prevents me to

[refujiunderground]

watching this video actually makes me embarrassed that i live here.

the video is basically new jersey state troopers basically abusing their policing power to basically participate in escorting sports cars.

Second N.J. trooper suspended amid high-speed caravan investigation | NJ.com

you know something. this really irks me because being that i'm looking for work and i have a criminal justice bachelors degree, it would make sense that i would join the state troopers right. the benefits are amazing and etc, right? but here's the problem. they want you to basically be squeaky clean or whatever. they're very strict. these guys want you to not mess with marijuana for the last three years. i haven't smoked weed since last year around june. the thing is how the hell are they going to know that i haven't smoked in three years or one year. wtf? as long as i've abstain myself from drug usage and even alcohol usage. i should be given a fair shake because i don't even mess with drugs and i rarely drink alcohol. the only thing that might give it away is the polygraph exam that they'll give me if i make it that far which i probably might not anyway. they want you to swim, jump, lift whatever, and basically be superman. i'll still sign up for them though being that i have to do something with this damn degree. it's worth a shot. i would rather them deny me then not trying at all.

however, it just irks me that these employers such as the nj state troopers have such a high standard of how they accept applicants yet look @ what these idiots are doing. like i'm willing to do the job and do my thing. you have these people getting all these jobs and they're not even doing it right. it reminds me of the time when i applied to blockbuster video back in 05 and they turned me down for some idiots that weren't even doing their fucking job at all when i was in there. i was like "damn, i'm willing to work and bust my ass" and they didn't hire me. i remember going there to buy something and the people that they hired over me were probably the lousy customer service reps that i've ever seen in my life. they were busy doing bullshit instead of doing their jobs. being that new jersey is a corrupted state despite chris christie trying to present this image that he's some huge reform guy, this doesn't surprise me. things like this happens all the time. the people in charge basically bullshit around or whatever and people like me that are willing to do their job plus more have to basically sit around and wait for their bitch asses to retire so a job opening can open up. many people in jersey will tell you that things are cool but things are ass backwards over here which is why i'm scratching my head at anybody coming from another state to move over here. a lot of people are moving here for work but then there's a lot of people moving out of here because the cost of living is too high and they can't keep up with it. a lot of us people stuck living here are actually either broke or basically working two jobs to make ends meet. there are places that are worse but things are not looking good out here.

for real... like i've said before, i'm looking in other states to see if there's anything popping in terms of jobs because new jersey doesn't have shit at least with what i'm trying to do. i checked the law enforcement exam and they have yet to announce a date. i'm not waiting around til november for these jerk offs to do whatever. i'm just going to do the nypd, apply to law school or do something else instead because i wasted a year sittting around waiting for something. i need to start my L-I-F-E quick.

[EuroSoccer]

I would gladly show you how French people like to service, alas the little detail of the ocean prevents me to

Plenty of Euroboys around here.......no excuses

[Carmine]

I've self-deleted twice before

[loki81]

Plenty of Euroboys around here.......no excuses

I have a boyfriend who can fulfill my needs, but I haven't seen him in a week (and probably won't for a couple more days)

[refujiunderground]

before i jerked off, i've been really thinking about hooking up with somebody for a little fun. i jerked off and now, i still feel like i need to have some fun. my mom is going away next week and my father's going to be working the whole time so i'm just thinking. should i just hook up with a random guy to get some intimacy going on?

with that said, i'm sort of beginning to wonder if i made a mistake closing all my online dating accounts because i think that's the easiest place to find a hookup or a buddy. however, i know that i have a better shot finding someone offline for something at a bar or a gathering than online. the guys that i met online actually creeped me out and were far away from where i was at. i know that they would straight up get into it instead of just kissing or giving me a handjob or a blowjob or something like that. i'm not ready to have my asshole stretched out yet.

[oakpope]

^ So time to meet the Wrist widower

[refujiunderground]

^ So time to meet the Wrist widower

i actually googled wrist widower. what does that mean?

[loki81]

before i jerked off, i've been really thinking about hooking up with somebody for a little fun. i jerked off and now, i still feel like i need to have some fun. my mom is going away next week and my father's going to be working the whole time so i'm just thinking. should i just hook up with a random guy to get some intimacy going on?

with that said, i'm sort of beginning to wonder if i made a mistake closing all my online dating accounts because i think that's the easiest place to find a hookup or a buddy. however, i know that i have a better shot finding someone offline for something at a bar or a gathering than online. the guys that i met online actually creeped me out and were far away from where i was at. i know that they would straight up get into it instead of just kissing or giving me a handjob or a blowjob or something like that. i'm not ready to have my asshole stretched out yet.

have you tried talking with a guy about what you're looking for?

I lost my virginity with a manhunt hookup... we talked for a few days before we ever met. he knew I was inexperienced and was fine just hanging out and talking if that's all I wanted. I set our pace of progression and we ended up being fuck buddies for a couple months (I eventually broke away because he started developing feelings for me and I felt bad because, as much fun as we had together, I had no interest in being in a committed relationship with him)

[refujiunderground]

have you tried talking with a guy about what you're looking for?

I lost my virginity with a manhunt hookup... we talked for a few days before we ever met. he knew I was inexperienced and was fine just hanging out and talking if that's all I wanted. I set our pace of progression and we ended up being fuck buddies for a couple months (I eventually broke away because he started developing feelings for me and I felt bad because, as much fun as we had together, I had no interest in being in a committed relationship with him)

well for the guys that actually were interested which were a handful, they either wanted a serious relationship, a relationship, wanted straight up sex, or i was too shook to talk to because the way they came at me was like "i don't really want to know you. i just want to fuck you". it was like these guys put their interests first and expected me to dump mine for theirs. they were too blatant with it too. that's why i was like "naw..." another thing that also affected things was where everybody was from. some of these guys were way out my way. some of them were in new york, some of them were in the hood. i was like... i don't know about that. it was just an uncomfortable experience just thinking about it. these guys were more interested in what they could get out of me first before even really getting to know me.

then again, offline, i''ve ran into guys that were about the same. they were cool and friendly at first and then when they got in their confort zone, you saw what they were really about. i'm just chilling, taking things all slow and they just cut to the chase without even saying it. you knew what they wanted to do because they implied it with their body language, talk or whatever. i had to put it to them like "i'm not really looking for a quick, anonymous hookup".

like damn, these guys have no game. like dayum, i'm talking to these guys like "let's be friends first. let's hang out or whatever. talk and then let's take it there if everything feels alright". these dudes is jumping straight to the point and things don't even feel right at all.

[streetblackcock99]

I sometimes see the dead.

[JohannBessler]

I wonder how our Elvin has been doing.

Even though we started off on a bad note, I began to grow fond of him, and towards the end, I loved the kid. He's a kind, sensitive soul who deserves more than what the world's giving him.

I don't think he'll be back to JUB anytime soon. Elvin, in the unlikely event that you're reading this, I want you to know that you're in our thoughts.

[oakpope]

i actually googled wrist widower. what does that mean?

In fact I was replying to Loki, but you replied faster than me

It's a loose translation from French 'La veuve poignet', which is a French metaphor for a self hand job

I found an American equivalent : 'Rosie Palm and her five sisters'

[pat grimshaw]

... Elvin....I loved the kid. He's a kind, sensitive soul who deserves more than what the world's giving him....

So is the rumour true? He had to move back in with his ex-wife.

[ravenstar]

I'd really like a cuddle right about now. Just a curl up on the couch or bed cuddle with someone. I think that would be just lovely.

[JohannBessler]

In fact I was replying to Loki, but you replied faster than me

It's a loose translation from French 'La veuve poignet', which is a French metaphor for a self hand job

I found an American equivalent : 'Rosie Palm and her five sisters'

Did you hear that joke about Gerard Depardieu?

It's rather tasteless, I warn you. But the joke was so funny that one of our favorite commentators had a laughing fit right on the air.

Well, Mr. Depardieu peed in his pants while he was flying, so they had to take the plane back to Paris. Someone said, "Well, at least it wasn't Depardieu".

[oakpope]

^yes I kind of like the giggles from Anderson Cooper

We, in France, laughed about it too. But it's no big deal for us
The joke for the name works better with an American accent, so it's largely lost on French people, I'm sorry

For Ravenstar : may I virtually cuddle with you ? I would be in Paradise just from the thought of being able to cuddle with a loved one. Never done it, but crave the bliss I portray in my mind.

[oakpope]

Feeling so depressed today. I can't even stand the presence of my parents. It's like I have no skin, raw flesh and the lightest contact with a human being is like putting salt on the wound by the handful. Feeling exhausted, laying in the bed and doing nothing. But I take my meds.

[Daithi]

here's another moment i have to get off my chest. i was looking @ this tumblr Greatest Guys, saving pics for jerk off material. i'm looking @ this page, continually scrolling down and then something occurred to me that i realized many times before but really annoyed me.

why are these guys which are really hot posing and smiling like bitches? seriously, their physical frames are hot but the way a lot of these guys are posing and looking, it's like they're presenting themselves as women. i don't think that's cute at all. it's way too soft for me. it's stomach churning. i guess the modeling industry thinks that guys that act like they sport vaginas and are posing in estrogen charged photos is sexy. the only thing that saves them is their looks.

What bothers me more is that not one of them is smiling. In some cases they convey hostility.

Also they are all photoshopped. I find photos of real guys far more sexy.

[Huntneo(PT)]

I find photos of real guys far more sexy.

same here.

I mean...I can appreciate a 'professional' photo of a hot model, but the average, everyday guy who snaps a pic of himself on his cellphone or digital cam gets me every time.

[G-Lexington]

What bothers me more is that not one of them is smiling. In some cases they convey hostility.

Also they are all photoshopped. I find photos of real guys far more sexy.

I don't want to get into this too deeply, but to me, they're like porn actors. And porn actors are somebody I might jerk off to, but I wouldn't have any interest in dating or fucking. And not because I think they're out of my league, or I'm too good for them, or anything like that. They're just a different category. Fantasy fuel. I'd rather date and fuck a real guy, instead.

Lex

[JP.]

I really should went back to JUB, really I really should..on the 16th.

April 16th 2011 was my first join date. I should make a thread about a year anniversary or things like that...to celebrate the joy of joining this site.
But alas...the blue format still ward me off "COMPLETELY"

Im sooo lazzzyyy to participate...if only the site make over had done a month later than April

[mikey3000]

I stole something from Sears today.. I'm not bragging but I HAD to.

[refujiunderground]

uhhhhhh... was going to ask something but nevermind.


i feel as if i'm being an attention whore saying this where i'm trying to get dicks hard or two. SMH, i know that guys think about sex every 30 seconds but i'm not saying the following or everything else that i've said with the intention of getting dudes in here dicks hard. my apologies.


i was just in the shower just now having fun, you know, being a little silly or whatever, singing out loud etc. yo... i swear on my life, if i was showering with another guy or a boyfriend, i would be smacking and grabbing his ass silly like "come here, bitch". since there was nobody there besides me, i decided to smack my own ass for practice and yelled out "come here, bitch" repeatedly. after that, i'm just imagine another guy smacking my ass in the shower on some forceplay, horseplay type shit. i'm a little afraid though. some guys have iron hands where they can't smack an ass because you end up with marks.

[refujiunderground]

this guy from new york that i'm talking to on okcupid gave me his cell telling me to text him.

i did it before to this other guy and things didn't work out. not going to lie but i'm scared to text him because like the other guy, he might be pushing me into something that i'm not ready for. it's making me cringe. you know, when i was in the closet, i had some guys that were like fucking sharks waiting on some "i want you" type shit. they were like predators and i was feeling like prey like "these guys are about to pull my card". when i came out to myself around last year, i felt less scared about that and i didn't feel as much gay guys getting predatory with me. it was sort of like a grace period where i didn't have to worry about another gay guy coming around on some "i know you're gay so when are you going to come out so i can tap that ass". everyone was cool and for a good while, i felt like nobody wanted me. now, i think that grace period is up and i guess the summertime is bringing out all the predators out and i feel like prey again. it's like you can see it in a dude's body language or how he carries himself if he's on some "i want your ass" type shit. i'm not saying that i'm attractive, cute, have a bunch of guys hitting on me or following me around or whatever because i'm not but i guess when some gay guys notice another gay guy and see that he's in the closet or whatever else, they pick up on it and give you that look or hint. you know, i don't feel comfortable with the idea of someone actually wanting to be with me or desiring me like that. i guess this is karma for all the guys that i've masturbated to and had crushes on.

i'm really trying to hold on to my virgin status and i'm trying to keep my anus a . and not a o. i'm not ready for all that love shit. i desire it but at the same time, i think i'm better off with my hand and keeping to myself. but i feel that i'm going to be pushed into becoming a manwhore or having some dudes trying to force me to be their boyfriends and what have you. i don't need that shit right now.

[refujiunderground]

me voicing out my anger and frustrations here.

sometimes, i feel like taking out my anger, sadness, pain and frustration on other people by robbing them or beating them up and to be honest with you, i really wouldn't care either. fuck their feelings and how they feel when i'm feeling shitty. if i'm feeling miserable as shit, i'm taking it out on somebody.

[CupidBoy]

^ awwww, please don't think that way! everything will be ok, love and kindness is always better than pain and violence! I will pray for you, I hope you are alright

[refujiunderground]

^ awwww, please don't think that way! everything will be ok, love and kindness is always better than pain and violence! I will pray for you, I hope you are alright

thanks, i appreciate that but it's a constant struggle daily. it's really frustrating. moments like this make me wish that i could isolate myself elsewhere where i can be alone with no contact from anybody. no family, no friends, no human contact. nobody. online or offline. maybe a dog or a cat but no one else. i feel that i would be in total peace. dealing with myself is already annoying enough. i don't need to feel any worse by dealing or thinking about other people.